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Seed of Love 5

Toshiya… Toshiya… To "-shiya…Toshiya…can you hear me?"

Slowly his eyes opened. His view was glazed, it seemed like he was looking through a cob web. He blinked a few times before his eyes focused and his friend’s worried face appeared in front of him. "Shinya?" his voice was soft and dry.

Shinya helped him sit up, putting a pillow behind him. Then someone gave him a glass of water. Gratefully he took it and gulped it all down. "What happened?" he asked, frowning; his head ached. He looked around the ward. Die and Shinya was there. Kyo wasn’t there. But that wasn’t who Toshiya was looking for. Where was Kaoru? He remembered Kaoru…he got into a fight with Kaoru…because… Instinctively, Toshiya clutched his tummy.

"Shinya…what…?" His gaze questioned the younger man.

Smiling, Shinya held Toshiya’s hands. "You…are having a baby," he said.

Toshiya just looked at him. His hands felt warm under Shinya’s. His lips opened but no words came out.

"It’s true, Toshiya," Die said.

"I…I…" his eyes began to water. He licked his lip. "Where…where is Kaoru? Kaoru…I want to see Kaoru!" His voice echoed in the white room. "Where is he?" he asked again, holding Shinya’s hands with his own shaking ones.

Shinya bit his lips. "He’s…he’s…with the doctor, I think. Isn’t he, Die-kun?" he looked up at his red-haired lover beside him.

The older man just shook his head.

"What? Tell me! Where is he?" A tear slipped down Toshiya’s cheek. "Is there something wrong…with me??"

Die calmly sat down beside the bassist on the bed. "Totchi…the doctor…doctors are very shocked though they will conduct more test to confirm. But they said you’re fine. Don’t worry ne…Kaoru…he needs some time to accept it, I think," he finished. "You know, Kaoru, trying to dig logic out of everything." He gave Toshiya’s shoulder a assuring squeeze.

Toshiya wiped his tears off. "Hontou? I really want to see him…"

"If Shinya was pregnant, man, I would be -shocked-!" Die suddenly said and burst out laughing.

Shinya’s eyes narrowed perceptibly.

Along the corridor, a horrifying scream could be heard echoing against the walls.

Shinya:......

Toshiya: ^^;;;;

Die: X___x

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He shifted the car’s air-cond and let the cool air wash against his face as he rested the back of his head on headrest of his seat. "I must be having a dream…" he said to himself. He looked up at the top of his car. But in his mind, Toshiya’s face surfaced.

‘Kaoru-kun…’

Quietly, Kaoru let the image in his mind talk to him.

‘I made cake today! Chocolate cake!!!’

It had tasted good too, Kaoru remembered. A small smile played on his lips.

"Totchi…"

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It was ten when he finally got up to the ward. The younger man was already asleep. His hair was messily splayed against the white pillow, his lashes fluttering a little in his dream, the delicate lips parted slightly with each breath. Kaoru placed the bag with Toshiya’s stuff on the couch against the wall and walked over to the sleeping man.

He sat on the stool beside the bed and just stared at Toshiya’s face. Sub-consciously, his hand reached out and began to stroke his lover’s hair. Then seeing that Toshiya was really very asleep, his hand began to trail down his face.

I thought he only looked like a woman…

His hand crossed Toshiya’s flat chest. He stopped when he felt the slight swell of his tummy. Gently, he ran his hand over it.

Toshiya stirred. His eyes fluttered open and he gasped as he realised someone was there. Quickly, he pulled himself up.

"It’s me ne…" Kaoru said, looking at Toshiya in the darkness. He bent forward and switched on the light above Toshiya’s bed.

Toshiya smiled in relief. "Kaoru!!! Where were you just now?!" He didn’t want to be complaining but his voice was already at its whiny tone. The way Toshiya’s lips were pouted, his eyes round and innocent and his hair all messed up made Kaoru laugh. "What’s so funny!!" Toshiya demanded.

The guitarist stifled his laughter. "Nothing, nothing ~ I just felt like laughing that all…" Kaoru shifted to sit on the mattress. Absently, he started to play with Toshiya’s fringe. "You’re pregnant."

Toshiya looked down at his palms. He bit lightly on his lower lip as moisture glazed over his eyes. "Are you happy?" he asked timidly. When Kaoru held his chin up, the tears rimmed his eyes and threatened to fall.

"Totchi…"

"Dr. Nakamura told me they had never before encountered a pregnant man… I am abnormal ne…I feel like a freak. Kaoru, are you…disgusted with me?" The tears fell down onto the white blanket that Toshiya was clutching. His hands shook.

With his palms, Kaoru dried those tears that wet Toshiya’s cheeks. He held the young man’s head between his hands and looked into his teary eyes. "No, I am not disgusted nor will I ever be disgusted by you. But you’re so stupid," he said.

The bassist sniffled.

"You should have told me first! What’s the use of telling Shinya? Don’t hide from me ne…whatever it is, I’ll be by your side." Kaoru held Toshiya tightly in his arms, letting the man’s head rest against his chest. He bent down and kissed the forehead lightly. "I love you, Toshiya."

Toshiya buried his face into his lover’s shirt. "Love you too…Kaoru!" His arms wrapped around the other man’s waist.

"And…I’m sorry for what I did tonight and…of course I’m happy! You’re carrying my child inside you!" Kaoru hugged Toshiya.

Toshiya laughed, pushing his way out of Kaoru’s arms. "Our child!" he said then wrapping his arms around Kaoru’s neck, he kissed him passionately. Their lips met in a heated battle; Toshiya moaned as Kaoru’s tongue stroked the roof of his mouth and played with his tongue. Kaoru’s lips left a trail of saliva as he kissed his way down to Toshiya’s neck.

"Kaoru…"

"Hm..?" Kaoru slid his hand between their bodies to touch the slightly protruding tummy, a dreamy smile on his face. He bent down and gave it a kiss, making Toshiya giggle.

"Kaoru! This is a hospital ne…" Toshiya blushed.

"So?" Kaoru’s eyebrow arched up. Stretching an arm out, he switched the light off. "You’re never shy…" he started to kiss Toshiya again.

Toshiya kissed back, moving his body so that Kaoru could lie comfortably on top of him. "Shy??? What’s that?" Toshiya’s voice lowered into a husky tone as one of his long legs wrapped around Kaoru’s lower body.

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to be continued.......

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