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Yoshiki entered his office lazily. Being with Shinya was quite tiring. He thought as the quiet one Shinya would be like him but Shinya was young…and the younger drummer had told him lots of stories…about Kyo, Toshiya…

He sat down on the table exhaled but frowned as somebody knocked on the door.

"Come in…" he said in a frustrated tone. The door opened and he raised an eyebrow seeing Die.

*

Shinya entered the rehearsal room with a cheerful smile on his face. Toshiya elbowed Kyo who was sleeping soundly.

"Look at Shinya…so happy! I wonder what happened! Besides…I’m kind of mad at him leaving so early in the morning" Toshiya glanced at Shinya. Kyo pouted, "I’ve told you to wake me up only if there’s an earthquake!" then he went back to sleep. Toshiya kicked his leg and stood up.

"Shin-ahhh!" Toshiya shrieked as somebody pulled his arm. Shinya turned around to him. He thought he heard somebody calling his name. He looked around. Kyo was sleeping while Toshiya sat down with Kaoru holding his arm. Shinya had a crooked smile on his face. So Toshiya had ‘forgiven’ the guitarist.

Toshiya tried to free himself.

"Totchi…calm down ne…" Kaoru tried to calm the younger man down. If Toshiya remembered…and found out that Kaoru had lied to him…the bassist would kill him!

"What?! Let me go! I want to talk to Shinya!" Toshiya pushed him aside.

"Oh…you can talk to me with Kaoru holding your arm, Toshiya…" the bassist looked up and saw Shinya smiling slyly. Toshiya pouted. Kaoru sweatdrop. How if Toshiya asked him…ahhh! Where was Die?! He could’ve started the practice if Die didn’t disappear!

The door swung open and Die entered the room followed by Yoshiki. Shinya glanced at them suspiciously but remained quiet. Kaoru sighed in relief and stated that they should start the practice. Kyo opened his eyes and hit Kaoru’s arm.

*

"Okay guys…lunch time!" Yoshiki clapped his hands. Toshiya smiled, Kyo ran away, Shinya had no expression on his face. Kaoru walked across the room and Die suddenly screamed.

"Kaoru! Watch out-" he was late.

Kaoru screamed as he tripped. Yoshiki got up from his chair; Kaoru covered his face as he landed perfectly on the floor filling the air with a loud noise. Shinya shrieked as Kaoru pulled one of his drum tools and it fell down too making even more noise. Die closed his eyes while Yoshiki winced. Kyo’s head suddenly popped out behind the door. He grinned immediately.

"Itai…" Kaoru winced still lying on the floor. Die sighed, "Well it wouldn’t have hurt that much if you supported yourself with your arms instead of covering your face with them!" he spoke aloud. Kaoru glared at him,

"It doesn’t hurt that much …actually…" he replied.

Kyo stood right in front of him. From where Kaoru was lying Kyo looked devilishly huge. The small man had a grin.

"Well…of course! Why don’t you ask Toshiya if it hurts?"

Yoshiki moved closer, Die stood beside Kaoru; Shinya pouted picking up his drum tools. Kaoru blinked innocently before rolling his eyes down. He gasped finding Toshiya lying underneath him taking all his weight. Kyo grinned wider. Toshiya winced.

"Ah…Toshiya! I’m so sorry!" Kaoru quickly got up carefully afraid of squashing the younger man (he already did-L7) The bassist winced again in pain. He opened his eyes and blushed instantly. Kaoru chew his lips nervously seeing Toshiya not moving at all. Yoshiki stood beside Kyo, "Hey…you guys okay?"

Kaoru nodded, "I am but Toshiya isn’t" Kyo grinned; Shinya moved closer to Toshiya still picking up all his stuff. Die sighed and bent down touching Toshiya’s hand.

"Let me help you…get up!" Die said holding the bassist’s hand. Suddenly he stopped. It felt like…he turned around seeing Shinya’s shocked expression. Die joined his eyebrows as Toshiya covered his red face with both his hands. The red head turned and saw he was holding Shinya’s hand!

Shinya stared at Die and the red head stared back at him. Shinya’s face grew pale and he didn’t know what was going on! It had been so long and he …missed Die. It had been so long since the last time Die held his hand. Shinya wanted to hold him…and hugged him tightly. He could still remember how it felt being kiss by Die…being in those strong arms…

Die gazed at Shinya deeply not believing what was going on. He was holding Shinya’s hand! Shinya…his love…Die held his breath. Shinya suddenly blushed.

Yoshiki glanced at them before asking Toshiya again, "Are you okay?" that question woke Shinya up from his dream. He quickly pulled his hand away from Die’s. The red head blinked, "Ah…sorry Shinya…" he spoke softly, disappointedly. The drummer merely nodded.

Toshiya got up brushing his palms on his jeans nodding to Yoshiki, "I’m fine…I’m okay…" he glanced at Kaoru then Shinya then back to the guitarist again. Kaoru widened his eyes. Toshiya had the instinct, he told himself.

*

Shinya sighed touching the back of his hand. He held it close to his face and brushed it gently on his cheek. He could smell it…Die must had just finished smoking. But somehow Shinya didn’t really mind that. He missed that smell actually…he missed Die.

But I can’t forgive him! How if…

Shinya removed his hand away from his cheek as somebody entered the bathroom. He sighed in relief seeing Toshiya. The bassist looked confused scratching his head. Shinya raised an eyebrow, "What’s up?"

Toshiya stared at Shinya while washing his hands.

"Shinya…did I say anything weird that night?" he asked softly. The drummer made a confused face. "When?" Toshiya rolled his eyes.

"You know…Saturday night!" Toshiya bit his lower lip. Shinya joined his eyebrows. Saturday night…he was in Yoshiki’s house ne? Ah…maybe Toshiya meant –before- he was caught by the older man in front of the toilet.

"Oh…hai…you said you hated Kaoru and cried loudly" Shinya replied and smiled as Toshiya’s cheeks coloured.

"Ano…I didn’t really know what I was talking about that time…" Toshiya whispered turning away. Shinya sighed; Kyo was right. Toshiya didn’t know he was falling in love with Kaoru. The bassist looked at him again.

"Did I say anything weird after that? You know…I remember I was lying somewhere…" Toshiya added. Shinya blankly stared at him wondering what was Toshiya talking about.

"You know…something about…" Toshiya blushed deeply. The drummer raised an eyebrow, "…About…?"

"Em…about Kaoru’s smell…" Shinya gave Toshiya the I-think-you’re-mad kind of stare. Then the drummer burst out laughing.

"Na…nani?" Toshiya pouted.

"K-Kaoru’s smell? Gee! I thought I was the weirdest!" Shinya laughed harder seeing Toshiya’s cute face. The bassist frowned,

"Please…Shinya…did I say that…like…how Kaoru smells like…?" Toshiya stuttered. Shinya patted his arm gently.

"Well, Totchi…I didn’t know…actually I have something interesting to tell you! I went to Yoshiki’s house and I got some Hide’s stuff for Kaoru! Thanks for reminding me of Kaoru! Now I have to look for him!" Shinya spoke quickly then walked out the bathroom with a sly smile on his face. Probably Kaoru did something to the bassist while he was drunk.

Toshiya whined at his own reflection in the mirror.

"I can’t believe I’m doing this! You!" he pointed at himself, "…are an idiot!"

*

"Seriously?!" Kaoru asked aloud. Die nodded confidently with a huge grin on his face. They were in the rest area sitting down on chairs. The red head had decided to tell Kaoru what happened with Alisa.

"I thought she was Shinya…and when I realized she wasn’t…I kind of pushed her hard and she fell…you should’ve seen those bruises she has on her arms" Kaoru nodded listening carefully. Die added, "I feel so bad…you know…I’ve hurt both Shinya and Alisa"

"She’s a bitch" Kaoru commented.

"Ano…well, quite true but she said she fell in love with me even before I dumped her…" Die spoke softly.

Kaoru grinned, "Aren’t you happy? So I was right ne? She does love you…" Die glared at him, "There’s only one person I can love…" the purple head raised an eyebrow, "Dare?" he asked in a teasing tone.

Shinya opened the door and fumed instantly. He found Kaoru and Die sitting face to face smoking and eating nuts. The drummer wrinkled his nose and tried not to breathe as he walked towards the two guitarists. Deep inside him also tried to ignore the existence of Die.

"Kaoru-san, I have something for you" Shinya waved around a paper bag right in front of Kaoru’s face. The guitarist smiled, "Hey, Shin-chan…wanna join?" he offered his cigarette. Die only shook his head as Shinya glared at the purple head. But Shinya’s glare was replaced with a wicked grin quickly. Kaoru joined his eyebrows, "Nani?" Shinya opened the paper bag and took out something looked like a necklace. Then he waved it around right in front of Kaoru’s face again. Die narrowed his eyes looking at it. Kaoru turned pale.

"Like it?" Shinya asked.

Kaoru’s jaw dropped. "A-ah…Hide…Hide-san’s…" he stuttered pointing at it. Shinya grinned wider.

"Want it?" the drummer asked teasingly. Kaoru nodded quickly. He looked at Shinya as if he was the angel of Christmas. Die looked at him suspiciously wondering where did he get it from…Yoshiki?

Kaoru moved his hand wanting to touch the necklace but Shinya suddenly put it back into the paper bag. Kaoru pouted.

"I have other stuff in here…all belong to Hide-san. I will give them to you…" Kaoru gasped and smiled.

"But in one condition" Kaoru’s smile faded. Die smiled slightly.

Kaoru gulped and looked at the drummer suspiciously. "Okay…I take it…" thinking that Shinya was not Toshiya. The drummer wouldn’t give him impossible conditions. He glanced at the bag and pouted cutely. But Shinya rolled his eyes, "Kaoru…" the purple head glanced back at him.

"What did you do to Toshiya?"

Kaoru’s eyes widened and he turned even paler. Die giggled.

The older man bit his fingernails, "Well…that…" he blushed. So Kaoru told him but stated that he didn’t do anything to Toshiya. He wouldn’t while the bassist was drunk. Die raised an eyebrow and smiled to him. Shinya sighed and shook his head,

"You know…if he finds out…"

"Ah! I tried to tell him! I told him I’m not Shinya…but he kept calling me your name! I can’t do anything about that!" Kaoru tried to defend himself. Once in a while he glanced at the paper bag Shinya was holding dreamingly. He hoped Shinya would give it to him…

"Okay…I’m quite happy with that answer…" Kaoru smiled in relief. "One more thing, Kaoru…" Kaoru’s smile disappeared.

"Do you like Toshiya?" Kaoru blushed more deeply while Die laughed. Shinya added, "I want the real answer…if you lie to me…" the drummer teasingly hid the paper bag behind him, "No Hide-san…" he shrugged. Kaoru pouted, "You’re meaner than Toshiya himself!"

Die smiled remembering what Yoshiki had told him…mean but lovely…lovely Shin-chan.

"Ah…I…I- I kind of…" Kaoru stuttered. Shinya bit his lip trying not to burst out laughing. Die stared at Shinya deeply. The drummer looked so cute…

"Well…I kind of like him" Kaoru admitted not daring to face Shinya’s gaze. He wasn’t telling the truth! He liked Toshiya…a lot! And he thought he was falling in love with Toshiya! But there was no way to tell Shinya the truth!

Shinya sighed, "Fine then…I think Toshiya is confused right now…talk to him ne?" he smiled as Kaoru’s face brighten up as Shinya handed him that paper bag. Kaoru peered in and gasped excitedly. For the next few minutes Die and Shinya sighed seeing Kaoru bouncing around happily, excitedly.

"Oh my …Shinya! You’re the angel! Did you go to heaven and took these stuff from him?" Kaoru held shoulders. The drummer shook his head, "No…I don’t have halo or wings…and how do you know he’s in heaven?" Kaoru pouted.

"Of course he is!"

"Go and thank Yoshiki-san…he’s the one giving me all those stuff" Shinya smiled. Kaoru gasped, "Really? Ah…I should go to him then…" he turned towards the door but suddenly Die called out,

"Hey…it’s lunch time and he might not be there!" he yelled. Kaoru blew him a kiss then blew another one to Shinya, "I don’t care! I’ll just go to his office…bye Shin-chan…Aishiteru!" the door slammed close.

Shinya sighed, "He’s so happy! I never seen him acting like a kid…" he blurted out. Die smiled and nodded,

"Me too…it’s kind of weird actually…" suddenly Die turned to look at Shinya not believing his own ears. Was it his imagination or Shinya had just talked to him? The guitarist fixed his eyes on Shinya’s face. The drummer glanced at him then quickly turned away.

Must be the hand touching…Shinya thought. He couldn’t believe he talked to Die just now. If Die didn’t stare at him Shinya would probably seated himself on Die’s lap as he usually did when they were left alone. It was so embarrassing…how if it happened?

Die sighed as Shinya walked out the room nervously without turning back.

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