VM doesn’t want me to end this fic. I don’t want to end it too, but I HAVE to. She asked if I’m making a sequel…I don’t know. No time…this is for everyone who read Gravity. Thanks for all your support and emails…

Gravity

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"Welcome…" Die motioned with his hands, spreading them widely. Shinya looked at Die who smiled charmingly and stepped into the apartment. It felt funny…it felt weird. The younger one took his shoes off, slipped into his usual black furry slippers then took Die’s hand.

"What do you think? I spent quite a long time trying to make it look the way you like it Shin-chan…" Die laughed, blushing a little. Shinya looked around the living room, the dining room then out the window. "It’s clean and tidy, and…" he stopped, hugging Die’s waist, "It feels like you…"

Die smiled and hugged him back, "I love you…" he kissed the tip of Shinya’s nose and expected a reply but he got none. Die’s heart skipped a beat and he waited, while at the same time trying to control himself. The younger one hugged him tighter, smiling shyly.

Maybe he wasn’t ready yet? Or maybe he didn’t hear it? Should Die say it again? Or…the older one shut his eyes, it’s okay. You need patience…whatever happens. He needs you, you love him, and I’m sure he loves you back…that was what the doc told him and he believed that.

Shinya suddenly pulled away and walked towards the kitchen. The red head blinked, stood there, confused. But then he gasped, "No! Shinya!!!" he hissed and ran following the drummer. Shinya bit his lip approaching the sink as Die ran and yelled, "No!!!"

Die gulped. …what had he just done?

Shinya stared at the tap, in shock. His shoulders shook a little, and Die winced realising what he had just done. He screamed!!! He knew he shouldn’t have done that! But he did! Gosh…now look at Shinya! He was shaking so much…his back curved and Shinya looked as if he was going to cry.

Die bit his lip, walking step by step towards his lover.

"Shinya…" he whispered. There was no response. Die wanted to touch Shinya’s arm. But how if he jumped? And then went hysterical?! What would Die do then? So he waited for another few seconds, but still no reply. Then Die took a deep breath, his brain spun trying to remember what the doc had told him.

Don’t talk to him aloud, be gentle, and nice…if anything happens skip it!

Die sighed softly, then took the risk touching Shinya’s hand, "Shin-chan…" he whispered, gently pulled Shinya closer to him, "Don’t touch the tap" Shinya looked at him weirdly, straight into his eyes. Die wrapped an arm around the younger one and smiled, "I didn’t fix it. I’m so sorry…"

Shinya blinked, looked at Die, then the tap, then back at Die again.

"Dai…?"

Die held his breath, smiling. Shinya pouted, wrapping arms around his neck, "Why didn’t you fix it? I don’t want a broken kitchen tap forever…" he spoke softly. The red head’s eyes lit up, "Eh, forever? Does that mean you’re staying with me…forever?" he whispered into Shinya’s ear.

The young one pushed him away gently, "Nani? I didn’t say forever! Who wants to be with you forever?" Shinya spoke blushing furiously and quickly walked away but Die managed to hold his arm. Shinya looked away as he was once again in Die’s embrace, "Shin-chan…" there was no reply. The red head laughed, "Too bad. I want you to be with me…forever…"

Shinya pouted, but he hugged Die back. Then he closed his eyes, feeling the warmth and the affection he felt. It was such a lovely feeling…it’s heaven…

Die shut his eyes, brushing Shinya’s hair gently, "Shin-chan…I love you…"

The red head smiled bitterly. He was right…there was no reply.

*

Kyo sighed, placed his tiny butt on the seat then shut the door. He took out a pack of cig out then with his lips pulled out one. The singer narrowed his eyes, looking for the lighter and as he was reaching for it, the door of the other side opened. Kyo raised as eyebrow, "Heh. Whot shake soo long?"

Toshiya sat beside him, shut the door, locked it then looked at him weirdly, "What did you say?" Kyo took the cig away with his hands, "I was saying, what took so long?!" he replied irritably. The other man laughed, "Well, don’t get so pissy! I couldn’t hear what you said!" he grinned and took the lighter, "Nah! I believe you’re looking for this"

Kyo smiled, lit the cig then started the engine. Toshiya gasped in disbelief, "Kyo!!! The seatbelt!" he fastened his while slapping the smaller man’s arm. Kyo winced, whimpered then hit him back. But he did what Toshiya told him to.

"You’re sounding like Shinya…and Yoshiki!!!" he mumbled. Toshiya laughed, "I learned it from them eh?" he leaned back and straightened his legs, "Ugh! My sexy legs need more space! Why can’t you get a bigger car?" Kyo glared at him, "Because I’m not rich like Yoshiki…"

Toshiya chuckled, "Die has nice car, small but cool!" Kyo rolled his eyes, "Whatever…" Toshiya wriggled more in his seat trying his best to piss Kyo off.

"Please Totchi! If you’re not happy with this, go back to your old man Kaoru and place your big annoying butt on the seat of his big car!!!" Kyo spat out. Toshiya gasped, narrowing his eyes, "I was right! Why so pissy in sudden?" Kyo turned away, concentrating on the road.

The fell silent for a long while, before it was red light and Kyo stopped the car, taking a long drag of his cigarette.

"Are you sure you want to do this?" Kyo unexpectedly asked and Toshiya’s eyes widened.

"Hai…"

Kyo looked at him, "…" he closed his mouth brushing his hair, "Toshiya! How do you feel about it?" the younger man shrugged, "I feel that I can’t do anything! I mean…" he stopped, looking away. Kyo made a turn to the left and waited for Toshiya to explode.

"I can’t believe…I’m a man, he’s man…Die and Shinya are just like us!" Toshiya hissed, shaking his head, "I thought if they could do it so quickly then we could too!"

"Totchi…" Kyo began but the younger one cut his sentence, "What?! I knew something was going to happen if I told him…I shouldn’t have told him that, right?!" he whispered. Kyo touched his shoulder with an arm, "Hey…people are different…"

"I know! I told Shinya so and I- God, Kyo! I AM silly!" Toshiya cupped his face, "I love him so much…so very much…"

"How do take it? Do you think it’s his fault? Do you take it as Kaoru’s fault?"

Toshiya removed his hands, "No! I can’t blame him can I? He said he ‘respect’ my decision, and he said he ‘knew’ that I’m not going back to him!"

"Totchi, Kaoru’s given up okay? He can’t think about it anymore, he tired and…" Kyo drove aside and stooped the car, "Listen to me! if you really want to love Kaoru the way Die and Shinya love each other…it’s up to you! But let me tell you something! This is the only chance! You know Kaoru and how he gives up in the end!"

Kyo spoke so clearly that Toshiya felt the pain in his ears. He pouted, fidgeted in his seat, "You don’t have to tell me what I have already known!" Kyo shook his head then drove back to the road. Toshiya rested his chin on the dashboard, "Kyo, I think we need time. If we get back together right now, there’ll be lots and lots of fight!" he looked at the vocalist, "I can’t stand fight! And I can’t just take him back everytime he says sorry!"

Kyo had nothing to say, what was to say…anyway? He knew every single piece of the plot. And Toshiya was right.

"And I’m sure Kaoru hates that too!" Toshiya whispered, "That’s why he gives up…" the bassist shut his eyes and leaned back on the seat, "Wake me up when we’re there…"

Kyo grunted

*

Shinya eyed the pack of cig and the lighter on the table hatefully while Die took the last sip of his drink, "What do you think of the food?" the drummer smiled to him, "Hm? The lunch? I think it’s good…" he smiled. Die pouted, "Really? You must be lying! I can’t cook!"

The other man giggled, "Yes you can!" Die smiled back, "Which on is good?" Shinya looked thoughtful pondering about it, "Ano…I think the soup and-" the red head made few funny noises making Shinya giggled more, "Shin-chan…you made the soup!" he pouted exaggeratedly.

Shinya sighed aloud, "Everything you make is good! I love them…" he spoke sweetly. Die raised both eyebrows, feeling himself blushed. Nah, it was unusual. Usually he was the one making Shinya blushed…but now…

"Die, maybe I should go shower…" Shinya looked at the clock, "It feels kind of humid" Die blinked, "Eh, okay. I’ve put all your stuff back in the old place. You just need to get it" he stood up, "I’ll wash everything ne? Why don’t you go to the room Shin-chan?"

Shinya looked at Die weirdly, "No. I'll help you with the dirty dishes…" he started to collect things and walked towards the kitchen. Die sighed, scratched his head then walked towards the room. He checked the shower, then adjusted the water temperature.

By the time Die got back to the kitchen Shinya was almost finish, "Hm. Shin-chan…the doctor said you have to use special cream and special shower gel…" the drummer wrinkled his nose, "Does it smell nice?"

Die laughed, "There’s no smell…" then handed a white bottle to his lover. Shinya took it, opened the cap then brought it near his nose, "It doesn’t smell anything" The older man took his hands, "If you wash your hair then you get your favourite shampoo smell!" he winked. Shinya smiled.

*

Toshiya stared at the apartment building in front of him. Kyo got out the car and stood beside him, "So?"

"Hm, wait here ne? I promise I won’t be long…" Toshiya walked away, holding a box in his right hand and Kyo noted how nervous the tall guy looked. It was interesting anyway…how long would Toshiya spend time in Kaoru’s apartment just to take his stuff?!

*

"How’s the water?" Die leaned on the wall, feeling a bit aware that Shinya might not like his presence in the bathroom while he was having shower. But he couldn’t see Shinya, coz the glass wasn’t see-through and it was roughened with patterns. And Shinya could only see his silhouette from inside. It was ever a problem for Shinya before, with Die walking around in the bathroom while he took his shower.

Nah, it wasn’t a problem at all how Die used to make loud growling sounds and Shinya would giggle. But now…he’ll probably scared Shinya to death!

To his relief, and surprise, Shinya didn’t jump or anything. The drummer smiled, "It’s fine…but a bit too cold…" Shinya sounded as if he was pouting. And Die suddenly remembered what the doc had told him.

"Do you want me to adjust it?"

"No…it’s okay…" came a sound of the tap being turned and Shinya sighed, "It’s better now…" the red head nodded, "Okay then. If you need me just call ne? I'll be right in the room" Die was about to leave as the shower door was opened.

"Die-kun…I can’t reach my back…" came a whisper.

Die blinked, not believing his ears…what had he just heard?

*

Kaoru poured the cig ashes into a paper bag then along with few empty cans of beer he dumped them into the bin. He had a cig between his lips, and was wearing his glasses. Kaoru also tied his hair but few strands fell down, poking here and there, making him look like a…like a working artist!

The purple head sighed as ding dong sound filled the whole apartment. Kaoru removed his cig from his lips, placed it on a tray and walked lazily towards the door. He opened without looking, and when he jerked his head up…

"Totchi!!!" Kaoru exclaimed in shock.

Toshiya stood in front of him, smiling slightly.

"You cut your hair!" Kaoru noted. The younger one brushed his fringe, "Ah, yeah! I got a hair cut!" it wasn’t the tidy style but more like a messy cut. But it looked good. And most importantly to Toshiya, it looked fresh! Both men stood there, with Koru staring at Toshiya and Toshiya ruffling his hair, pretending not to notice the gaze.

Finally Kaoru blinked, realising what they were doing and decided to be wise.

"Ano, what do you want?" such an awkward question! Toshiya bit his lip, "I’m here…" he held the box up, "To get my stuff!!" he spoke lightly. Kaoru looked at the box stupidly before looking back to the pretty man, "OH…yeah. Come in…" Kaoru walked inside tiredly.

Toshiya entered with usual manner, confidence and certainty. But something was missing. Kaoru noted that. It was the sexiness. The passion everytime Toshiya was in his apartment. But the strong presence was still there. The older man watched as Toshiya bent down picking up his stuff, his manga, his cds, videos. Kaoru, decided that it was better not to watch, threw himself on the couch.

*

Die closed the shower door, looking at Shinya. the drummer looked back, innocently. The red head sighed, moving his hand to touch the younger one’s hair. He brushed Shinya’s cheek. "You are so beautiful!" Shinya blushed and turned away, "Use the shower cream? I can’t reach my back, can’t see…" the drummer moped in such a kawaii way. Die nodded, taking the bottle with trembled fingers.

Shinya brushed his short hair aside, and turned around so his back was facing Die, and his lover held his breath. Frozen, totally utterly speechless!

The cut…was red, long from just below Shinya’s right shoulder down to his waist. It didn’t look deep, or painful. But it was long, and red. It was still new, but should be less painful. Die panted, trying to catch some air. He couldn’t believe it…who, who could do this…who could do this to Shinya?! Have they had no heart?!

Die shut his eyes, shaking his head. He couldn’t do it. He couldn’t touch the wound, not even gently or lightly. He couldn’t and just couldn’t! his finger were trembling so much and Die was so scared that it might hurt Shinya…

"Die…?"

Die snapped his eyes wide open.

"What happen? Can you open the lid?" Shinya didn’t turn around, the red head nodded, "Eh, Shin-chan…" he clicked open the bottle, "Now it’s opened" Die poured the cream a little on his palm. Then he put it near the shower and with eyes wide opened, carefully touched Shinya’s back.

Shinya took a deep breath, jerking his head up as Die slowly, gently carefully rubbed his fingers against his skin.

Die shut his eyes and his palm brushed the wound. He dare not to use his fingers, and continued to clean the wound. There was no reaction from Shinya. So it didn’t hurt, right? Shinya himself was busy with his hair, his hands full of bubbles from the shampoo. Shinya seemed happy, felt happy to Die.

Maybe the scent of that shampoo…he thought.

Yeah, and he also couldn’t help thinking about Shinya’s nakedness, and his nudity…and how this situation occurred many times in the past. Except that Die wouldn’t be so awkwardly cleaned Shinya’s wound and Shinya wouldn’t be washing his hair with ignorance. Their body would pressed against each other, melting in a hot passionate kiss.

And Die couldn’t help staring at Shinya’s body, certain part of it…but all his passion and bliss gone washed away as the sight of that wound hit his eyes. He quickly got the work done, rubbing the wound, trying not to create pain by doing so.

"Die-kun…I think it’s enough…" Shinya moved slightly and Die pulled his hands back quickly, "Hai…" he whispered and took a look at his palms and shivered slightly. How did that feel? Having such a cut on his back? The red head was so into his thoughts that he escaped the silent moans.

Shinya?

Shinya clutched the shower pipe tightly; his shoulders shook a little as the water touched his body. Die narrowed his eyes, looking up at the shower trying to find out what was wrong? Were there needles coming out instead of water? The red head looked down, and gasped in shock.

The tiles of the floor covered by foam and something else…making the foam looked slightly red.

"Shinya?" this time he called out. The drummer whimpered, shaking his head.

"Pain…" came a mutter. Die stared at the back, but there was no blood or anything! How come…? Was it…the water? It hurt when the water washed the wound?! The red head bit his lip, his vision blurred. But he could still see Shinya quivered in pain, whimpering softly.

"Shhh…" Die suddenly had the guts to hold Shinya’s shoulders, "It’s okay…" he hugged Shinya’s body tight from behind, leaning his head beside Shinya’s. The drummer called his name once, twice, telling him in such a soft voice it hurt so much. Die couldn’t think anymore, was it real pain, or maybe it was just the sort of pain the doc had told him.

"Shin-chan…I’m here…you’re not in pain…" Die started to move his body, rocking it back and forth while holding Shinya’s body tightly in his arms. The drummer sobbed while the red head started to cry quietly. He didn’t care anymore…he didn’t care if the tight hug hurt, he didn’t care if the water pierced Shinya’s body.

Now all he wanted to do, is to be with Shinya, feeling the pain, hearing the whimpers panged his heart, making him cry.

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