"die... come on, wake up. it’s time to go home." Kaoru shook the guitarist shoulder slightly. "It’s nearly midnight, Yoshiki took Kyo home 15 minutes ago. And if we don’t go now I think the nurses will come after us! It’s past visiting hours!" Kaoru sigh, it had really been a long night. Not only did the hospital let Ceol go, ‘cause her records were all clean. No diseases, no mental illness and no indication that she is sick in anyway. They said she was just too worked up.

Die shook his head. He just can’t leave! For some reason he has a feeling that Ceol is somehow related to this. He must be going crazy, maybe because he’s so frustrated with her lately. Die shifted his gaze back to Shinya. Lifting his hand up to his cheek, Die caresses his face. Gently brushing his sleeping angel’s bands aside.

Kaoru look toward the couch to where his love sat. His eyes pleading Toshiya to help him convince Die to go home and get some rest. When his lover shook his head, he heaved a sigh and gave up. Walking over to the couch, he drooped down next to his Toshiya. Immediately the bassist snuggle against his side. He wrapped an arm around him and decided that if Die is not going home tonight he would stay here too.

Having known Die for so long, like everyone else does, he know that if someone don’t watch Die, he’ll get sick. And in this case, Die might lack sleep, and food.

"totchi-chan, go to sleep ne.... i’ll watch over him..." Kaoru whisper softly, as he notice the bassist dropping off to dreamland but snapping right back up.

Worried eyes look at him from his side, "are you sure?" Toshiya whispered back as quietly as Koaru had. The guitarist nodded, gently kissing Toshiya’s forehead and pull the unresisting body toward him. Tucking his head underneath Kaoru’s chin, he begin drifting off to dreamland.

Thinking that his is going to be a long, he glance at Die and with a start realized that Die fell asleep against Shinya’s shoulder still holding onto the drummer’s hand in his.

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Kyo sneak a glance to his left, and sigh. Yoshiki turn toward him, "are you alright?" Kyo was about to voice a "yes", but thought better of it. You just can’t lie to Yoshiki. He can see right through you. Instead he bow his head, his bands covering most of his face from view.

Reaching out toward the brooding man, Yoshiki took a hold of his hand and brought it up to his lips and lightly kissed it. Then placing kyo’s hand on his lap, he turn his attention back to the road. No words needed to be said, Kyo knows his love is trying to comfort him in a way he does best, and he loves him this way.

Leaning closer until he’s snuggled up against Yoshiki, Kyo placed light kisses all over his producer’s neck. Moving up a bit, until he had reached his ear, Kyo practically breathed the words out. "i know shin-chan will be alright but i’m still freaked out but there IS a way that would settle my nerves....." he whispered sexily "...so gear up lover."

No need to say, Yoshiki speeded up the car and broke the speed limit. But luckily for them they didn’t get a ticket.

As soon as the door closed behind them, clothes were thrown in every direction possible. But somehow they manage to make it to the bedroom. Moans and groans were heard through out the night.

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Days passed, then weeks, then a month. Still Shinya show no signs of recovery. Die went to visit everyday. The nurses had already got used to him being there. During the past month, Die somehow managed to avoid Ceol. Making up excuses, and annoying her calls.

He brought flowers everytime he visits. Thinking that when Shinya woke up, the first thing he’ll like to see are beautiful flowers on the bedside table instead of the boring hospital room.

This time, he came into the room slowly, and walk toward the bed. Die sat down at his usual chair besides the bed. He looks so tired. Die gently took Shinya’s hand into his and kissed the back.

"Shin-chan please wake up. Open those beautiful eyes for me? You said you love me remember? So how can we be together if you’re asleep?" He had told himself many times before that he would not cry infront of Shinya, but he’s tired. Without Shinya, life became meaningless. Music doesn’t even interest him anymore if Shinya’s not there with him. A tear ran down his face and he didn’t stop it. It stopped at his chin, gathering up more pressure before dropping onto Shinya’s hand.

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Darkness surrounds him. Unaware of who he is, where he is, what happened. The darkness is peaceful, but cold, very cold. There is nothing warm about this place, he wants to leave but he also don’t. He doesn’t know why. Is leaving this place terrible? He asked himself.

But even though it is very cold, he had felt warmth. He doesn’t know where, but he wants to find it, he craved it. Even though he doesn’t want to leave, he need the warmth. So he tried to follow it. But everytime he tries he can’t seem to reach it, and it disappears after a while. And he is always lefted to be surrounded by the cold again.

But this time, he would try harder. Something tells him he just have to, it’s important. This time it is a little warmer than usual. He ran as fast as he could. The warmth began to fade, so he started to run faster than before.....all the while saying don’t....don’t go...

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Die glanced at the clock, it’s almost midnight. He had to leave, the nurses were a bit persistent the last time and he doesn’t want to cause trouble. Leaning toward Shinya, he whispered, "i have to go now Shin-chan. But I promise I’ll come back tomorrow night."

He got up to leave just as a nurse came in the door. Doing her nightly check up on the patient. Bowing to her politely, Die took one last glance toward the bed one last time tonight and headed out the door.

Die walk up to the elevator and push the down button. After a minute the elevator finally reach this floor. The sliding door opened and just as he was about to go in...... The nurse that had been in Shinya’s room came rushing out. She looks like anxious.

The guitarist got worried and ran toward her. Die grabbed a hold of her, "What happened?? Is he alright??"

"no..I mean yes....I mean....." getting herself together, "Shinya-san just showed signs of brain activity and I swear I saw one of his fingers move!"

Die’s eyes widen, and rushed into the room. He is besides Shinya in a second. His eyes filled with hope.

Kneeling down beside the bed he whispers quietly to Shinya. "shin-chan? Shinya can you hear me? Shi-" the doctors and a few nurses rushed in just then. Kindly asking Die to wait outside, when he wouldn’t go, the proceed to push him out. Die was protesting the whole time, desperately telling them that he has to be there. So now the despondent quitarist waited outside. He can’t seem to keep still, so Die started pacing.