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Complete All my strength has left these limbs Only to center into my heart Our tears wash away all our past sorrow Thereupon, we embrace each other With our white wings of flawless love Enclose us forever in one anothers arms The sheer passionate love of this moment Can be easily be felt across any distance Slowly pulling away, just to glance At each others mesmerizing eyes That solely concentrate on the others At the same time As if thinking together, we say I love you... To hear the sound of such a beautiful voice Is to be at peace, for that Not even angels can sing with such harmony Our lips longing for the other, reaching closer Until full contact which begins this love There will be no end In that, we will be together always 09/??/04 That What Was, And Always Shall Be I am nothing but shattered glass And decayed degenerate dirt Compared to your purity and magnificence You are all that is to me dear. Wishes never came to be true for me But you are far more than any wish can define… Truly a perfect being… Nothing can show all my affection and admiration I can only surrender my all My all is this heart and soul I found you… And now I desire to hold you… So tightly, so warmly To embrace you into my arms For all eternity, in every space in every second I will love you always… Unknown Date There Is No God From the entozoic heart Of which the anguished lingers The pain of slit open hearts Injected with liquid lead It bleeds tears of defeat Causing abasia upon shackled legs Only bound by love Waiting... and wondering... How does ones body continue to stand, With multiple fatal wounds This is not possible It cannot be real, for this is reality But they say there is a "God" In which he is suppose to help us all At any given moment And love us limitlessly Where is this so called "God" When my best friend destroys me in an instant When for years I was laughed at When my parents split apart When friends desperately need help and my help is nothing When no one can help me When the media defiles human beings When I wrote this list with tears There was never a God to begin with God is a concept created by man to control man There never was, or ever will be a God The universe exists as one As man exists as one 09/18/03 This Anniversary, I spend Alone The 3rd years end approaches I continue to think everyday about her How perfect she is Oh the agony of how much I miss.. I still linger with questions everyday Despirately attempting to imagine A world where she is everywhere and no where else But I don't deserve it I never did.. She was always too well equipped For my rough blade She is everything to me My heart, and mind were formed only because of her Without her, I am nothing but dirt. I wish everyday, upon every star That she will return Because she has left her mark in my heart I will never forget her Even with my last hours of living on this earth I would spend it thinking about her I rather take in hundreds of lead bullets Then see her gone. One may say this feeling will pass But I only answer saying I wish it were that simple But no one ever said The principles of love were simple.. Everyday, I await the day of her return But that day will never come Because I am nothing to her.. 09/09/03 The Black Andromeda The day remains unknown to this date Yet Andromeda shone with crippling light No flame ever burned as bright It brought forth the light of the newly profound era I sought what I desired To only find what I could never obtain I could not touch it's grace For that the distance is so great.. Thus Andromeda Redshift Only to leave the burnt pattern of a walking nightmare It is darker than black Cast shadows reveal more then they conceal I cannot bare to see it leave like so Wishing it Blueshift with tears "On this endeavor for the truth Waiting in the shadows of a recent fall Looking up at the darkened sky That only gets worse yearning for a cathartic experience To break the shackles of my own"* This is going nowhere… 05/15/03 *Hopesfall - Endeavor. 1:51 - 2:25 The Journey I could never understand.. Existance nor dreams never could do so Yet, you surprise all imagination All in the space of a second From eye to the tear Nothing I could ever imagine, Would resemble you You have broken all boundaries That have ever been embarked upon A quest for you would have been foolish To think, someone so perfect can exist in this world Yet, you are as real as dawn at sea.. 03/17/03 Heart Beats at Your Pace Emotions appearing from the unknown cores Everyday is a blessing to know.. Alas, I only drown in regret The taste of decay in my mouth Just wishing when will the day arrive Lest it never come?.. But hope drives this feeling I know it shall come How I know, is only known to superiors As I gaze at this very moment I will continue until I go blind My eyes of judgment have never been stronger These emotions have caught up with me once again I cannot turn away.. For that is fate, and fate is never broken To ever run from it, would tear me out Because I am nothing without you 02/03/03 Possession What is mine, and eternal Nothing will break it Yet I must bare the moments When it is scarred and torn Cut and bled But not broken All It has ever wanted It has been deprived of it What it wanted was the creator But when shall the creator come to aid Distance is among us Yet this distance decreases As friendship increases.. Like a shivering animal In the cold, darkness of night Waiting for the breath of dawn Emerging from the horizon I will wait for you the same way.. 01/29/03 Twin Figured Heart - Half Epizoic - Half Gone To The Angels Eyes She waits by my side Her smell reminds me of a time I tried to stay, I tried to run I keep falling again I'm in love And nothing completes me like you do. Like you do... All my dreams are set in stone All my goals made into gold But I’ve watched them fall time and time again until I go blind I’ve watched them decrystalize And I’ve watched them turn to ice and crash and fall And melt to the crust of this earth It's all just a ticking time bomb... When you walk away.. It broke me down I felt like I could not live on The pain was so overwhelming I struggled since then I was guided by fate But it let me down I have nothing, I am nothing but dirt I want to run away from this nightmare This sinking feeling is in my head I feel the dragons rushing through my veins And tear it out... I know that, you know that, I'm dead without you I can't rest Without you I feel dead... Nothing destroys me like you do... She appeared from a mystery Where did she come from That I did not care at the time I only wanted someone to be there for me But it was all wrong.. She hurt me and you What on Earth compelled me to do it When were realities true to the core I have nothing She gave me something, but nothing in the end Many days pass I still wanna runaway She never filled my heart with purity I shoot her down, I shut her out, I can't believe this is hate, I won't believe that Months flew thinking the same I want to make, the final decision.. Remember.. I promised her nothing. The final decision was made.. Banish her She was a figment of my imagination Meant to replace you're spot in my heart But it will never be replaced.. I hate the day, the night I'm not alive, I hate the day Drowning.. fuck karma watching you slip away... Without you by my side, and without you in my life, I have nothing I’m waiting for that day When it’s over And we are reunited once again.... 01/09/03 01/25/03 (edited) Season of Color Upon the dawn of light.. There is a moment A single moment When one color is shown through the clouds In the form of a star This texture of color shines with beauty and grace A moment only seen like true angel eyes A tear from my eye Alas.. your eyes.. They have the same precious grace Diamond nor gold can appear this way Only you appear this beautiful forever.. 01/04/03 The More Money They Get The Colder Their Hearts The more money they get the colder their hearts To love has become a phrase Warmth doesn't exist Instead of holding him tight they would rather watch him fall But he knows and sometimes he weeps quietly his heart breaks and breaks His fire seems to be extinct That is how they want him to be (But what have you achieved) One day.. He drove his car.. Into the crash burial.. And he had luck.. It's winter.. And the cold didn't make him realize.. That his legs.. Were severed.. The snow absorbed his blood… The martyrdom has been accomplished… -Deadlock Your Eyes - Same Chemical as Stars I walk around memories These feelings, are my remedy I take out the Seraph Card from my depths within You show the Two of Cups in your heart We hold hands and stay as one Spread our wings Flying togather in the clouds There is no sunset to the dawn of what I feel 12/12/02 Black Becomes Darker But I can't bleed Where were you When I wanted comfort You were nowhere to be found I don't care about Your supposed "problems" Continue to think you have problems Oh no, one of your many gothic-like slaves has left you What a problem, how depressing, what a tragedy You live in a world without care Stop mocking me, and my friends I have left You are still here Do the words Get lost Not sink in? 12/12/02 Climate Of An Unstable Heart Enclosed Spaces Only Within Wings Length I see the light of day in the distance Only wings can reach it But my wings has yet to grow Curses of it haunt me I know very well the rain falls in drops Constantly teasing with imaginary figures Always wondering, Who's coming to save? A phosphorus like fog fell from an imaginary Zyon* Always defragmenting my life It was thought to contain essential forces But it chokes the ones I care for It's life was full of fallacy Realization of the mist Took time, and patience It burried my heart in disfigured flames The heart that belonged to someone beloved It hurt my loved one Which affects me I blew away the fog In one final blow It's trust was lost in lies I woke up tonight And no one's here with me I only I had the wings.. To fly towards my desires The direction is pointed But the strength has to be reached 12/05/02 Note * Zyon is Heaven in Hebrew Botchla But I adore her This will never happen But I adore her This will never happen Over my dead body Of course I think about it Burn my path, if it does Shape my body as I feel Torn Shape my body as I feel Torn broken And if it happens I'll burn and crawl deeper in my hole Darkness always says hello And your burning body will light my way Burning body light my way -Poison The Well Winter..The Season of Bleak Desolate Memories With the first snowfall this year It hurts more than the last Constantly tearing my insides The stress has got me.. Taking me away I'm crying tonight With every bit of me Dying with every tear of mine It is all bottled up inside.. Where no one can reach The denom is what no one can destroy Its name is Memories.. Sparkles remind me.. Of the days my life was nothing and meaningless to everyone As I cry at the stars I stare away.. All too much to take I get left behind in everything and everywhere I look forward to dying in each night Crumbling in winters dark cold night skies Winter is the time when my scars effect me... Childhood Scars... Lone Scars... And Especially Love Scars.. 11/17/02 - First Snowfall.. Struggle He stands up to his thoughts and emotions The carousel spins beyond his grasp He wishes it would stop But it stops for no one It's too late for him It travels too fast to hold on The only hope is so far away Yet he continues to attempt To hold on the rail of hope 11/14/02 Reflection With every part of me Falling in love with every bit of you I think about.. The way it was before Oh how beautiful it was .. No one had ever made me feel that way before And no one else will I cry because of the feelings The ones that always remind me That my hand could not extend far enough For you.. What I'd do.. To see your face Just to squeeze you tightly In a way.. that you nor me have felt before 11/13/02 Three Thoughts, Three Words, And A Secret Message And whom will be the Next to see my rage?.. She shall be next Why you ask? Everything was a lie Repeats of pain and loss Scary it seems.. A R E they still watching me?.. Rendering their thought Exposure of the truth Balancing the silence of light Everyone becomes closer Loving and caring Oh how it is so unfamiliar, but only to the one Who I love is there an exception... 09/18/02 10/03/02 Cali Awaits For You Casting this spell to enlighten the truth Why.. did you play around with My intrinsic components? Cali calls your name... What have you done? You whore.. Feelings are what you lack Cali calls your name... You manifest the weak Into Isolation And feed off their pain Cali calls your name... I have obliterated your lies and traces That you left behind You will torture me no more I call your name in vain for your punishment Are you still breathing? 10/30/02 To Grasp What Cannot Be Embraced [ You Stubborn Fool, I Love Another.. ] Thankfully I don’t miss your lies Or the way you always were What I would do… for one more day without you Your miles away, but you still seem to make me cringe If I could… I would open a chasm to an abyss and condemn you to eternal damnation I despise you for your dark shadows.. Why wont you leave my soul alone? Your malevolence still haunts my head I HATE IT! AND I HATE YOU! Your trust is gone, so leave You were only imaginary Made of my denials, and your lies Wasting my time was the only thing that was never a lie Your scars… Most wanted good-byes The other... With everything becoming opaque Aligning with the stars As the prophecy foreshadowed Someone somewhere should know this.. I adore you, with all your angelic grace in your stance We fly together in the clouds You’re so distant, yet so close to the heart Thinking about your embrace And how it holds us in place Depths of me have yet to be exposed to you I have yet to understand it But I remember the days…The sun went down We sacrificed, and we felt apart Those memories are in the past Memories were. Now, is this. Heavens tears have fallen to my heart They take away the suffering Appearing in dreams Never the mare.. 10/28/02 Opposite of Trice The demons in my head They torture me with love and friendship Linked togather as they are My mind, my soul, is on the verge Too afraid to act Twice it happened Again and again With the same pain Now... i'll let it be It shall only be a friendship But a strong one Because I' m still afraid everyday 10/07/02 The Night Of Winter Taking in another dream I beg for sleep As my wings slowly disappear Into the mist of night I wake up... Gaze into the stars Through my thoughts The stars look down on me Wondering what they mean While the moon is full Sitting like a portrait The moon reflecting off my chalice Containing pure wine Pure as what i feel In these cold winter days Winter is the time of joy for many For many unlike me It brings back past memories and emotions The hate and love That shaped my life to what it is Comes back every winter With the reminder of fall It haunts me.. 09/24/02 Answers Are Closer Than They Appear Daggers raining from Across the waters.. Night falls on this side of me It falls in a way that it lets me Escape into a world free of pain Lost in circles Longer it seems, the more Emotions catch up with me... 09/18/02 Process Of Realization She said she loved me She said she would do anything for me She said she loved me She said she never felt this way about anyone before She said she loved me She said she would do everything for me She only said.. She painted my heart to believe When I told her how I felt She didn't understand In my hour of disbelief She said goodbye... What she said was never true 09/15/02 09/11/01 As they fall Crashing down a thousand times They sleep on concrete pillows Their loved ones not so far away Another day goes by Another year does the same But their memory lives on.. In the Flames We can see The victims The heros The perpetradors Violence never solves anything But how many times must it be proven Before we realize what it means? 09/11/02 ... She took down an empire to ruin And beheld her face to the darkness Through the might of her powers That lay within As the walls descend ...Silence... Marking of a new era begins Markings of power Powers that can sever my soul Or save it... 09/11/02 Scars Shadows covering my face Hauntings of immortal scars beneath them They must pay…. For all the insalubrious pain They burn my path Now I walk around in circles To find nothing but what they destroyed… I shall get my revenge one day some day.... 09/04/02 Daggers of Life I could never stand tall through the pressuring falls of what was.. and is to stay Slipping further away.. further away from the truth Than the core of the depraved lie.. The fate of what side the dagger lands on Is decide by the one who truely understands it.... 08/31/02 Life As It Stand Infront of Me So much of an outcast… This life is meaningless Darkening sickness Drowning in scars They that inflict eternal pain Their malicious thoughts Haunting me to the grave itself Painful as it is I must live with this foreshadowing Life that repeats itself like the clock that Lays destroyed over my head Smashed as it is Cut, scarred, slit open…still They dare not stop Why am I even trying? Crying out to the stars daily As I lay there… lifeless as it seems Screams of bane None have took notice Why take notice to another Pathetic soul as myself Laughing and pointing At me is all they ever did They have not stopped for 6 years Many enemies emerged from The depths of the shallow dark waters Ignoring them for years… They have yet to stop! Facing this I could not take I stood alone… Since the cradle to the grave I will fall and die alone…. 08/22/02 Choke Lifeless memories Drowning - Scars of the past Smashed me to the ground Laughing and pointing They never left me alone Walk upon me like monarchies Dejected my mind Simpleton I am to believe That it would ever stop.. Infliction of these invisible scars Enemies emerge... Hope they choke... 08/11/02 Nameless Hurt by this repetition in this lie of a severed soul Drawn to the stars, as they share my pain Must I always fall this way? Poisons in the air fill my heart Brandishing those mortal words of terror Conjunction of the water and blood Gives them satisfaction of pain with pleasure Yet I try to stand, and grow my wings to fly Far from these problems that arise from the sun Bane is all I'll ever know The remedy of death lurks around Each and every corner.. 08/04/02 |
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| Please do not tell me they make no sense. Because they do when you THINK! I don't tell people what they mean, but there's alot more people that go to my site then i originally thought.. These poems are meant to make you think.. Heres an example "Shadows covering my face" It doesn't literally mean theres shadows covering my face, it means.. that I'm covering up what i really am inside. another one is.. "Crashing down a thousand times. They sleep on concrete pillows" (its from the 9/11) It doesn't mean the towers fell a thousand times, but in my mind, because on the news they plays it so much, it seemed like a thousand times. The concrete pillows represents the remains of the towers, and the lost people in them "sleep" there (lay there dead). As you can see, I'm not the rhyming type. If theres words that confuse you sush as: perpetradors, simpleton, brandishing, conjunction, bane, malice, and so on. Then go to www.dictionary.com. Please feel free to relate to any of these. If you want to use any of them in your MSN nicknames... ask first Sorry if there maybe some spelling mistakes, I'm not the greatest of spellers. |
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