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Kyo looked at his watch, sighing slightly. He looked around. The rehearsal room wasn’t empty but it felt empty without the rest of the members. There were only Kaoru and Toshiya … Kyo smirk, …and Yoshiki.

Kaoru was talking (chatting) seriously to the sound system guys, while Toshiya was ‘dealing’ with his sleepiness. Every few seconds, Kaoru would take a look at Toshiya and the younger one would pretend he was writing something on some papers on the table. Kyo smirk, he was probably doing some stupid drawings of Kaoru!

Kyo himself was sitting on the couch, eyes threatening to drop any second. He looked at his watch, and sighed. It had been few days since the last time they talked to Shinya. Few days, three days? And now the meeting went on and Yoshiki wanted the rest of them to work!

"Hey lazy ass! Get up and do something!" somebody patted his head. He looked up to see Yoshiki pouting at him. "No, why should I? Sleepy ne…"

"Come on Kyo! Everybody is doing something, and it’s not fair you just sit here…" Yoshiki reasoned but Kyo laughed, "Do you really think they work so hard? Toshiya is about to sleep and Kaoru is going crazy with the guys! Look at them!" he spread his arms wide. Yoshiki glanced at the other two. Kyo was right.

"Fine! But you have to do something! Get up!" he pulled Kyo’s arms and dragged him towards the table. Toshiya, who was chewing his pencil, choked and nodded at him. Kaoru smiled and started to talk about his new sound effect. The rest of the crew suddenly seemed so serious.

"Kaoru, come here!" Yoshiki sat on the chair, "We’re visiting Shinya this evening. After dinner, come to my office first then we go together." The purple head nodded, "Okay. Did you give them a call?" Yoshiki smiled, "Yeah. Apparently Shinya is a bit…"

Toshiya stood up, "Nani?" he asked, looking worried. The producer shook his head, "Ano, you know how Shinya is towards phones" everyone put up a knowing look. "Few days ago, I think the day Shinya was out, there was a strange phone call" Toshiya blinked in confusion, Kaoru looked aware while Kyo looked a bit interested.

"What do you mean?" the vocalist asked thoughtfully. The blonde shrugged, "Die wants to know if you guys called him that day, the day Shinya’s out form the hospital" he looked at everyone..

"I haven’t talked to Die since then…not me" Toshiya shook his head. Kyo did the same, "Hai, me too" everyone looked at Kaoru, "I knew about that phone call, Die told me. we talked on the phone few times, but I never seen him since the day we’re in the hospital, and I’ve told him it couldn’t be one of us" he explained briefly.

"I know" Yoshiki muttered, "I’m just a bit aware…"

Toshiya leaned forward, "What does it mean by ‘strange’ call? How strange is it? What happened?" Toshiya asked, plainly. Kyo nodded to him, "Yeah, I was about to ask the same" Yoshiki looked at Kaoru instead of answering the question. The guitarist brushed his eyebrow with a finger, "Well, the person, a man, was looking for Die"

"Die answered the phone?" Toshiya asked. The older man couldn’t help smiling, "No. It’s Shinya."

"Then?"

"The man said something about asking Die out, possibly for drinks" Kaoru added, "Then he said something about police…about the police arriving there" Kyo lifted both eyebrows, looking at the purple head, "Did he sound like he’s drunk?" Kaoru nodded.

"Well, probably it was just some stupid drunkard!" Toshiya shrugged. Kaoru shook his head, "NO. He called Die by red head. He knew who Die was. But Die doesn’t know who he is!"

Kyo suddenly gasped, "How if it’s…oh! How if Die cheated on Shinya once and the man wanted to see him?" he looked surprise. Everyone looked at the singer stupidly. Then he blushed, "Okay, sorry…"

Yoshiki smiled, "Anyways, remember my office, after dinner! Seven o’clock" Kaoru nodded, glancing at Toshiya then smiled. The bassist smiled back and sat down while Kyo walked back to the couch. Yoshiki touched his lips, "Should be buy something for Shinya?" Toshiya looked up.

"Maybe flowers…of fruit?" Toshiya suggested but then he laughed, "How about jelly?!" Kaoru laughed a little, "No. Shinya answered that strange phone coz Die was down the building shopping jelly!" Toshiya looked surprise.

"Fruit will do…" Yoshiki nodded to himself before walking out the room.

*

Die watched fondly as Shinya walked into the bathroom, brushing his hair as he did so. "Die…" he called out from the bathroom. The red head replied slowly stepped near the door and leaned on the wall. The drummer looked at him, "Do you think my hair gets really dry?" Die looked then shook his head, "Not THAT dry…" he smiled as Shinya sighed.

"Dry hair aren’t healthy!" he pouted. "Do you think it will get healthy?" Die nodded, "If you use the right shampoo but then what you eat affects your hair too!" he laughed hugging Shinya form behind. The drummer smiled widely to his reflection, ‘jellies are good for hair ne?"

Die laughed.

"I’m not pretty…" Shinya suddenly whispered. The red head looked at him weirdly, "Yes you are!" he touched the shoulders gently, giving them a very very gentle massage scared that Shinya might feel pain.

"I’m not…I always want to be pretty for you" he touched his own cheek, "And I’m happy whenever you say I am…" he stared at the mirror for so long that Die was starting to get really worried.

"I guess now I can’t be pretty…anymore"

Die sighed softly, control yourself! Don’t lose it! Remember what the doctor told you! Die turned him around slowly, "I love you very much. Shin-chan, you’re always beautiful! Everything about you seem so beautiful!" he waited for a reply but Shinya stood in front of him, not giving any reaction.

"Shinya, I love you for you! didn’t I tell you that already? I want to be with you! And to me, you’re what beauty is! Didn’t I tell you that before?" Die asked, studying his lover’s face. Staring deeply into Shinya’s eyes, he realized they were dark. There was something in those eyes, but Die didn’t know what it was.

Shinya blinked, smiled and hugged Die. There was nothing to say, no words at all. Die stroke Shinya’s hair gently, trying to show his love and are as much as possible. He lifted his eyes up, and saw his own reflection in the mirror having Shinya in his arms. He couldn’t see Shinya’s face. But he could see his back. Shinya's back, with a long cut on it…

Shinya pulled away, smiling to himself. Die followed as he walked out the bathroom. Shinya sat on the bed and took something from the bedside table. It was the book Kyo gave him.

"Oh!" Die suddenly remembered, "Shin-chan, your mom called just now" the drummer’s eyes lit up, "She did?" Die nodded sitting in front of his love, "They’re asking about you, and asked about me" he took Shinya’s slender hands, "And they mentioned something about new dog…" Die laughed as Shinya suddenly looked really startled.

"New dog? They got a new dog?"

Die shook his head, "NO, they don’t get a new dog! And they won’t get a new dog" he nudged Shinya’s arm, "But YOU will"

"Nani?!" Shinya exclaimed in joy. All happiness all bliss in this world shown on his pretty face. Shinya flipped the book closed, placed it on the table and smiled at Die, "Do I get to choose?" the red head nodded. Shinya beamed so happily that he threw his arms around Die.

They stayed that way for a long time, just merely hugging each other, inhaling each other’s scent. Shinya brushed Die’s back while Die touched his hair fondly. Shinya suddenly pulled away, staring at Die.

"Dai…thank you…"

Shinya moved forward kissing Die’s cheek before the red head could catch what he had just said.

Thank you…?

"This is heaven…" Shinya hugged him again, "I’m feeling so happy…it can’t be real…" he whispered. Die took a deep breath and fell silent, not knowing what to say. The drummer pulled back again, smiling. Then he rubbed his eyes slowly. The older man quickly held the wrists, "Don’t rub your eyes!"

Shinya pouted, "Itchy…" (Eh, in Othello, Desdemona’s eyes itched the night she was murdered. Okay, sorry –L7) he muttered. Die smiled and pulled Shinya’s hands away from his face, "It will get worse!" the younger one smiled back, resting his forehead on Die’s chin.

"Tired?" Shinya nodded. "Do you want to sleep?" Shinya nodded again. Die moved back, turning the bedside lamp off, "Lay down" Shinya did what he was told to and watched as the other man covered him with blanket, and Die lay beside him on the thick cloth. The drummer hugged his neck, closing his eyes.

Die kissed Shinya’s cheek and shut his eyes.

"Die…"

"Hm?"

Die hugged Shinya tighter, at the same time being very careful with the cut on his back. Shinya sighed and snuggled up more.

"Die…"

"Nani?"

Shinya opened his eyes, all the smile and happiness, and bliss gone in seconds.

"Dai…"

*

7.16 pm

Yoshiki looked at his watch, smiled and stood up. He casted his eyes around the office. Kaoru was sitting down and opposite him was Toshiya. Both were staring at each other in such a way that- Kyo shifted a little. Yoshiki switched his attention to the small guy. Kaoru, who noticed the stare, woke Kyo up.

"Hey, let’s go!" he took out his keys and his bag and everybody stood up.

*

The guard nodded to him as Yoshiki walked pass. The handsome blond nodded back, smiling a little. They were walking towards the carpark when Yoshiki suddenly decided to ask, "Kaoru, when was the last time you talked to Die?" Kaoru looked surprised but he answered anyway.

"Yesterday…? In the afternoon"

"Why?" Kyo asked looking up at his lover. Yoshiki shrugged, "Becoz I want to know if he sounds a bit weird?" he looked at Kaoru, who gasped and suddenly nodded, "You felt that too?!" The older man nodded, "Hai!"

"Wait! Why do you mean by that?!" Toshiya continued to protest and Kyo started to throw some sentences. Kaoru sighed pulling Kyo’s arm, "Will you shut up so I can tell?" he hissed at Kyo with an amused look on his face. The singer looked at him in disbelief.

"Great! Toshiya started it first but I’m the one getting blamed!" he looked at Yoshiki, "This is not fair for me…" Toshiya put a hand on his hip, pouting at Kyo. Kaoru blushed a little and let go.

"Die sounds a bit…I don’t know. Tired, perhaps?" Kaoru looked at the older man.

"Exhausted"

Toshiya looked at Kyo, who looked back at him. "Then…I asked him why he sounded so bad…he didn’t really answer me. Just merely gave me some weird excuse"

"Yeah, I asked him too. But he didn’t answer me. He said, ‘if only you knew Kaoru…’ I didn’t really know what he meant" Kaoru rubbed his nose. Toshiya thought for a while, "Why do I feel it has something to do with Shinya?" everyone looked at him. Kyo bit his lip, "Maybe Shinya…I don’t know"

"Come on guys…the sooner we get there, the faster we get the answer" Yoshiki took out his key, "Oh! So you’re driving your car Kaoru/" the younger one smiled, "It’s just there…" he pointed at a black car. Kyo opened the car door while staring at Toshiya with a mischievous smile on his face.

" *ahem* Totchi, I need to talk to Yoshiki. So I think…" Kyo raised an eyebrow. Yoshiki jerked his head up, looking confused while Toshiya narrowed his eyes, glaring at him.

"Eh, but don’t worry about your long sexy legs. Kaoru!" he called out and the purple head turned, "You got a big car right? Toshiya was moaning about his sexy legs the other day. Something about the narrow space of my car. And since Yoshiki drives a small one today, maybe it’s better for Totchi to go with you?"

Kaoru winked at the vocalist, "Yeah, sure" Toshiya pouted looking at Kyo annoyingly. Yoshiki tried not to laugh and got into his car, "Come on Kyo!" the singer grinned and blew a kiss to Toshiya before sitting in the car and waved him goodbye. Kaoru stood behind the bassist, watching the car slowly drove out the parking space.

"Toshiya, let’s go!" Kaoru exclaimed innocently. Toshiya mumbled something inaudibly but followed the older man to a black car. That familiar black car, he blushed. "Sit in front!" Kaoru sounded like he was giving an order. He sat in and turned the engine on. Toshiya fastened his seatbelt while trying his best to ignore to driver.

Kaoru looked at him smiling slowly. Toshiya cleared his throat, brushed his hair then glanced at Kaoru.

*

"So what was it, going to talk to me?" Yoshiki looked at his lover, slightly amused. Kyo stuck his tongue out, "Who wants to talk to you? I was just trying to get Totchi into Kaoru’s car" he leaned back. "There are so many memories in the car" he grinned. Yoshiki looked away before suddenly stopped the car. Its wheels made loud noises towards the road.

Kyo jumped, startled.

"What-what are you doing?"

Yoshiki smirk, "Should we make our own memory then?" he spoke turning back to the backseat. Kyo eyed him suspiciously, feeling himself shivered in cold…and something else. Yoshiki laughed, "Oh, look at you! Dangerous Kyo-sama is scared!" the singer didn’t know hat the other one was up to, until the producer started the engine and drove off.

"Yoshiki, fuck you!!!" Kyo clenched his fists, nearly scared to death.

"Oh, you want to? I would like to try the submissive role once in a while" he spoke cheerfully and laughed as Kyo scowled him.

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