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Yoshiki opened his eyes, blinked few times before stretching the usual sexy way he did. He yawned and smiled at the window, knowing it would be a nice bright day. And that was when he heard a whine. It came from under the blanket. The sexy drummer laughed and pulled the blanket down.

Came another whine and the blanket was pulled up again.

"Sleep…" came a mumble. Yoshiki smiled fondly and pulled the thick blanket down, "Iie! We have to wake up early and go to hospital! Remember Shinya? but before that, we have to go to my place and get the present as well!" he poked Kyo’s arm lightly. Then placed a kiss on the forehead. The smaller man growled and rolled to the other side.

"You suck!" came a hiss. Yoshiki laughed and got up, looking down at himself, "Kyo, I need something to wear, I'll make you breakfast ne?" he looked around but there was nothing except his own clothes. A snore came as a reply and Yoshiki shook his head walking out the room towards Toshiya’s room.

"Gomenasai Toshiya-kun…but I think I need your bedrobe…" he spoke apologizing to the door before opening it. He walked out with a blue bedrobe and walked towards the kitchen and spent some time in there. Yoshiki walked out with two plates of food, went back in to get two cups and lightly walked towards the room.

"Kyo…okinasai!!!" Yoshiki pulled the blanket up and placed it on the other side of the bed. Kyo whined and curled up into a ball,

"Iie! Okaasan janai…" came a mumbled. The older man narrowed his eyes and scooped Kyo up easily, smiling widely, "I know I’m not your mom, but I’m your producer!"

"I hate you!" Kyo sulked.

"Hai…I appreciate every single emotion you feel for me…" Yoshiki laughed walking towards the dining room with Kyo sleeping in his arms. The drummer placed Kyo on chair, patted his cheeks and walked to the fridge. Kyo blinked, rubbed his sleepy eyes and yawned widely.

"Hey, wake up?" Yoshiki gave his head a pat and poured him a glass of milk. Kyo screwed up his face, "No! Not milk!" the producer insisted and Kyo whined again and again in annoyance, "I hate you!!! You suck! You make me wake up so early and make me drink milk in the morning!!!"

"Oh, you don’t hate me Kyo-kun…" Yoshiki took a sip of his coffee, "And isn’t it so convenient? I get to change your bad sleeping habit and milk is good for health! Ask Shinya about it!!!"

"Shinya doesn’t like milk!"

Yoshiki shrugged, "Then ask Die! He should know!"

"Die isn’t the healthy one!"

Yoshiki sighed, stopped doing what he was doing and ruffled Kyo’s hair. The vocalist rested his head on the table, trying to sleep. Suddenly a noise could be heard near the main door, and footsteps could be heard and suddenly Toshiya appeared into Yoshiki’s sight. Toshiya didn’t seem to realise him, merely walked towards his room, and jumped as he jerked his head up to see –

"Yoshiki-san?!!!"

The older man nodded, his chin on one hand and the other hand on Kyo’s head, brushing the hair. "Ohayo, Toshiya, where have you been?" The pretty bassist pouted, "You’re not my mom!" but then he realized what was going on.

Yoshiki, in Kyo and his apartment, wearing, eh? HIS bedrobe?! Nani? Skip that! Kyo sleeping in his big faded t-shirt, and only t-shirt! No shorts or boxers and Toshiya bet he was wearing nothing else! And on the table, breakfast! Coffee, toast, milk…Toshiya smiled sheepishly, walking towards them.

"Can I join?"

Yoshiki nodded and Kyo looked up to see Toshiya, "Eh! Totchi, help! This crazy old man wakes me up so early in the morning and makes me drink milk!!!" he reached out for Toshiya and the bassist sat beside him, "Aw…poor Kyo-chan…itai!!!" Kyo smacked his head.

"Shut up!" Kyo reached out for his glass and screwed up his face drinking the milk. Yoshiki laughed watching him and landed a quick peck on the cheek as Kyo finished, "Good boy…" Toshiya chewed his toast and laughed as Kyo kicked Yoshiki’s leg. Then Toshiya smiled, thinking about it.

So Kyo…and Yoshiki were together?

The bassist quickly turned away as Kyo glomped the older man. Everyone was together with their lovers…Die and Shinya got back together, Kyo and Yoshiki looked happy together…everyone in pairs…except him. It hurt to see, it hurt to know he himself chose the way but it hurt more to realise the pain was still there…the cold that Kaoru created…

He chose the way…he chose to be alone…there was no turning back!

Toshiya smiled, taking a sip of his coffee, yeah…maybe it was better this way…

*

Die pouted, inspecting every corner of his apartment, clean. He looked around the living room, flowers…magazines, things were on their places…nothing to worry about. He went to his room again and checked everything. He finally managed to put all Shinya’s stuff back to his apartment!

Die smiled happily, gladly…feeling good to be alive. Then he sighed, patted his chest and closed the door behind, walking towards the lift. Little did Die knew, he missed the phone ringing a second after he closed the door. It kept ringing, and ringing…not knowing what news it might bring.

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"Ohayo gozaimasu Shinya-kun…how are you feeling today?" the nurse spoke cheerfully as she opened the window wide and drew the curtain so the patient could see how sunny and beautiful the morning was. The man made no reply, so she felt a bit weird. The nurse approached him quickly, and found Shinya lying on the bed, not moving at all.

She was about to open the door when it was suddenly opened from outside. A man with white jacket entered and she sighed in relief, "Doctor, he looks weird!"

"Shinya-kun?" the doc called out softly. The drummer rolled to his side, looking at him, "Cold…" he trembled. Yoshida-san sighed, smiled to the nurse and touched Shinya’s forehead, "No, no fever. You’re healthy!" Shinya shook his head, "But I’m feeling so cold!"

"Nothing wrong with you Shinya-kun…" he turned to the woman, "Did he sleep well last night?" the nurse nodded, "Hai. But few hours after the sleeping time, around one in the morning!" the doctor raised an eyebrow, "Eh, you need that beauty sleep, we don’t want Die-kun coming in to find his beauty looking tired with black rings under his puffy eyes ne?" the older man asked, teasingly. The nurse chuckled.

Shinya blushed, "I did sleep…" then gasped, "I have puffy eyes?" he asked, touching his cheeks. The nurse laughed, "No, you don’t. You look more beautiful than any woman in this hospital" Shinya smiled shyly, "I’m not beautiful…"

"Yes you are! Come, get up and freshen up! Then change to your clothes, Die-kun brought them yesterday" the doctor held Shinya’s arm carefully and helped the younger one up. "When?" Shinya blinked and stood up. The nurse came back with clothes, "Yesterday, while you were sleeping"

"Nani?! How come I didn’t know?!" Shinya pouted looking at the doctor. The woman laughed holding Shinya’s arm and led him to the bathroom, "Because he didn’t have heart to wake you up! He came back here around two! I asked him what was he doing so late at night…"

Shinya joined his eyebrows, "What was he doing?" suspiciously looking at the nurse. "Well, he couldn’t sleep! So he decided to do some useful things!" she opened the bathroom door, "He was here until four…"

The young man blushed, "Nani?! So he watched me sleeping?"

Die had always watched him sleeping eh? The nurse thought, while he was in ‘coma’ but Shinya didn’t seem to remember that. Then maybe she shouldn’t say anything about it. The drummer stood in front of the mirror, looking at himself, for the first time after so long!

The nurse gasped and looked at the doctor across the room. The older man quickly approached, "What?" she pointed at the pale Shinya.

"This…is me?" Shinya asked particularly to no one. The reflection in the mirror showed a young man, pretty, delicate, but with a bruise near his left eye and a cut around the corner of his lower lip. His hair was tidy, with few strands falling on the sides, and little cuts on his neck and when Shinya pulled the blouse down he could see more cuts. And the collar bone became really visible. He was so skinny…Toshiya was right.

"Shinya-kun… are you okay?"

Shinya turned to the doctor, blankly stared at him. The nurse looked at him weirdly, as if hoping he was allright. The older man smiled warmly, "You are so beautiful…Die-kun is such a lucky guy. Isn’t he, nurse?" He nudged the woman. She nodded strongly, "Hai… he is!" she smiled dreamingly.

Shinya pouted, turning back to the mirror. They were right weren’t they? The young man in the mirror got little cuts on his body and a bruise under his eyes. But he was pretty, so delicate looking…so sweet and beautiful! The drummer felt his cheeks burning hot so quickly turning away, "Where are my clothes then?"

The doctor smiled, "Here…"

*

"Eh…what do you give Shin-chan?" Kyo shook the box wrapped by nice wrapping paper. Yoshiki pouted, snatching it back from his lover while Toshiya squeaked, asking the producer to be careful with the traffic. Kyo turned back, giving Toshiya his evil grin before tickling the man beside him. Yoshiki jumped, laughed and lost his hold on the wheel.

"Kyo!!!" Toshiya and Yoshiki screamed in unison, "You little devil!!!" the singer stuck his tongue out and pointed at a direction out the window, "Hey, park there!" he ordered. Yoshiki narrowed his eyes, "Nope! I can park anywhere I want! It’s my car!" Kyo pouted, "Park beside Kaoru’s car. That’s Kaoru’s right?" he pointed at a black car.

"He’s already here?" Yoshiki looked and decided to park beside it. "My old man listens to me, Totchi. How about yours?" he grinned at Toshiya, who stuck his tongue out, "My old man gone to hell!!!" Yoshiki threw him a look but the bassist ignored. "Okay, guys…Kyo, take my present"

"I’m not your slave!"

"Yes you are!"

"Urusai!!!"

*

Shinya brushed his hair gently, looking at himself in the mirror. After washing his face and refreshing himself and putting some foundation on (oh God…help-L7) Shinya actually looked really fresh and the cuts weren’t really visible. A knock on the door made him tensed up and Shinya looked at the mirror again before walking out slowly.

It was Kaoru and Shinya pouted sitting on the bed. The purple head gasped, seeing the drummer, "Shinya! You look so good…you must be really happy today!" the guitarist grinned. Shinya sighed and looked at the door, "I thought you were somebody else!" he bit his lip and brushed his hair again, "Is Die here?"

Kaoru laughed shortly, "Hm…I don’t know. But I didn’t see his car just now" Shinya smiled a little and walked towards the window, "Eh, I can’t see the car park from here…" he laughed shyly and walked towards the bathroom. Kaoru watched him disappearing behind the door and sighed.

"Shinya…you act so differently…" he whispered. Came a knock and Kaoru turned. "Ohayo Shin-" Kyo narrowed his eyes, looked at the bed then back at Kaoru, "What are you doing here? Where is Shinya? What did you do to him?" The purple head raised an eyebrow, "You sound really alive and fresh! Talkative and it seems to me the little devil Kyo is back!" Kaoru crossed his arms.

Toshiya entered the room followed by Yoshiki, "He had sex last night…" the pretty one mumbled scratching his hair idly and sat on the bed. Kaoru watched Toshiya lying on the bed and focused on Kyo, "Heh…no wonder! Who with?" Toshiya giggled while Kyo made an ‘err’ sound and Yoshiki tried not to blush.

Kaoru narrowed his eyes, "What? Who’s the unlucky guy? Man! He must be suffering so much! You have so many bad habits and he needs nine life to put up with you! Or maybe it’s a girl?" he looked at Kyo who walked away. Yoshiki touched Kaoru’s arm, "Only cats have nine lives…"

Toshiya snored, "That’s what they said…cats only have one life, just like all of us!" the producer shook his head, "Nevermind…Kyo does take a lot of a person!" he straightened his back and stretched his arms, "I do feel a bit tired…but he’s really good in bed, so what can I say Kaoru-kun?"

Kaoru’s jaw dropped with wide eyes staring at Yoshiki in disbelief. Kyo actually wanted…so they’re lovers now?! Toshiya giggled throwing Kyo a pillow.

"Shinya…are you okay in there?" Kaoru suddenly remembered. The door opened and Shinya came out, looking around. The producer smiled, "Shinya, how are you?" the younger one smiled back, "Fine…where’s Die?" he sounded a bit impatient. Yoshiki told him that Die might be seeing the doctor or stuck in traffic.

After waiting for few minutes, Shinya hugged himself rubbing his palms against his arms. Toshiya opened his eyes, "I’m cold…" Shinya whispered and there was something in Toshiya’s eyes. He looked at Yoshiki, who also noticed. "Shinya, you’re not cold are you? it’s such a bright sunny day!"

The young one shook his head and trembled a little.

*

"Okay, this is the medicine he needs to take every night…for a week. Then this is the cream for his back" The doctor handed a paper bag to Die, who took and nodded, "The small bottle if for his face and arms, for the tiny cuts. Then the bigger bottle is for his back. Everyday after shower! You have to remember this! It has to be dry so wipe the cut carefully!"

Die sighed, thought about it then nodded, "Okay…anything else?" the older man shrugged, "Nothing else, remember to come here twice a week, give me a call if anything happens…" he smiled and hit Die’s arm hard. The guitarist winced, "Ouch!" the other one laughed, "Oh come on Die-kun! Get tough!"

*

"Don’t lie on my bed Totchi! Get up! The nurse will get angry!" Shinya pouted pushing Toshiya’s long legs. The bassist whined and placed a pillow on his head, "Urusai…eh! Shin-chan!" he got up, "What does Yoshiki gave you?"

Shinya bit his lip, "You gave me a present?" he looked at Yoshiki with bright eyes. Kyo winced and pretended not to be there. Kaoru joined his eyebrows, "Eh…it’s in the car…" Kyo mumbled. Shinya looked disappointed and sat on the bed, beside the bassist, "Hm…" Toshiya casted Kyo an accused look making Kyo looked sheepish.

The door opened widely, "Shinya!" the drummer gasped and turned his head to see Die smiling. Shinya stood up and Die embraced him for a hug, "Kirei na…" he pulled away looking at his lover admirably. The drummer smiled and touched Die’s arm. They would have spent the whole day staring at each other if the doctor didn’t made few funny noises.

Shinya blushed and turned away while Die laughed nervously, "Come, let’s get out of here…" everybody walked out the room and the doctor held Shinya’s arm gently, "Shinya-kun…we will see each other again. Twice a week, until your back heals" Shinya nodded, bowed to the doctor then said his goodbyes.

Die held Shinya’s hands tightly, "All your stuff is in my apartment!"

"Eh? Hounto ni?" he gasped in surprise, "How come?" Die grinned and Shinya finally noticed the slight black rings under the red head’s eyes. The younger one pouted, cupping Die’s face, "Did you sleep well last night?" the guitarist shrugged, "I will tonight…" Shinya pouted turning away as Die laughed seeing his reaction.

Little did Die know…he was very wrong…

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