disclaimer: this is a yaoi lemon...um, don't read if you're under 18...uh, yeah, don't sue me! these characters are all fictional!*ahem* *nods to herself and goes hide under a rock*

SMELL OF DESIRE: KaoruXToshiya

Kaoru’s eyes were slowly drooping down; the book on his lap forgotten. The orange light from the bedside lamp filtered out from his mind.

" Mm, Kaoru-chan?" Toshiya whispered huskily, tracing Kaoru’s defined cheekbones as he leaned against the falling-asleep man.

" Hmm?" Kaoru murmured, not opening his eyes.

" Wake up ne?" Gently, he placed a trail of kisses down his chest.

" Hn, sleepy…" he said, folding an arm around Toshiya and pulling the bassist into an embrace. Toshiya’s sweet fragrance invaded his nostrils as he buried his face in the crook of his neck.

" You want to sleep?" the younger man asked, pulling away from him and pretending to sulk.

Kaoru took the book from his lap and put it on the table while pushing himself up to lean against the headboard. His eyes lingered on Toshiya’s body. Toshiya was clad only in a short black robe, fastened together by a flimsy sash and was probably naked underneath. Toshiya cast a glance at the guitarist, pouting as he brushed his long hair with his fingers.

" Come here…" Kaoru commanded.

" No," Toshiya said, pulling his knees to his chest.

" If not, I’ll go back to sleep."

" Fine with me!" the younger man retorted, slipping under the covers and turning away from his lover.

Kaoru gazed at Toshiya’s back, sighing to himself. Running his hand through the fine black-blue strands, "You don’t want to do it?"

Toshiya muttered, "What do you want to do, Kaoru?"

" Hm…" He turned Toshiya to face him. The bassist looked up at him and a blush rushed to his cheeks. "I want to make love to you…"

Toshiya sat up, gathering the blanket around himself. "You…you love me?" he asked softly, not daring enough to look into Kaoru’s piercing eyes.

" Yeah. I love you…" Kaoru said, caressing Toshiya’s cheek as he brought his face nearer and kissed him. "You don’t love me?"

Toshiya ducked his head shyly to hide his embarrassing blush. " I love you too, Kaoru…"

Kaoru lifted his chin and in a second Toshiya found himself melting into the passionate kiss he and Kaoru shared. Lacing his fingers with Kaoru’s hair, he pulled himself into his lap, placing each leg on either side so that he straddled him. Toshiya moaned as the older man’s tongue moved inside his mouth, tickling the roof inside and sucking on his lips.

Toshiya’s thighs felt incredibly smooth as Kaoru stroked them with his palms, inching higher into the robe. His fingers hooked on the elastic of Toshiya’s briefs and began tugging them down, hearing Toshiya gasp as his fingers accidentally brush against the front.

Toshiya drew random circles on Kaoru’s chest, paring extra attention to his hard nipples as he nibbled on Kaoru’s neck. "Let me be in charge tonight?"

Through the pleasant haze in his mind, Kaoru heard his lover’s request. "You?" He smiled, untying the sash around the younger man’s waist and letting the robe slide down his back.

" Why? Are you afraid?"

" Afraid?" Kaoru ran a finger along the cleft of Toshiya’s buttocks, eliciting an unwilling gasp. "Who’s afraid?"

" Hnnn…not me," the bassist purred, sliding his index finger lower and lower down Kaoru’s abdomen, feeling the muscles tense under his touch. Without hesitating, his hand ventured under the waistband of Kaoru’s shorts. "Certainly not me."

Kaoru took a sharp intake of breath as he felt Toshiya’s finger slowly moving down his length, arousing him. He closed his eyes as the young man played with the tip with his index finger and thumb. Unconsciously, he began to moan.

" Like that, Kaoru-chan?" Toshiya whispered huskily into his ear.

Kaoru grinned despite his discomfort. "No…"

" You’re so bad." Toshiya stuck his tongue out at the guitarist. "What about this?"

A gasp flew from Kaoru’s lips as Toshiya pinched the tip between his fingers.

" You tease!" Kaoru stripped off his shorts and covered Toshiya’s hand with his own. "You don’t do it like that! You do it like this…" Kaoru made Toshiya cup his arousal as he rubbed it against his hand.

" What is this? ‘Sex lessons by Kaoru’??" Toshiya laughed but continued kneading his lover where it gave him so much pleasure.

Kaoru bit his lips in pleasure as he felt himself coming soon. Seeing this, Toshiya promptly removed his hand.

" To…Toshiya!!!" Kaoru frowned in dismay.

" Shh…I’ll give you something better," the bassist said even as he placed his face between Kaoru’s legs.

Kaoru gasped as his erection was suddenly enveloped by Toshiya’s hot mouth. Burying his fingers in the black silky hair, he began his thrusts. Albeit Kaoru’s excitement, Toshiya ran his tongue along the organ leisurely. He felt it quiver then tense as a burst of liquid was released in his mouth. He swallowed some and deciding it wasn’t of the most pleasant taste, he removed his mouth and spit the substance into the wastebasket.

" Eww!" He made a face while attempting to scrape the taste off his tongue. "Horrible!"

Kaoru fell on the pillows, laughing tiredly, his breathing still laboured. "Who told you to do that? Well, at least now you know how I feel!"

" Maybe I taste better!" Toshiya stuck his tongue out defiantly at Kaoru as he climbed back to bed.

" Uh-huh…actually that might be true." Kaoru licked his lips. "Maybe that’s why you’ll always be at the bottom!" he added and pounced on the young man.

" Ah! Help! A pervert!" Toshiya exclaimed as he laughed hysterically with Kaoru still clutching to his waist.

" A pervert am I?" Kaoru tenderly kissed the taller man’s navel, flicking his tongue in and out. Toshiya felt his body quiver at that action and he could not help but whimper. "I thought I used to be an ‘old man’. I see the titles change as your vocabulary gets bigger."

Toshiya could not speak, much less retaliate, as Kaoru brushed his fingers deftly through the triangle of fine pubic hair between his legs.

" Ka…Kaoru…" He wanted to tell Kaoru to touch him more, to stop teasing him like that, but his words were stuck in his throat. So he just lay there panting in anticipation as the man torturously played with his body.

" Submissive now, Toshiya? What happened to the ‘I want to be in charge’?" Kaoru teased him.

" Unnh…I…" Toshiya took a deep breath. "You won’t let me."

" Oh, I see…" Kaoru raised himself to kiss Toshiya on his nose and parted rosy lips. "Very rarely do you ever stop doing things when I would not let you…but I suppose…the situation’s kinda different," he said, trailing down Toshiya’s body with feather-light kisses as he inhaled his fragrant scent.

" I…I always listen to you ne…" Toshiya said with much difficulty as his breath was short and ragged.

" So you say." With his tongue, Kaoru drew a line from Toshiya’s navel to his pelvic bone. Sliding down his inner thigh, Kaoru could hear Toshiya’ whimpers and moans get louder and more frequent. The scent of Toshiya’s arousal wafted into his nose and he wanted to taste it right now.

Toshiya gripped Kaoru’s head when he felt the man nuzzling between his legs, gasping. " Ah..!" He felt Kaoru’s tongue swirling around the painful tip of his hardness and he began rock his hips, wrapping his legs around Kaoru’s shoulders. But soon Kaoru’s tongue moved on, leaving Toshiya momentarily disappointed. He tensed as he felt something probing at his entrance.

" Kaoru..!"

" Mmm…?" Kaoru licked at Toshiya’s pink opening in bliss, not caring if Toshiya was about to pull his hair off by the roots at the intensity he was gripping at it.

" Ahh…ah! So…good……" Toshiya moaned, moving his hips against Kaoru’s face.

After a while, the older man gave the moist flesh one last nip and slid himself upwards. He needed to seek release for himself, particularly the tight spot between his legs. Toshiya lay supine on the bed, his chest heaving and his eyes closed, still whimpering Kaoru’s name.

Bending down to press his lips against Toshiya’s, Kaoru placed the throbbing bulge between the young man’s spread legs.

" Can I…?" Kaoru asked, despite the overdriving urge to claim this man pushing at him.

" …Kaoru…that’s dumb question ne..?" Toshiya managed to smile and instinctively raised his legs to cling to Kaoru’s waist.

" I love you, Toshiya…"

Toshiya screamed when the long-awaited intrusion finally happened. Kaoru stayed still for a brief second, taking in Toshiya’s looks of pain, before pushing deeper. The familiar feel of Toshiya’s insides caressing him overwhelmed his senses as he began to thrust.

" Nn, Kaoru…" Toshiya moaned, fingers reaching for Kaoru’s shoulder’s for support.

The guitarist slid in and out of him with ease, his movements lubricated by Toshiya’s own wetness. Toshiya was, by now, totally off the bed and counted on Kaoru to support him as he wrapped his long arms around the older man’s body. Still thrusting into him, Kaoru held Toshiya’s back, feeling the smooth skin.

" Ahn..!" Toshiya’s whole body tremble with the ripples of pleasure…pleasure of having Kaoru inside him. He felt so close to his lover that they were practically one. Hearing Kaoru’s heavy breathing, he knew that the climax would come soon.

Kaoru closed his eyes, body numbed with pleasure at the shock of release as he buried himself as deep as he could inside of Toshiya and felt his own semen filling the hole. Toshiya gave a short cry which he stifled as myriad of colours flashed before his eyes.

" Mm, Toshiya…" Dreamily, Kaoru played with the black hair splayed on the pillow.

" Kaoru…nn," the bassist squirmed a little. " You’re suffocating me!"

Realising his lover was squashed by his weight, Kaoru rolled over. "Are you okay?"

Toshiya felt the pain creeping into him even as he moved his legs a little. "…pain," he whimpered as tears appeared in his eyes.

Streaked with concern, Kaoru went to inspect his lover. Taking a few sheets of tissue, he wiped the blood of Toshiya’s thighs but he was still sobbing. "I’m so sorry," he apologised.

" Nn…Kaoru." Toshiya pulled the guitarist down and snuggled into the warmth of his arms as his sobs subsided.

" Want to go wash up in the bathroom?" Kaoru gently stroked his hair and kissed Toshiya’s forehead.

" No…later. I…this feels very nice," Toshiya said, burying his face in Kaoru’s chest.

" Okay…take a rest," Kaoru whispered, feeling his lover’s heart beating next to his.

" I love you, Kaoru…Goodnight."

Kaoru smiled, holding the younger man close to his body

" I love you too…"

The curtain flapped in the breeze, parting to let the moonlight shine on the pair of lovers.