*** 

Toshiya lay on the couch humming tunelessly with a magazine on his left hand and a vegetable sandwich on his right hand. He moved his feet casually and frowned as the phone rang.

"Kyo….!!!" He yelled. Then he heard the door slammed and somebody’s footsteps. Kyo appeared pouting cutely and answered the phone.

"Moshi-moshi…" he said sulkily. Toshiya giggled.

"Ah…Shinya" he smiled. Toshiya raised an eyebrow.

"Hai…okay…err…." Kyo glanced at Toshiya who looked at him suspiciously. The vocalist grinned widely,

"Well…he…he’s kind of…" Toshiya joined his eyebrows.

"Shinya do you know masturbating?" Kyo asked innocently and Toshiya widened his eyes. Then Kyo held the phone away from his ear and the bassist could hear Shinya screaming on the other side. He too grinned mischievously.

"Oh…Kyo…Ah!" he moaned loudly. Kyo glared at him.

"OH my…Kyo-kun…MORE!" Toshiya let out few gasps and groans before giggling loudly. Kyo smiled, "Shinya, wanna join?" Toshiya saw Kyo’s smile faded away.

"Hai…okay…Ja!" Kyo hung up the phone. Toshiya sat up, "What does he want?" Kyo stated that Shinya would be arriving in few minutes. The bassist nodded, "Great! I do need somebody to talk to…" Kyo glared at him, "I’m sorry Kyo-chan…only joking…ITAI!!!" Toshiya screamed as Kyo threw a cushion that landed perfectly on his face. The door was slammed close and Toshiya sighed, leaning back on the couch.

Few minutes later the doorbell rang. Toshiya twisted his lips, "Kyo…please…I’m in pain…"

No reply.

Toshiya whimpered and walked towards the door. He smiled as his lower region didn’t hurt anymore. He could walk quite normally but it felt a little weird here and there…it was just Toshiya being whiny and spoilt. But it was so cute…seeing Kyo cared so much for him…and ,

Toshiya glanced at the door. Maybe he should complain to Shinya about his ‘pain’ so the drummer would stay for hours.

"I’m coming!" he yelled and added, "Ouch….it hurts! Who the hell could that be?!" he opened the door with a fake flash of pain on his face.

"Gomen ne…are you really in pain?"

Toshiya stood frozen holding the door.

"Kaoru…"

*

"Are you really okay?" Kaoru asked worriedly. Toshiya sighed and walked around showing Kaoru he was fine. The guitarist nodded in relief. Kyo pouted, "Liar!"

Toshiya blushed, "Kyo…"he began. The vocalist grinned and glanced at Kaoru, "I thought it was Shinya…" then he purposely threw himself to Kaoru. Toshiya glared.

"Ah…Kaoru-chan…" he threw a mischief smile to the bassist who was obviously jealous. Kaoru winced and pushed Kyo away, "I don’t want you to hug me" he said coldly. Kyo pouted, "I’m sure you don’t mind if Toshiya does it ne?" Toshiya blushed. Kaoru smiled uneasily, "Funny, Kyo"

"What are you doing here, Kaoru? there is no practice today right?" Toshiya asked. Kaoru joined his eyebrows, "Can’t I just pay you a visit? It doesn’t have to be about practice…"he replied. Toshiya hid a smile. He was so happy to see Kaoru but he still couldn’t ‘forgive’ the guitarist flirting with a woman.

"I’m concern about you…" he whispered shyly. Kyo grinned, "What did you say Kaoru?" he asked aloud. Toshiya glared while Kaoru looked down blushing. Suddenly the doorbell rang, "Ah…must be Shinya!" Kyo rushed to the door. Toshiya gulped realizing he was left alone with Kaoru.

"So you’re really okay right?" Kaoru asked softly. Toshiya nodded, "You don’t have to worry about me…" he said nervously. Kaoru looked at him, "But you’re hurt! You’re sick! And I’m … really worried" Toshiya could see it in Kaoru’s eyes…but he denied it. No…Kaoru didn’t really mean that…he thought.

"You don’t have to! I don’t want you to think about me…" Toshiya didn’t finish the sentence thinking about what Hakuei did. He blushed instantly. He seriously didn’t want Kaoru to know about that. He hoped the older man would never find out.

"Dooshite? Don’t you want me to care about you?" Kaoru sounded like he was hurt. Toshiya lifted his eyes up. He could see a flash of pain on the guitarist’s face. Then he heard people walking into the living room. He also heard Kyo laughed and said something.

"Ah…I heard that just now on the phone! Toshiya…" Shinya said aloud, "You’ve been having sex too much! Don’t you think you’ve had enough pain down there and-"

Shinya looked up, gasped, stopped and stood frozen on his feet.

Kyo winced.

Toshiya held his breath.

Kaoru widened his eyes.

"Oh…Kaoru…you’re here…" Shinya blushed. He chew his lip nervously and glanced at Toshiya. The bassist looked dead. He couldn’t believe it happened. He hoped Kaoru didn’t hear that…he hoped Kaoru didn’t know what Shinya was talking about…

Kaoru turned to him.

"So…that’s why…you don’t want me to worry about you?" he asked. Suddenly Kaoru got up, "Well…I feel stupid! I… I better go now…" he walked nervously towards the door. Toshiya wanted to call him back. But…he couldn’t find his voice.

"Kaoru-san…" Shinya called him. Kaoru merely nodded to him closing the door gently behind him. Kyo sighed. Shinya winced. Toshiya pouted.

*

-some pub in 31^st street-

"I HATE Kaoru!" Toshiya sobbed. Shinya sighed. Kyo gave him a look before disappearing to the bar. Shinya looked at Toshiya sympathetically. The bassist held him close and rested his head on Shinya’s chest.

"Calm down Totchi…you’re not the only one…we both have fuck up relationship!" the drummer brushed his long dark hair idly. Toshiya nodded and sobbed quietly. Shinya looked at their table. Few drinks and Toshiya was drunk. Kyo…where was Kyo? Never mind…

"Why do we love them while we know loving them hurts so much…?" Shinya began. Toshiya nodded again. The drummer sighed again. "I love Die so much… but he told me lies…he didn’t love me…he didn’t even…" Shinya sobbed. Toshiya began to cry loudly.

"I hate Kaoru…"

"I hate Die…"

Kyo came back with few more drinks. He made a face seeing the two beautiful people crying together. Kyo pouted. He wanted to cry too. Now that he knew the sad stories…

"Guys…stop crying!!!" he yelled seeing his vision blurred. Shinya nodded and pushed Toshiya away. Toshiya wiped his tears.

"I’m going to toilet" Shinya mumbled.

*

Shinya walked out the toilet lazily and held his cheeks gently. Suddenly somebody grabbed his arm. Shinya shrieked.

"What are you doing here?" came a familiar voice. Shinya bit his lip.

"Y-Yoshiki-san?"

*

Kaoru turned the TV off.

But there was nothing between us…why do I get jealous?

The phone rang. Kaoru sighed and answered it.

"Moshi-moshi…ah…Kyo?"

"Hai…" the vocalist answered from the other side. He sounded like he was really worried about something. Kaoru pouted,

"What happened?"

"Can you pick us up?" Kyo asked with a –little- bit of guilt mix with uneasiness in his voice. Kaoru raised an eyebrow. Shinya had been trying to avoid Kaoru and Toshiya was acting so weird. Kyo didn’t really bother about him and now, he glanced at the clock…it was almost midnight and Kyo called him because they needed a ride home?

"Please…Shinya was with us but now Yoshiki dragged him home. He couldn’t mention us coz Toshiya is…a ‘bit’ drunk…" the vocalist let out a frustrated sigh before he continued, "no…he’s –really- drunk and you know how he is when he’s drunk…"

Kaoru smiled.

"Please Kaoru…I could just take a taxi but Toshiya didn’t want to go back! And I can’t carry him! He’s…" suddenly Kyo stopped. The small guy grinned, upset about you…he wanted to say but he wanted to let Toshiya ‘discover’ his true feeling! Kyo wanted the bassist to tell Kaoru himself…

"Toshiya is upset…and sick…and really drunk!"

Kaoru pouted again. He didn’t have the heart to say no. Besides, Kyo actually begged him. And Toshiya…

"Okay…where are you?"

*

"I can’t believe this! And I’ve told you not to go there! But you still went there! Alone!" Yoshiki gave him a look. Shinya moved uneasily in the older man’s car. Yoshiki ‘caught’ him in front of the toilet and he had lied to him about being alone. There was no way Yoshiki should know about Toshiya and Kyo. The bassist didn’t want to go back…and…ergh! He couldn’t think anymore!!! Those weeping moments with Toshiya had reminded him of Die…and Shinya knew he would cry to sleep!

"But…Yoshiki-san…this is Saturday night" he tried. Yoshiki sighed.

"Don’t you think it’s more refreshing…than just to say at home…" he glanced at the older man. "…Alone?" he spoke carefully. He could see Yoshiki was thinking for a while.

"Besides…" Shinya began, his fingers brushing the skirt’s material he was wearing. "You always work ne…? If you only work and work…and it’s still quite early!" he looked at Yoshiki with eyes full of hope. The older man sighed.

"Okay…nice try Shinya…you got me this time…" he pouted. Shinya only smiled slightly.

*

"Wait there! I’m coming!" Die yelled running across the living room and opened the door.

"Konbanwa…" came a soft voice.

Die glared, "What are you doing here?"

Alisa smiled slyly, "Can’t I come in? Is this how you treat your guests?" she asked raising an eyebrow. The red head pouted, "Depends on what kind of guests they are…" then he threw her a look.

"And I don’t like you…" he stated firmly. Alisa narrowed her eyes, "Well…can I borrow your phone then?" Die joined his eyebrows. "My car broke down…" she pointed down the road, which Die couldn’t see. He looked at her suspiciously.

"Ah…don’t give me that look Die…I’m telling the truth! You can check! The small car parked down the road is mine. And if you don’t let me call my friends…maybe you want to give me a ride home?" she asked teasingly.

Die greeted his teeth and moved aside. Alisa smiled wider as she stepped in.

*

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