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Yoshiki looked around nervously before a policeman greeted him.

"Ano…Yoshiki-sama?" few people turned to look at him. He turned too nodding to the man. Then the police led him to his office. There were few people in there; most of them were in uniforms. A woman came out of the room smiling to him, "I thought he was a girl…you must be here for him right?" the woman pointed into the room. Yoshiki joined his eyebrows and saw a person sitting down biting his fingernails. That person looked like a girl.

"He’s really scared…somebody had been following him even through the crowd" she smiled again before went away. Yoshiki wet his lips and entered the office.

"Shinya!" he called for the drummer. Shinya got up nervously and nodded to him. Yoshiki sighed and glanced at him from head to toe. "Where have you been?" he asked confusedly. Shinya pouted. The policeman laughed, "A disco club in 31^st street…" he answered for the drummer. Shinya blushed. Yoshiki shook his head slowly.

"Shinya…even if you’re a guy…never walk in 31^st street alone…" Shinya nodded. The policeman took a notepad out. He told Yoshiki how many girls and guys were attacked around that area. (My imagination okay J -L7) Yoshiki looked at him placing his hands on his waist. "Did you hear that Shinya?" he asked aloud. Shinya blushed deeply and merely nodded.

"Okay…you can go now…next time, be careful" The policeman waved to them. Yoshiki nodded and Shinya thanked the officer.

*

"I can’t believe this!"

"Die? Where are you?" Kaoru held his phone nearer to his ear. Toshiya and Kyo were with him in quiet pub. Die had gone following Shinya out of the earlier club. Kaoru hadn’t heard from the red head since then.

"I’m in my car parked opposite Shinya’s apartment. And guess what! He’s not back yet!" Die yelled in frustration. He had called the apartment, no one answered the phone. He knocked loudly at the door and pressed the bell hundred times…no one opened it. Die waited and waited for Shinya but he didn’t come back at all. The lights were out and Shinya was no where.

He heard Kaoru sighed, "Die…go back and sleep" the older man spoke softly. He sounded like he was rubbing his chest. Die pouted, "No! how if something happened to him?"

"Die! This is Shinya we’re talking about! Do you think he can get in trouble as easy as anybody else?" Kaoru snapped. "Go back and sleep! We’re going back too!" he glanced at the sleeping Kyo and pouting Toshiya. Die let out a tired moan.

"Okay…" he started the engine and drove off.

*

"I think you’ll feel safer here…" Yoshiki threw himself on the couch. Shinya stood frozen in the living room. He had told the older man not to take him back to his apartment. So Yoshiki happily took him to his place saving all his time to drive here and there.

"Ano…I think you can sleep in the guest room. I’ll get the blanket out for you…and you need a towel right?" Yoshiki got up and walked towards him. Shinya suddenly bowed, "I’m so sorry…" he said weakly. Yoshiki shook his head patting Shinya’s shoulder.

"Ne…it’s okay…" he sounded tired.

Shinya jerked his head up and stared at the producer. Yoshiki saw those blushing cheeks. He saw those eyes too. They showed sadness and fear. Yoshiki smiled to him before pulling his arm. The older man made him sit on the couch.

"Shinya…" he sat beside the younger man, "What happened to you?" it was odd imagining Shinya the quiet one wondering around alone with sexy clothes pass midnight. Something must have happened.

"You were not alone right?" he asked studying Shinya’s expression. Now the younger man looked really nervous. Shinya didn’t want to tell him…but he had taken Shinya out of the police station.

"I felt tired and decided to leave alone…" Shinya stated dryly. Yoshiki asked him again. This time he mentioned his band mates. Shinya’s mind flew to Die. Shinya knew Die wanted to talk to him. Shinya knew what he was going to say. Shinya knew Die would call him stupid. Die would introduce him to his new girl. Yoshiki saw Shinya playing his fingers clenching his nails tightly on his thighs.

They looked so frail…so thin…Yoshiki jerked his head up. Shinya was drowning in his own mind thinking about Die. The older man observed his face…somethingYoshiki never did to Shinya. He looked so beautiful and fragile. Yoshiki felt like protecting the younger man. But he quickly turned away.

Shinya was not Hide…no one could be Hide. No one could replace Hide’s position in his heart. Then he heard a faint sob.

*

Die tossed around on his bed. He swore and threw his pillow away. He sat up and brushed his hair roughly.

*

Yoshiki held him in his arms. Shinya closed his eyes resting his head on the older man’s chest. Shinya could hear his heartbeat. It was fast…as fast as Die’s when the red head had him in his arms. Sometimes Die’s heartbeat would be really slow and faint that Shinya thought his lover was dead not asleep. Then Die would jump up feeling something tickling his chest. Then Die would blush realizing that it was Shinya’s hair. There were so many memories…and everything reminded him of Die.

There were so many things to do when two people live together and share love. How could Die say it’s boring? There were so many memories…Shinya could write a book about them. How could Die say he was stuck with him? Didn’t Die say he loved him?

Shinya sobbed quietly knowing his heart breaking into pieces. He felt Yoshiki brushing his hair gently. He smiled. Die did that too…

*

"Do you know what time it is?" an angry voice greeted him. "It’s…flippin’ three!!! And I need some sleep coz I have to get up at seven tomorrow!!!"

"Kaoru…it’s me…" he said slowly.

"Die?"

"I can’t sleep…" Die whined. Kaoru sighed, now he’s behaving like a kid! And I’m the one he comes to! Great! "Die…sleep! Take sleeping pills! Whatever!" Kaoru yelled. Die pouted suddenly he heard somebody else’s voice on the phone.

"Mnn…why are you yelling?"

"Gomen ne…sleep Totchi…it’s Die…"

"Tell him to count sheeps…it works all the time…"

Die sighed.

*

Shinya stood in front of the open door. Yoshiki held him a new towel. He had stopped crying but his eyes were still wet. The older man brushed his cheeks gently. "Are you okay?" He nodded few times and smiled nervously. Yoshiki smiled back, "If you want to talk about it…I’ll save my time for you" Shinya smiled again and nodded, "Arigato…" he said softly. Yoshiki’s touch felt so nice…when was the last time he was touched this way? Shinya missed Die as much as Yoshiki missed Hide. The older man needed someone. He wanted to protect somebody…he was scared Shinya would end up like Hide.

No one told me what happened to him…it was too late when I came back here…he’s gone…forever! I wasn’t here to protect him…and now Shinya…Shinya needs somebody…can I?

Shinya suddenly turned away. Yoshiki pulled his hand back. He nodded to Shinya, "Good night…" Shinya smiled nervously and nodded before closing the door.

They almost kissed.

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