by

Sakurai Mikiko

Gackt’s fingers clenched into a fist involuntarily as he stared at the picture frame adorning his bedroom wall. He had taken it down, but not having it there made him feel even worse and remember even more! So today he had stuck it back up again. Like he wanted to see his ex all the time, but the problem was he still lusted after him.

He still drove Gackt crazy, after how many months?! Gackt sighed staring at the beautiful portrait he had taken. He was dressed simply for himself in a blue lacy dress; that was tight around his upper half and then flowed out around his waist and stopping shortly above his knees. Well Gackt had thought it was nice then, but not anymore, since it drove him mad seeing those slim long sexy legs, remembering his fingers stroking their length!

Damnit! Who gave any man the permission to be that beautiful! Heck it was frustrating, he had a man as a lover who was more gorgeous than any other women and with a much sexier body too! What had he done? What had (baka) Gackt done? Thrown it all away!

With out even thinking he rushed downstairs and picked the phone dialing the number, how could he ever forget it? He anxiously waited for it to be picked up…

"Moshi moshi!" the cheerful sexy voice rang out, Gackt’s breath caught in his throat hearing that beautiful voice again after so long!

"…"

"Look what kind of a creep are you?" His voice sounded angry…Gackt was just about to put the phone down when…

"Gakuto? Is that you?" A shiver crept down Gackt’s spine… how does he know?

"Hai…" Gackt mumbled, a little embarrassed at being caught, "How did you know?" he said sheepishly as he began to blush! Even after so long, he still had this effect upon Gackt!

"You did this before. After you hung up I dialed this number and it listed you as the last caller." He said with a little laugh.

"…"

"Gakuto? You wanna meet or something?" his voice was quiet and shy…the way that Gackt had always loved to hear it. His heart pounded like a drum.

"Can we?" Gackt said as he sighed with relief.

"Come over." He said and then hung up. Gackt sat down blinking; he had just been invited over hadn’t he? Or was he just imagining things? He was sure he had!

*

The front door opened slowly…and his beautiful ex stood on the doorstep, Gackt knew some things had changed. He used to know every piece of clothing the beautiful bishounen owned, but this was not at all familiar. Heck, even his hairstyle was different!

Mana slid the door open, motioning for Gackt to come in a warm smile crossed his lips briefly before fading. Gackt knew Mana disliked smiling and was touched to see one even if it was only briefly there.

Mana smoothed the snow-white dress down, so that it did not expose quite as much of his thigh, not that smoothing it down did much! Gackt could not help staring him up and down, his perfect body was the same…no change at all…well only a little!

Gackt’s breath was quickly sucked in when he saw the sexy legs sheathed in lacy white stockings that went up higher than his mid thigh! Those beautiful and familiar platforms encasing his dainty feet…Gackt was so pleased to see Mana again! He longed to take Mana in his arms and kiss him, but he did not dare…yet!

"I am so glad you came Gackt…I thought you might not come." Mana whispered taking Gackt’s hand and leading him to the couch to sit down. They both sat down next to each other, quite close and were so happy there was no hostility or anger between them!

It had been a few months since there break up and so both were so shy and quiet with each other! They sat silent on the couch for a while and then Mana began to hit himself and bow down apologetically to Gackt. Gackt put his arm around Mana’s slender shoulders pulling him closer to him, "Mana-hime don’t need to hit your self! Please don’t!" Gackt’s voice was so soft and beautiful Mana shut his eyes and sighed… Mana-hime…

"Gackt-san…I am so rude, I never offered you a drink or some food!" Mana tearfully turned to Gackt as though this would be the end of the world!

"Shhh…Mana-hime, I don’t want anything but to sit here with you!" Gackt soothingly rubbed his shoulders in a light massage…Mana sighed shutting his eyes…it was heaven being massaged like that! However he wanted Gackt’s beautiful fingers to massage…everywhere!

With a shy smile, Mana leaned in kissing Gackt’s cheek, and then moving towards his mouth. Mana pressed his dainty lips up to Gackt’s and then parted them as his slender body pressed up ever so lightly against Gackt’s. Gackt’s hands fell from Mana’s shoulders to his tiny waist, encircling it in his hands. Mana’s manicured fingers stroked and played with Gackt’s hair as their mouths got reacquainted!

*

Mana pulled away from Gackt his eyes wide…he stood up leaving Gackt upset and Manaless…Gackt eyes turned sad as with quick steps Mana left the room with no explanation…

Gackt shut his eyes…his heart painful…he had thought perhaps Mana would take him back! Apparently…he was so very wrong! A gentle cough caused Gackt to open his eyes…he gasped…Mana stood in the doorway dressed in a long but quite tight nightgown. It was a shimmery pale blue, and Mana’s make up less face was so beautiful Gackt had to gasp. He lovingly gazed up Mana, seeing the dainty ankles and feet poking out under the night-gown.

"Oh Gackt…when I bought this I was thinking of you!" Mana whispered hanging his head as if he was ashamed, "I desired to show it to you!" his voice dropped a notch lower. Mana’s face turned red with embarrassment as he realised what he was suggesting! With out another word he left the room, shamefully!

Gackt quickly jumped up, there was no way he was going to let Mana feel so embarrassed or ashamed!

So he still loves me! Gackt thought as he entered the familiar bedroom. He stopped dead in his tracks as he saw Mana naked, about to start dressing. Gackt was mesmerised by the image of the gorgeous slim man, and his incredibly sexy body! It had been so long since he had seen the body…the tiny waist of Mana’s, the long slim legs, the smooth back and the rest of it all!

With out thinking Gackt moved over and in a single motion his arms were around Mana’s naked form his head buried in Mana’s curls as he inhaled the sweet scent of Mana. Mana said nothing, but tears began to fall from his sad sad eyes.

Gackt removed his face from Mana’s ringlets and in a shaky voice spoke, "Oh Mana…how I want you!" He shut his eyes caressing Mana’s neck with a soft line of kisses…Mana’s body twisted up towards Gackt’s, and he moaned gently, telling Gackt that he wanted him to!

Mana twisted in Gackt’s arms facing the singer now…as he pressed his rosebud mouth up to Gackt’s whilst his slender fingers undid the buttons upon Gackt’s shirt. One of Gackt’s hand strayed down to the lower sections of Mana’s sleek body, pleasuring Mana’s small frame until it was pressed as close to Gackt’s as possible!

The air was soon filled with a mixture of moans and groans as they exquisitely reunited themselves again! Mana arched his head back as Gackt’s mouth suckled upon his highly sensitized chest…his eyes half shut as the emotions thickly whirled through his blood.

With every move Gackt did he was painfully aware of Mana’s growing desire and need for him! He felt his own desire and need too! Gently he half carried Mana to the bed as he realised Mana’s frail limbs would no longer support his body under the assault.

The sheets were silky and cool to their desire filled bodies…Mana’s eyes flickered open, and he smiled with his red face, "Gackt…now…please?" his voice was aching with desire as his eyes looked so solemnly to Gackt. Gackt nodded as Mana found the energy to turn over.

As soon as Mana’s back was facing him, Gackt felt his needs swell out as he saw the beautiful body from that angle, he could not wait a minute longer! Roughly he pulled Mana’s legs apart, and lay a top of him pinning the beautiful being under him. His hands gripped the slippery cool sheets as with a roughness Mana remembered too well, Gackt entered him. The rude taking of his body however began the awakening of all the feelings that had been locked inside with Gackt’s departure.

Within moments the tight and tense opening had lost it’s tension and tightness as Gackt’s familiar motions made the dizziness in Mana quickly grow. Mana’s eyes could not stay shut and yet they would not stay open as the conflicting emotions grew in all cells and fibers of his body!

Mana felt the dizziness growing, suddenly he felt as though a balloon was being blown up inside him…he felt his balloon of desire and pleasure almost reach it’s maximum size. With a sudden shock it burst, leaving his limbs limp with pleasure…he muscles would not allow him to move. Gackt softly murmured burying his head in Mana’s hair…as he left Mana’s beautiful body. His limbs pulling Mana to fit into the hollows of his slender frame as they began to fall asleep. For once both felt the emptiness in their hearts leave.

*

Mana wake up, very refreshed and so much better than he had for months. He smiled to himself, knowing it was because of Gackt. Gackt was sleeping with the sheets barely covering his jutting hips. He face creased in a happy sweet smile as he lightly slept. Mana pulled the sheets up higher; sliding over closer to Gackt…he kissed Gackt’s cheek and then placed his head on his chest to sleep. Gackt’s hand came down stroking Mana’s face.

"Mana? Are you ok?" Gackt finally asked…pulling Mana into his slender arms. He could feel tears falling.

"Did I hurt you?" Gackt worriedly asked. Mana climbed up so he was leaning in near Gackt’s face, tears streaming down his cheeks.

"No you silly…I just love you so much."

***