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Die smiled rubbing his eyes gently. He was still sitting on the bed beside the patient, but the sobs and tears were gone. Now it’s replaced with a smile, a sweet smile. The red head carefully helped laying Shinya down the bed, and pulled the blanket up to the younger one’s shoulders.

Shinya smiled up to him, "Die…can I ask you a question?" he asked, softly. The older man joined his eyebrows, "Of course you can! What is it?" he bent down staring at Shinya lovingly. The drummer hesitated for a while.

"Do you…still want me?"

There’s a shock expression on Die’s face.

"I mean…I lied to you, I wasn’t drunk, and…I left you!" Shinya pouted, gripping the blanket tightly, "And…" Die gently squeezed his hands, "What are you talking about Shinya?" Die asked, a bit confused. But there was no reply from the younger man. He merely stared at Die.

"Shinya…of course I want you! I always want you!"

No…you’re giving up…Die’s eyes widened at his own thought. He cleared his throat and bent down touching the tip of Shinya’s nose, "I love you…and I will never let you leave me again"

Shinya blushed a little, but he turned away, "But I left you, and I lied to you. Die, you had suffered so much! You deserve somebody better!" Die shook his head, "Never…all I want is you…" he touched Shinya’s forehead with his, "You’re what I need…" he held the drummer’s hands tightly, "I made a terrible mistake, you left me, and I’m not doing it again!"

"No!" Shinya insisted, "I made the mistake! You’re right in front of me…" the drummer looked at him weirdly, "But I didn’t see it, and, and I finally get the punishment…"

Die froze

"I won’t do it again…" Shinya whispered. The red head gasped in shock, not believing what had he just heard. Punishment?!

"Shinya, what are you talking about?!"

The drummer lightly bit his lower lip, "This…and the pain on my back. It made me realized it’s my fault!…" Die shook his head and held Shinya up, "No, I don’t get it. Don’t talk about it anymore…" he hugged Shinya tightly, "Nothing is your fault! Nothing! Don’t talk…" the red head’s vision blurred and unconsciously Die began to rock back and forth.

What’s going on? How could Shinya blame himself on what happened?! How could he?! Everyone was blaming themselves on this, and Shinya…he blamed himself?!!! He’s the victim!!!

"Die…" Shinya hugged him back in confusion. The guitarist snapped back to reality and gently put Shinya back down on the bed, again. He smiled fondly to the drummer and brushed few strands of hair that fell on Shinya’s face. The red head touched Shinya’s forehead, "Do you have any fever?"

Shinya shook his head, "It’s gone…" came a whisper. Die smiled widely and cupped Shinya’s face gently.

"Are you tired Shinya?"

Shinya nodded, and suddenly put a finger on Die’s full lips. The red head raised both eyebrows. Shinya smiled.

"Shin-chan…you call me Shin-chan…"

Die laughed, then bent down kissing his forehead, "Shin-chan…take a rest ne?" the younger man nodded and adjusted the pillow. the other man pulled the blanket up to his shoulders.

"Shin-chan…I will be here okay?"

Shinya nodded, took Die’s hands and stared up right into the guitarist’s eyes. He saw what he wanted, love, care…protection, but there was some other thing too…he didn’t know what it was. It looked like fear, or maybe confusion…it could also be anger. But maybe it’s everything mixed in one. Shinya thought and thought about it….but he couldn’t find the answer, and he was just too tired to think more.

Die watched as Shinya’s eyes slowly dropped down, and soon Shinya fell into peaceful sleep.

*

Kyo put his palms on his cheeks and yawned. He blinked and stared at the ceiling. There were few noises from the streets but it wasn’t the reason why he couldn’t sleep. The singer pouted, got up and walked around litting a cig. Why couldn’t he sleep?! Why…? there was nothing wrong, nothing special…

Toshiya

Maybe it was Toshiya. But…Toshiya was in his room, probably sleeping, or maybe crying or maybe he’s not in his room at all. Kyo found out about them, and Toshiya broke up with Kaoru. but that’s not the reason why he couldn’t sleep! There was something else! Kyo sighed and threw himself back down the couch.

Yoshiki

It’s got to be that! The producer, damn him!

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"Die-kun…"

Die turned, and bowed to the doctor, "Ah, konnichiwa" the older man smiled and took his glasses off, "How’s he doing? Sleeping right now?" the doctor opened the door slightly and from far away saw Shinya’s serene expression, sleeping peacefully on the bed. "I’ve never seen him like this. He looks so calm, weightless…as if nothing in this world matters"

The doctor closed the door quietly and turned to Die, "It’s amazing what love does to people" Die smiled shyly and nodded, "I know. Shinya’s last day is…tomorrow?" Yoshida-san thought for a while, "If there’s nothing wrong, yeah" the guitarist looked surprise, "What do you mean, nothing wrong? As if something can go wrong…there’s a chance for it?!"

The doc laughed, "No, I mean he is fine, and he can get out of here tomorrow" he patted Die’s shoulder, "Don’t worry…" Die’s worried look vanished but it was now written on the doc’s face. The older man removed his hand and took few step away from the door.

"Die-kun…there is something I have to tell you…"

Die tensed up, wishing it wasn’t something serious, or not something about Shinya…

*

The man brushed his blond hair carefully and walked faster towards his office. There was no one in the corridor. The band wasn’t there, due to some incidences…Yoshiki sighed and stopped. What would happen to the band? Would Shinya…willing to…

He shook it off.

"Yoshi-baka…yameru! It’s not the right time to think about it!" he took the folder in his hand and slapped it on his head, "Wake up!" the producer shook his head and proceed walking until he walked pass a turn and suddenly heard something really weird. Like a thump but not a thump. Like a bang, but…it sounded more like a door being slammed and somebody ran down the corridor…

It was coming his way! Yoshiki stepped back, waited and suddenly a person ran pass him. The handsome blond gasped and turned back. The person had disappeared towards the bathroom. Curiousity killed the cat, nevermind. It was his studio anyway. Yoshiki quickly walked towards the direction and opened the bathroom door.

"Oh Gosh…"

Yoshiki muttered as he noticed somebody kneeling in front of the toilet bowl, in one of the cubicles. The person’s long legs visible to his view. Yoshiki walked carefully towards it and peered in.

"Toshiya!!!" he exclaimed, in shock. The older man quickly approached the puking bassist (Ma, if he gets pregnant it’ll be so easy but he’s a guy -L7) rubbed his back slowly but soon knew he was doing nothing to help. So Yoshiki told him to wait and rushed out to his office, to get some warm water.

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This part is so short! It was actually more than 2500 words, but I cut it to part 62, coz it’s too long…and I’m complaining about how short it is!!! :p

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