~a Duele Quartz fic~

by Ayu To (ayu2272@hotmail.com)

The taste of Sakito lingered in Miyabi's mouth. He touched his

swollen lips and stared at the still singing vocalist. Was Sakito

just drunk or did he feel something too? Sakito finished "Desire" and

finally put the mic down for the first time in 2 hours. He casually

walked past Miyabi to get a drink of oolong-cha. Miyabi looked at the

passing figure, tormented by the mixed signals Sakito passed out.

The karaoke session went on for another 1/2 hour. People were leaving

the karaoke house as it was closing. Miyabi had not spoken a word to

Sakito after the kiss, not that he had a chance anyway. Once Sakito

decided to give the mic a rest, drunken friends surrounded him

again. . Miyabi sighed and felt his heart tightened. He thought

he had expressed his feelings to Sakito but either Sakito didn't get it,

or he was rejected. Miyabi's heart was drained of blood when he

pondered on the latter thought.

The 4 members of Duele Quartz headed back to their cheap business

hotel together in a cab. Miyabi took the front seat despite the

overwhelming need to be next to Sakito, feeling their bodies close

together. The ride was torturous. Sakito and Kazuki kept giggling

like foolish schoolgirls at some jokes that were not even funny (not

to Miyabi at least). Miyabi sat in front sulking but no one noticed.

His mind was flooded with images of the kiss and Sakito's heart-

melting smile. He wanted to know if Sakito had any feelings for him,

or was the kiss just a fanservice imitation of REW. , but Sakito

did slip his tongue in. . Questions tormented Miyabi as the giggling

filled the background.

By the time they got back to the hotel, office workers were already

piling up the subway, on their way to begin another day of monotonous

routine. Tiredness started creeping up to the 4 young men. Saying

some last minute 'oyasumi' they went their separate ways back to

their rooms. Miyabi looked longingly at Sakito's back as the object

of his affection headed the opposite way, misery and frustration

filled his tall frame. He wanted Sakito to know and he thought he did

but. . What went wrong? Was Sakito really that thick or drunk?

Miyabi dragged himself back to his room. Everything seemed so gloom

now. The kiss. the wonderful kiss. how he wished that was

just a dream and did not happened in reality. At least then, he could wake

up and hold on to this sweet fantasy. He let out another long sigh

before proceeding to get himself clean up. The bathroom was just a

small cubicle and the ceiling was too low. Miyabi had to slouch so he

would not hit his head as he moved around. Already drowning in self-

pity, Miyabi felt even worse that he had to put up with horrible

cheap business hotel bathrooms.

After his miserable shower in the small bathtub, Miyabi went straight

to bed. Hopefully he would fall asleep soon and not think about

anything else. He stared into the darkness, image of Sakito's face

and that pouty lips would not leave him alone. Miyabi shook his head

and scolded himself for this silly crush. Sakito would never go for

him. Thoughts of unrequited love brought hot tears to Miyabi's eyes.

Why must it be so difficult? Why couldn't Sakito love him back? Why

must he fall for that vocalist? Miyabi hated himself for being weak,

for giving in to his desire. but what could he do?

Mental torture and crying soon tired out the guitarist. He felt his

eyelids getting heavier as the seconds ticked by. Slowly he began to

lose consciousness. . As he was about to pass out, the nerve

wrecking tone of the hotel phone rang. Miyabi jumped up. He looked at the

phone for a few rings. In his heart he was still hopeful that Sakito

might have feelings for him, that it was Sakito on the other line

waiting to tell him that he has feelings for him too. He doubted his

wishful thinking and with uncertainty, picked up the receiver.

"Moshi moshi."

"I thought you were coming over." Miyabi had no doubt who the owner

of the husky voice was.

"Saki-kun..??.."

"I thought you'll be over by now."

--click--