~Nayami~
by Kurara
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"I love you"
"No, you don't"
"Yes, I do."
"Fine, maybe you do, why are you saying this?"
"Because, I want to take action on it."
"You can't."
"Give us a chance."
"It'd be over before it's started."
"Aren't you going to try?"
"I can't love."
"Yes you can."
"Love is something I can't give, don't waste your time."
"I pity you."
"That's nice."
"... You think I can't see through your mask, I can."
"Good for you."
"You're impossible."
"You're pathetic."
"… Is love… pathetic? Is to want to protect someone forever
pathetic? God! I can't believe you!"
"Love, it's for the weak."
"You're weak too, we all are."
"And I won't become weaker by succumbing to `love',
you should know
that."
"You're weak for not taking a chance, for not opening your
heart."
"I have no heart to open."
"Yes you do! How would you be able to create music without one?
How
would you be able to play music without one? How would you be able
to be so damn artistic and… and beautiful… how would you be
able to
captivate me, if you didn't have one?"
"You're seeing what's not there. Only an illusion."
"…"
"Why did you do that?"
"Do what?"
"As if you didn't know. You just kissed me."
"Yes, that's how people show their feelings."
"Feelings… how stupid… it's such a primitive
thing."
"To still be alive today, it must be important, and part of
what's
human."
"…what is human, that is all I need to know, not love."
"You need love to survive."
"I've survived just fine without it all these years."
"I saw that."
"Saw what?"
"Your mask, cracking, yet again."
"What are you… why did you kiss me again?"
"And I see that tear rolling down your cheek."
"It means nothing. Why did you kiss me?"
"Are you really going to keep this up?"
"I have to."
"Then, I give up. But, I can't stay here and watch you
slowly kill
yourself."
"Fine, leave, I don't care."
"I will. Goodbye, Mana."
"Goodbye."
"Aishiteru."
"…"
"Sayonara."
"Ja…"
"…"
"You've finally left… that's good, I can't let
you stay, your pain,
my pain, we'd only kill each other, you'll see that someday,
Gackt,
you'll know why I had to let you go, and then you'll realize
that…
that I… that I love you, too…"
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