HEALING OUR LIVES

Remembering

God help me to remember now.

No, don't.

God I'm ready to see the pictures now.

Wait stop.

OK. That's OK. I just needed to catch my breath. Now I'm ready.

Please don't let me see.

There. Just resting for a minute. Now you can start.

Wait. I'm sorry. I'm not ready yet.

God, I have to see. I want to see, I want to know the truth, and let the truth set me free. I'm strong enough now.

Please don't let me begin now.

No, not that truth. God, that's too close, it hurts too much.

Please let me look.

Please don't make me look.

God, please just hold me. I'm so tired. Please just let me rest.

The pictures memories at the edges of my mind knocking at my door:

"Let me in let me in,"

waiting for me, waiting patient.

"When you're ready you will see. Know I holdyou safe until then.

Know I walk with you when you start to walk.

Know I run without growing tired

alongside you as you run from or run to.

Know that I am God your Mother who carries you

God your father who lifts you

Not to hit you not to hurt you not to tell you no

But yes yes yes.

Yes, I love you."

Amen

From the book Survivoir Prayers by Catherin J. Foote

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