Pieces of Me
Readers
First off, I would like to thank everyone for their encouraging feedback and dedication in not letting me forget this fic (not that I could have even if I wanted to). Whenever I received an email proclaiming how much someone enjoyed this fic and asking when the next chapter would be out, I was reminded that there were many of you out there who were looking forward to seeing what happened with this fic.
Yes, this is the last chapter. No, it was not originally supposed to be. In fact, I only decided maybe a month ago that this would be the final chapter. For some odd reason, I really hit a wall on this fic. My muse left me, or my brain malfunctioned or RL got extremely hectic or something else, but for whatever reason I wasn’t able to finish this fic the way I wanted to.
I wrote and posted the first chapter of this fic one year ago yesterday. I checked. I remember being very nervous, thinking no one could possibly like it. I went online, posted it to the bjfic yahoo group and almost immediately signed off, the technological equivalent to saying something and running away. I was unbelievable anxious as to what kind of, if any, response I would get. But, when I grew the proverbial balls to go online and check, everything I received was very positive about this. Some of my most favorite authors have sent me great feedback or have my site listed on their site’s links page (When I discovered this last bit, I was completely floored. And utterly amazed. ;-)
I have struggled with this chapter for 9 months. I checked and the date of when I started writing this chapter was Dec. 8, 2003. I wrote about 3 pages while hiding and avoiding people in a back office during my office’s annual holiday party. And since then, in months following, I was barely able to write one sentence every couple of weeks on it. The bulk of this has been written in last month since I made the decision for it to end here.
This is soo not how I intended it to end. It was going to be angsty and dramatic and (hopefully) powerful and moving. But it didn’t happen. I agonized over this fic (especially this chapter!). I stressed over it, when I already had plenty going on elsewhere to stress over. Maybe someday (no guarantees!), but if I get the urge and am able to, I hope to write a sequel to this that includes my original ending. If this happens, I would wait until I have the entire thing written before posting any.
Again, I would just like to thank everyone who stuck by this fic and enjoyed it and sent me feedback and who refused to forget it. I really truly appreciate it and that’s what kept me going on it.
