MAY 2000: It has been quite a few months since I went off the Depo Provera in Jaunary of 2000. I finally had my fist period, and I must admit that it wasn't a day in the park. I've slowly been feeling the pain coming back, but knowing there is little I can do, I just try to live with it. I've been spending a lot of days in bed or in a hot bath. Pain killers such as advil don't even touch the pain. I'm trying to make a decision about what I should do. It's hard to decide on a hysterectomy when I really would like children someday. Yet I also want to live a normal active life of a 21 year old, and not spend my days in bed. It's a decision that I never imagined I would have to make. Being a woman and being able to have children is something I maybe took for granted.
The side effects from the Depo Provera are hard to get rid of. I haven't been able to lose the weight that it made me gain, It's like it maybe changed my metabolism. The mood swings are starting to get better, but I still feel depressed from time to time. I find that I've been having skin problems on my scalp and the doctors seem to think it's something like Folicalitis and or Sebborric Dermatitis. (Forgive me if I spelled those wrong). Most doctors will tell me that the skin problems have nothing to do with the Depo Provera, but I really beleive that it is just another side effect that I deal with. Hey they had other side effects they didn't list.. why can't a skin problem be one of them? The breast milk has still not gone away and my breast size has not gone back down to a 36 C. I have a feeling I'll be stuck with huge boobs for the rest of my life. Let's just hope the breast milk will go away eventually.
I'm proud to say that I am not on any Anti-depressants, Birth Control Pills, Pain Killers or anything. I'm medication free in hopes to get it all out of my system. Depo Provera is supposed to have a long half Life.. Meaning it stays in your body for a long time even after you quit getting shots.. so I'm going to hold out until it's out of my system before I start up anything like a Birth Control Pill again.
