Seed Of Love

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VM: waah, i have a very limited vocab for writing ne^^;;; thanks to all the people who commented on my last part~!

The air was cold; the season was stepping into the middle of winter. The chill bit into Kaoru’s face and he shivered a bit, regretting coming out only with this jacket. He was too skinny for winter, he had to eat more, Toshiya always said so…but Kaoru ate a lot. It’s just that he wasn’t the type to put on weight. He was the skinny type…

He rubbed his palms together and looked to his left. Toshiya’s otousan didn’t seem to be affected by the wintery breeze. He was a nice man(he’s Toshiya’s dad, after all) but Kaoru had to admit, he didn’t feel comfortable. In fact, he was scared.

In the 24-hour minimart, Kaoru found himself in the junk food section and Mr. Hara behind him. His hands shook a bit as he picked out the packs of crackers to put into the basket. Kaoru was scared precisely because he was Totchi’s father. Because it counted to have this man’s approval. It meant a great deal to Toshiya and so it became a great deal to Kaoru as well.

Kaoru peeked at Mr. Hara from the corner of his eye.

Father-in-law.

*Brr…!*

“ Are you cold?” the old man suddenly appeared beside him.

“ Eh? No, no^^;;;…” Kaoru said, assuring Mr. Hara with his waving hands.

“ Let’s go for a drink.”

Kaoru’s eyebrow arched up. “ A drink?”

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They sat at the midnight yatai stall behind the red cloth curtains. Kaoru’s palm cupped the side of his sake cup to get some warmth. He supposed Mr. Hara wanted to have some serious talk with him… Kaoru sipped at the warm sake.

“ Listen kid.”

And so now it starts… Kaoru braced himself.

Mr. Hara gulped down his sake. “ This…thing you have with my son…”

‘Thing’? Man, he says it like some disease…

“ I don’t believe I’m saying this, but I hope you’re not playing around with him,” the old man said, looking at Kaoru. “ Toshiya is naïve. He’s the type that believe in fairytales, love and forever…but looking at you, you seem to be a more realistic and practical type. What I’m trying to say is…if you’re playing with him, stop it now or else…”

“ I’m not playing with him! Mr. Hara…I really love Toshiya!” Kaoru blurted out, a bit angry.

“ Is that so?” Toshiya’s father looked in front but he seemed to be far off. “ I don’t want Totchi to get hurt… I don’t want to see him cry. He’s still such an innocent child…Totchi…”

Kaoru stared into the colourless drink in the clay cup as he thought about his ‘father-in-law’s’ words. Sure Toshiya and him weren’t the case of love at first sight. When he knew that bassist, he thought he was just some wishy washy crossdresser that just knew how to play bass. He didn’t even know when he started to get attracted to him; he never even knew he could be attracted to other men. But Toshiya… it was love. He loved Toshiya with all his heart.

“ Do you think…” Mr. Hara started, breaking off Kaoru’s thoughts.

Kaoru turned to look at him. Toshiya’s father was looking at him too.

“ …you can make Toshiya happy?”

Happiness… Can he give that to his love?

Kaoru took a deep breath.

“ Yes, I know I can.”

“ Then you’d better. Or else I’ll make your life a living hell,” the old man said, his eyes glinting, sending shivers down Kaoru’s spine.

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He’s sleeping. He didn’t even off the light.

Kaoru tiptoed into the room with Toshiya’s snack in one hand. He couldn’t help the shuffling noise as he took off his jacket and he heard Toshiya stirring in the background.

“ Hm, you’re back…” Toshiya said softly, voice laced with sleep.

“ Mm,” Kaoru climbed onto the bed.

“ What took you so long?” he pouted.

“ Your father and I had a talk…”

“ Hm?” A little bit more awake now, Toshiya got up on his elbow. “ About what?”

Kaoru shrugged as his lover rest his head on his lap. “Common interest.”

“ You guys have common interest?” Toshiya laughed softly, looking up at Kaoru’s face. “ What’s that?”

“ You, of course!” Kaoru laughed.

“ Mou, talking behind my back!!!” the bassist hit Kaoru’s shoulder. Kaoru laughed more but hugged the younger man in his arms. “ Hmm…so what about me did you talk about…”

“ Umm…secret,” he said, fingering the earrings on Toshiya’s ear. His hand glided over to his lover’s cheek, his body moving nearer to him. Their lips touched and a kiss blossomed between them. The older man’s hand slipped beneath Toshiya’s shirt to caress the skin there but Toshiya pulled away, pouting.

“ I have early appointment with Nakamura-sensei tomorrow…”

“ Mou…the band has practice in the morning too…”

“ I’ll come after checkup.”

“ Do you want me to fetch you?” Kaoru offered. “ I better fetch you ne…” He frowned a little, worried about his Toshiya.

“ I’ll be fine! You are feeling anxious with the singles’ due dates, right? You shouldn’t worry too much about me…”

The older man opened his mouth to protest but Toshiya silenced him. Kaoru smiled as the younger man kissed him lightly on his lips and lied down, pulling the blanket over his chest. Though they were on a king size bed, they were quite close to each other in the centre. When Kaoru lied down, he could feel the warmth radiating from the bassist.

"Toshiya?" he whispered in the dark when the lights were off.

"Hm?" A rustling sound came from Toshiya's side of the bed as he turned to face Kaoru. From the illumination from the moonlight, Kaoru could see his lover's face and he touched his cheek. The younger man smiled and rested his face against Kaoru's palm. "Mm, nice..."

Kaoru didn't speak but wrapped his arms around Toshiya's shoulder in a hug.

"Kaoru...?"

"We have not much chance to get close to each other coz of band activities ne," Kaoru said with a tinge of regret.

Toshiya snuggled closer. "But because of the band, we get to see each other everyday...just...sometimes too busy to go out for dates ne...and on stage, sometimes I feel like kissing you so much but cannot," the bassist pouted.

Kaoru kissed Toshiya's forehead. "Because we're always so busy...our little moments mean so much ne...like now..."

Toshiya smiled sweetly. "Aww, I'm so happy that you feel that way too!~ I always thought Dir en Grey means more to you than Hara Toshimasa!"

"Dir en Grey is important; it's my life! But Toshiya...you mean more to me than my life ne!"

Toshiya blushed in the dark. "Sweet mouth."

"No, serious ne!!!" Kaoru's lips searched for Toshiya's and kissed them gently. His lips trailed over the bottom lip before sliding his tongue inside to play with Toshiya's tongue. Then he pulled away, slightly out of breath. “Let’s stop before I get to the point of no return, okay?”

“ Heehee…” Toshiya licked his lips.

“ Goodnight, Totchi…” Kaoru said, staring at his lover’s beautiful eyes.

“ ‘night, Kaokao.” Toshiya leaned in and kissed Kaoru again. “ Mm…”

Kaoru felt Toshiya’s pregnant tummy and he gently stroked it. “ Goodnight to you too,” he said to the child inside.

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to be continued.......

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