Toshiya opened his eyes, and yawned widely. His body ached, his head spun a little. What time was it? He rubbed his sleepy eyes and looked at his watch. Eleven…he thought for a while, so I fell asleep around four…I wanna sleep again ne…So the pretty bassist closed his eyes and fell back asleep. Thank God the curtain was drawn close. Thanks Kaoru, more likely.

Toshiya’s eyes wide opened. Kaoru? ah! Where’s he? Is he gone?! Toshiya whined and got up. Kaoru wasn’t on the bed or the bathroom so he must be outside. Toshiya got down the bed and walked out the room, only to find Kaoru eating breakfast, maybe lunch…with Kyo.

"Since when are you here? And why got up so early?" Toshiya yawned again, reaching for juice. Kyo yelped, "Hey! Don’t drink from it! Get a glass you lazy ass!" Kaoru laughed, "That’s Totchi!" the bassist stuck his tongue out, "Well, the owner doesn’t seem to mind, so why should I listen to you?" Kyo glared at him then went back to eat.

Toshiya put his chin on the table, "It’s so nice if we’re like this…forever…" he muttered. Both Ks turned.

"Totchi, nothing is forever…"

"I don’t want you licking my plate off all my life! Remember you did it once?! Sick!"

Toshiya fumed at the replies. "At least let our band be forever, and Kyo! I thought you’re into sick stuff! And you like it when I stuck my tongue out!" Kyo pouted more. Kaoru smiled at his lover and reached out messing his already messy hair.

"What am I…a cat?" Toshiya asked, snappily.

"Acts like one…" Kaoru began, smiling.

"Looks like one!" Kyo finished it off. Toshiya glared and threw him a spoon he picked up from the table. Kaoru coughed, "Oi! I don’t want a mess here!" the youngest nodded, ‘Hai, Kao-chan! See Kyo? He doesn’t want a mess here, so behave!" the pink head smiled while Kyo threw the spoon back at him.

Toshiya made few noises with his teeth, "I wish things are peaceful and nice like this…" he muttered, again, in the same tone. Kyo sighed, "Yeah, me too. But everything has changed! And…I don’t wanna say this but, maybe Shinya might not wanna be in the-"

"In what?!!" Toshiya’s voice rose. Kaoru kicked the singer’s leg under the table and Kyo bit his lip, "Well…might not wanna be in the…relationship! Die and Shinya, you know…" Kyo ended weirdly.

"Well! I don’t think I'll let that happens!!!" came a voice. Everyone turned and Die was standing near the table, looking really really menacing to Toshiya’s eyes. Those red hair and those eyes…Toshiya suddenly shivered.

"What do we have here? I think I'll go to hospital after this. Can I join the lunch?" Die sat beside Kyo and served himself without waiting for reply. Kaoru raised an eyebrow, "You’re going to hospital?"

"Yeah! Why not? It’s a public place and I’m allowed to be there!!!" Die replied lightly. Kyo couldn’t see any sign of depression on that face. Except the bags and tired looking red eyes.

"Demo…the doc said you can’t visit Shinya!" Kaoru was getting worried. Did Die know something was wrong too? Or…

"Yeah, but I’m not stupid! I'll go to the doc and demand for answers! Like what happens to Shinya, what kind of inner bleeding…" Kaoru smiled a little, thinking that he never realized the other guitarist was smarter than anyone thought he was. "…why did he choke so much blood out and…" Die stopped. Kyo lifted his eyes up and Toshiya waited.

"Why takes so long for him to wake up…inner bleeding…he finally woke up, saw me and called my name! So in two days time, I can see Shinya and talk to him right?!" Die’s face suddenly turned all cold and serious. Kaoru could see him getting tensed up. Hai, so Die wanted to see the doc. But he was going to see Yoshiki after lunch!

And I don’t think it’s the time for Die to know that either!

*

"Ah! Here you are!" Yoshiki smiled as Kaoru entered his office. He sat down on a chair, facing the older man. Yoshiki sighed, "So what do you want to talk about?"

Kaoru held his breath, "Shinya!"

Yoshiki’s face paled. Kaoru noted how he turned away and bit his lip. The younger one waited for while, before calling out his name, "Is everything okay?" he asked. The producer nodded, "Yeah…I thought you’re going to ask things about the band" Yoshiki replied.

Kaoru shrugged, "Hai, it –is- about the band!"

Yoshiki took a deep breath, exhaled and closed his eyes for few short seconds, "I guess you want to know everything!" he commented, raising an eyebrow. Kaoru shook his head, "No, I just want to know what I should know" The older man laughed,

"Since you said so, then I'll just tell you everything!" Kaoru smiled back awkwardly. Both men fell silent for a while before Yoshiki opened his mouth and asked this question.

"Did you tell anyone you come here?" Kaoru nodded, "Hai, Toshiya. But he didn’t know what’s my purpose, and I don’t think I can tell him…" Yoshiki was wondering about the ‘what I had been through’ bit but maybe it was better not to say anything. So Toshiya didn’t know about this…

"Not even Toshiya…can you do that?" Kaoru nodded, if to help Die meant sacrificing his relationship. It wasn’t the time to be selfish.

"Shinya’s parents found out about this incident from Die. He thinks it’s his responsibility though I have to say it’s not fully all his! …" Yoshiki began. Kaoru’s expression told him that he agreed. So he continued, "They hurriedly came and I met them, talked to them…and the doc, Kubota-san…the police" Kaoru nodded, "But…do you know what happened? I mean, why didn’t the doc tell Die about Shinya’s condition? I think he has the right to know"

Yoshiki shook his head, ‘Nope if it came straight from Shinya’s own parents!" Kaoru’s jaw dropped and he leaned forward instantly. So he was right! He heard something about the drummer’s parents, last time in the meeting! "But…what do you mean? Are they not happy with Die and Shinya’s relationship?"

Again, the older man shook his head, "No, they found out about it when Shinya moved into Die’s apartment…" Kaoru’s eyes widened, "Hai, pretty long time ago. What they were trying to do is to prevent Die from doing stupid things!" Yoshiki added rather quickly. The guitarist joined his eyebrows.

"You now how your good friend is!" Kaoru bit his lips, thinking.

"Kaoru, I think it’s wise! If Die finds out about Shinya’s real condition and finds out about who’s behind this, who hurt Shinya, what do you think he’ll do?! ‘Let Shinya be the only one, let us be the only ones feeling this pain. Let’s get Die’s family out of this’ that’s what Shinya’s parents said! Exactly the same words!" Yoshiki spoke, sounding furious. Maybe he felt it wasn’t such a good idea not telling Die the real truth! Well, Kaoru thought the same!

"They want Die to stay out of it! And the police agrees! He’s the only one agreeing with this!" Yoshiki clenched his fist and Kaoru noticed. He looked at the older man sympathetically.

"Yoshiki-san, I think it’s not a good idea…I mean, leaving Die completely blind about his…I’m sure if he can’t get it from the doc or the police, he’ll go out there…" Kaoru couldn’t imagine…and the producer nodded, "I know…I tried to tell them that too! But they’re Shinya’s parents…what can I possibly do?"

Kaoru’s eyes widened, "Demo, though the doc told him –not- to be in the hospital today, Die still want to go! He wants to know about Shinya’s condition, and he’ll push the doc about what had happened, …" Kaoru stopped and Yoshiki could see that the younger man was losing his words, "And, the worse thing, Die wants to know …God, he wants to know how many people hurting Shinya!"

Yoshiki’s eyes bulged. The room was filled with dead silence. Yoshiki’s eyes were shut and Kaoru was supporting his head with his palm, on the desk.

"Do they ask the police to stop working on this case?" Kaoru suddenly asked.

"Kubota said it depends on Shinya…"

Kaoru sighed, "Shinya’s probably…he probably wants to forget about it" he murmured. Yoshiki looked at him, and there was something weird in his eyes, like extreme pain. Kaoru touched his forehead, thinking.

"Yoshiki-san…maybe Shinya will be awake ne? In few days…and we’ll probably see him again, and I hope the police don’t bug him with ten thousand stupid questions! I can just see Die throwing them out one by one…and-" Kaoru couldn’t stop speaking until he was cut by a snap.

"Kaoru!!!" Yoshiki’s voice sounded cold and …in despair. The guitarist looked up and saw those eyes shown sadness. Yoshiki sighed, and switched his voice to a softer tone.

"Do you know that Shinya was supposed to be in coma?"

Kaoru needed few seconds to digest that simple sentence. When he did, his body felt weak and Kaoru just simply leaned back on the chair limp.

"C-coma? T-that…bad?"

Yoshiki nodded.

"But…he was awake! He was awake! He called Die’s name but then when he was drinking he choked blood! But he-was-awake!!!" Kaoru tried, looking at Yoshiki in confusion. The producer sighed, leaned back and rubbed his face.

"That’s a miracle…" he whispered. And Kaoru felt himself shaking, "No…not coma, you mean…he might not be able to open his eyes this time?! In the ICU?! Demo, the doc said he could handle that inner bleeding Shinya had, and-" he stuttered. Yoshiki shook his head strongly.

"Kaoru! listen to me! We have to prepare for the worst! It’s a miracle Shinya was awake, and called Die’s name and asked for water! Yeah! He choked blood out coz he wasn’t supposed to drink! Becoz there’s a wound in his throat, and it pains Shinya when he drinks! The blood spurt out becoz Shinya coughed from the pain…and…it drew blood! I don’t know! It’s just something so complicated!" Yoshiki waved his hand in the air, annoyed with his disability to understand the whole thing.

"We didn’t expect him to be awake, -so-soon!" Yoshiki hissed out the last part of his sentence.

Kaoru took a deep breath, "So, he’s now in good care right? So that means he’ll be fine in few days, and he’ll open his eyes and eventually, everything will go back to normal and… " he stopped. Kaoru knew he shouldn’t be lying to himself. He looked at Yoshiki poignantly.

"Kaoru…" Yoshiki put his arm on the desk, "-If- Shinya does open his eyes in few days time, knowing Shinya, what do you think he’ll do?"

Kaoru thought about it.

"I don’t think he wants- I don’t think he wants to see Die ever again …"

Kaoru had the answer, and it was exactly the same as Yoshiki’s.

"I don’t even think that he wants to see all of us, anymore…ever!"

Kaoru fell back on the chair.

*