Tango
by Lady7
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Voulez vous coucher avec moi ce soir?
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Shinya threw himself on the couch. He turned the TV on but frowned, as there was nothing interesting. He sighed and looked at the window far across the room. It was raining heavily outside. Shinya sighed, it was quite warm but somehow he felt cold. He leaned on the couch feeling its soft material. He pouted regretting his decision of letting his parents had Puppy tonight.
It’s damn boring in here!
He wanted to go out but it was raining so hard. Where could he go anyway? He held the TV remote and pressed any button impatiently. Suddenly it stopped on a channel. Shinya joined his eyebrows, nani? It looked like some Latin channel where people spoke funny language. Shinya giggled listening to the accent but suddenly he raised an eyebrow as he saw a woman appeared on TV with little clothes. Shinya blushed; it was a porn show!
"Je suis la belle dame sans merci! Qui êtes vous ?!" the woman yelled at the man in front of her. Shinya narrowed his eyes, sounds like French! The man bowed quickly at her, and kissed her hand.
"Ma chérie, je suis est…ton rose cavalier " then he presented a bouquet of roses. The woman smiled and smelled the flowers, "Ahhh…les belles roses!" she shrieked and blushed. Shinya laughed as they kissed passionately. It looked more like a mock-heroic show! Suddenly the man stood up and held her arms,
"Tango…sil vous plait?" Shinya sat frozen on the couch. The woman gasped loudly, "mais il est… " then the music appeared and they danced Tango. Shinya bit his lower lip looking at the couple. He quickly turned the TV off and leaned back on the couch.
Kaoru had told him a lie.
It wasn’t the guitarist…how did Kyo know? Was it him? Shinya blushed furiously; it couldn’t be him! I would rather die! … Die…Shinya held his cheeks…he still remembered how Die wanted a kiss from him. Shinya wouldn’t kiss him…he wouldn’t kiss a guy like Die, so rude and crude…so loud and…Shinya closed his eyes…manly. He remembered too how he wanted it to be Die…the person who gave him such a –great- birthday present in the toilet. Shinya pouted thinking that he would be the last person on earth who contradict himself…but now…
Why do I say no when I want to say yes?
A faint knock pulled him back to reality. Shinya joined his eyebrows; who could that be?! He ran quickly and opened the door. His heartbeat stopped as he saw who it was standing in front of him.
"Konban wa" Die smiled and nodded to Shinya.
*
"Itai…" Toshiya winced as he touched Kaoru’s arm. The guitarist stared at him, "Why did you wince? I’m the one getting hurt here…" then he pouted cutely as Toshiya blushed and pulled his hand away. "I pay you a visit and this is what I get?" Kaoru touched his arm gently.
"How did I know it was you? I thought it was…" Toshiya bit his lower lip; he was so scared. He entered the room lazily but as a hand touched his neck he couldn’t do anything except pulling the stranger’s arm and threw him on the floor. Kaoru touched his own arm gently, "I didn’t know you did judo!"
Toshiya blushed, "No! I know nothing about judo…it’s just…I thought you’re going to attack me! I didn’t even know what I did…" Kaoru joined his eyebrows looking at him. He had turned the lights on and saw Kaoru sitting on the floor holding his left arm. He panicked and quickly grabbed Kaoru’s other arm and…Toshiya was really nervous. Kaoru was sitting on his bed now, and looking really adorable. The guitarist blushed, and moved his shoulders uneasily as Toshiya sat in front of him.
"Ouch! My arm!" he suddenly shrieked. Toshiya gasped and unconsciously held Kaoru’s arm.
"Be careful! Don’t move around!" Toshiya got up and kneeled on the bed. Kaoru winced, "It hurts…!" Toshiya smiled sheepishly…"Let me…massage it…okay?" Kaoru blushed but managed to control himself (hm…) Toshiya carefully touched Kaoru’s arm and started to massage it gently. Kaoru couldn’t help smiling to himself…this is good…he looked down didn’t say anything. He was too busy enjoying Toshiya’s palms touching his skin.
Toshiya pouted, why doesn’t he say anything? Is he mad? Suddenly he joined his eyebrows looking at Kaoru’s back and his long hair. What is he doing here? How does he get in? How come he’s in my room?
How am I going to tell Kaoru? Is he mad?
Toshiya stopped thinking as he realized that he was massaging Kaoru’s arm. The guitarist felt so close to him now…he wanted to apologize, and wanted to tell Kaoru how he felt about him. But it was so calm right now…there was no sound in the room, only him and Kaoru in his room…in their own world.
It felt so peace…just like the time when Kaoru hugged him in the pub. It was cold outside; Toshiya could hear the rain pouring from the sky. But somehow he could only hear it faintly, and it was very warm in here. Toshiya smiled happily, it was such a beautiful moment and such a great feeling. Little did he know Kaoru was thinking the same.
Kaoru bit his lip; he had to be brave! No such thing as shyness! He gulped,
"Toshiya…I have to talk to you…"
Toshiya instantly stopped massaging the guitarist. His eyes were wide opened and he felt his heart beat faster.
*
Die sat comfortably on the couch. He looked around the apartment as if looking for something. Shinya walked out from the kitchen; seeing Die like that he glared at the guitarist suspiciously. Die smiled as Shinya put a glass of ocha on the table. He nodded, asking, "where’s Puppy?"
Shinya raised an eyebrow, "I thought you never cared…" he looked at Die in disbelief. Die laughed, shaking his head slowly. Then he took a sip of his drink. Shinya stood beside him frozen. He stole a look at Die. What was he doing in here? Shinya didn’t mind a visitor but Die? The drummer blushed as a voice called out from his mind,
Come on Shinya…you won’t really mind
"What wrong with you?" Die looked up at the blushing him. Shinya pouted and turned away. He walked back to the kitchen nervously. Die raised an eyebrow, ‘hey! Come back!" he yelled but Shinya trailed off even faster ignoring Die. The guitarist sighed and turned the TV on. Shinya covered his face as he reached the kitchen and stood behind the fridge where Die couldn’t see him. He sighed banging his head on the fridge scolding himself. What was wrong? What happened to the cold and calm Shinya? It was only Die…
Exactly! He is Die!
Shinya bit his lip wishing Puppy were there. He frowned as he heard Die calling his name loudly.
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Kaoru had pulled his hand and seated him right in front of the guitarist. Toshiya blushed slightly trying so hard not to look at Kaoru holding his hand. Kaoru cleared his throat and touched his own hair. Toshiya was nervous but Kaoru was even more nervous. The bassist stared at him carefully. Toshiya smiled shyly looking at his features. Kaoru turned away and pulled his hand away. Toshiya’s face turned sad. Did Kaoru really hate him that much? Kaoru couldn’t begin…he was too nervous…he opened his mouth trying to say something but his voice disappeared as he wanted to say I. Love. You. Toshiya himself was confused. What was Kaoru going to tell him?
He had to do it! Now! Or never! So he opened his mouth, and with a shaking voice, he begun.
"Kaoru…I know you’re really mad at me! I know you’re disappointed at me. I know you have been trying to teach me the value of love…and I failed!" he gulped seeing Kaoru’s surprise expression. Then he continued, "But you have to know…there’s nothing between me…and Die! You know nothing happened that night…and the kiss…" Toshiya’s eyes were filled with tears. Kaoru froze waiting for him.
"I was thinking about you…I told Die how beautiful you were…and it just happened…" tears rolled down his blushing cheeks as he blinked. Kaoru parted his lips, staring at them. They looked so beautiful…like raindrop falling from the sky, as clear as morning dew on a red rose. Toshiya sobbed but he managed to continue,
"Kaoru…Aishiteru…"
Kaoru smiled widely. Toshiya looked at him confusedly. The guitarist held his cheek and wiped the tears away, "I know…"
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"N…na-ni?" Toshiya stuttered. He blushed even more. Kaoru looked so calm, he wasn’t surprise at all! And now he was stroking his face gently staring at his face lovingly. Toshiya joined his eyebrows; he was really confused.
Kaoru smiled, "Totchi…" Toshiya gasped hearing the way Kaoru called his name. He blushed instantly. Kaoru raised an eyebrow knowing that this was the time to tease the bassist.
"I was in your room the whole time" he continued. Toshiya blushed even more. That meant the whole time…even when Die was here…and when he yelled running around the apartment looking for Kyo…and when he cursed Kaoru for not being at home…Kaoru was there?
"Oh…" Toshiya nodded. Uh-oh!
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"You should be happy having a friend like me" Die pouted as Shinya glared at him. "I mean it! Stop glaring at me! It’s raining so hard outside and I’m nice enough to visit you. You should thank me for being here with you!" Shinya raised an eyebrow. He looked at the window; it was quite true but what did he want? Why did he come here?
"You must be wondering why I‘m here right?" Die glanced at him. Shinya nodded slowly; Die moved from his seat, he looked up to Shinya. ‘Sit beside me, Shinya" It was such a calm voice. It was deep and strong too. Shinya blushed a little. He didn’t want to…but he had to stop contradicting himself so he sat beside Die. The guitarist smiled in satisfaction. Shinya looked down and cleared his throat. Shyly he said, "Thank you…for being here…" Die gasped in surprise, ‘Shinya, I was only joking…you don’t have to do whatever I say!" When he saw Shinya nodded carefully Die couldn’t help putting his arm around the drummer.
"What’s wrong with you?" Die smiled teasingly. "Scared of me?" Die whispered near his ear. Shinya trembled feeling Die’s breath near his ear. Die laughed and moved closer to him. Shinya pouted. The guitarist stared at his face closely. From the corner of his eyes, he knew Die’s stare was stripping him. He felt like Die was staring at a naked him. So he quickly turned away looking at the vase across the room. Die frowned, "Come on Shinya…let me take a good look at your beautiful face"
Shinya blushed even more as Die’s hand held his chin. Now he was facing the guitarist. His face was so close…as ever. That feeling was there again…the feeling everytime Die was close to him. When Die held him in his arms, when Die stared at his face closely…like now…Shinya felt…
Good boy, Shin-chan…let’s do Tango…together…
Shinya looked at Die in his eyes; suddenly he pushed Die away and quickly walked towards the mini bar. Die joined his eyebrows.
You don’t know how much I want it to be you, Die…Shinya had to move away…or he would start to cry, or maybe he would grab the older man’s face and kissed those lips…or maybe-
He remembered seeing Die kissing Toshiya. It was such a beautiful kiss…so calm and natural. He couldn’t imagine Die could kiss that way…
Shinya sighed. He rested his arms on the bar. What had got into him? Shinya shook his head slowly, realizing that the same feeling was there that night… in the toilet. When the person stared at him in the dark it looked like Die’s stare just now. When the person touched his face stroking it gently it felt like Die’s soft finger. But Shinya knew when the person kissed him caressing him with his lips, his tongue…he wasn’t Die.
How do you know? You never kiss Die
Shinya shut his eyes tightly trying to stop thinking about that man. When he opened his eyes he gasped. He quickly turned back and saw Die trapping him with his arms. Shinya blushed and his heartbeat went faster. Then the guitarist smiled slyly looking at those burning cheeks.
"What’s wrong with you?"
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"What are doing in my room?" Toshiya asked carefully. He sounded like he was pouting. Kaoru raised an eyebrow, "Oh…I was…waiting for you" Toshiya nodded slowly and dug his nails into his jeans.
Kaoru suddenly held Toshiya’s hands. The bassist panicked. He jerked his head up and found Kaoru blushing furiously.
"I’ve fallen for you since…long time ago" Toshiya widened his eyes. Kaoru tried to continue, " Seeing you with Die pain me so much! Especially that kiss…" Suddenly Kaoru pouted; Toshiya joined his eyebrows.
"I can do better than him" the guitarist blushed. Toshiya raised an eyebrow and gasped in surprise. Kaoru was in the middle of confession and he hadn’t even told Toshiya the word ‘love’ instead he said he could kiss better than Die? Kaoru leaned forward touching Toshiya’s cheek,
"I love you…"
Toshiya smiled. His eyes were wet again and he quickly rubbed his eyes before tears fell down. Kaoru had told him not to cry. Kaoru smiled, "your tears are so beautiful" he said softly. Toshiya blushed, "Do you want me to cry?" he asked innocently. Kaoru joined his eyebrows, "No! why would I want you to?" he asked confusedly. Toshiya looked at him, "I thought you said my tears were beautiful…" Kaoru laughed softly. They talked so softly…scared of ruining the atmosphere.
Toshiya smiled nervously again. Kaoru was now inches away from him. The guitarist stroke his hair gently. When Kaoru moved his head, Toshiya closed his eyes. First time in their life, they kissed each other. Kaoru held Toshiya ‘s neck gently as Toshiya touched his right arm. The bassist parted his lips allowing Kaoru’s tongue to enter his mouth. It was such a nice feeling that Toshiya couldn’t help a single tear dropped down his cheek. When they finally broke apart to breathe, Toshiya’s face was wet again. Kaoru wiped the tears away. Gently, he pushed Toshiya down on the bed. Toshiya helped Kaoru to lie beside him. Kaoru winced slightly as he moved his left arm.
Toshiya snuggled up to Kaoru, hugging the guitarist tightly but carefully too. Kaoru closed his eyes and kissed Toshiya’s forehead.
"You don’t mind me sleeping here do you?"
Toshiya laughed and shook his head.
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