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Tuesday, June 24th, 2003
6:16 pm GRRRRRGRRGRGRRRGRGG!!!!!!!!!
Life stinks. So I get into the college of education but I find out that
I have to do field experiance for the next three semesters and then my
student teaching. It has to be done at a differant school each semester.
and as those of you who know me know I dont drive. So now I have to somehow
find schools on bus lines so I can get to them. So I can put my three
choices in so that they can tell me which one I can have. But because
they let me in the program so late I will likly end up not getting any
of my choices. So I dont know what to do. I need to get a car and learn
to drive. Except that takes money. Which I have very little of until August
when school starts and then I dont have much. I dont know what to do.
oh and on top of that yesterday I went to the doctor and found out that
I have a kedney infection. I dont even know what causes one. But damn
it add it to the list of shit that keeps happening to me. I just feel
like dropping out and saying screw it at this point. Nothing ever gets
easier. This really sucks. %cries%
Monday, June 16th, 2003
7:00 am when it rains it pores
Well I was going to go see my great unt again yesterday (my dad didnt
want to do anything for fathers day). But instead I got a call from my
mom telling me my grandpa was in the hospital. So I went to see him instead.
Took 2.5 hours to get there. 2 of those hours were on the bus, the other
half an hour was in the back of a very very hot truck. But I made it there.
And my grandpa is going to be alright from what they tell me. They took
him in thinking he was having a heart attack. Fortunatly he had two differant
heat specialists look at him and found out that it wasnt the heart. They
think it is a stomache thing. And they are doing some more tests today
some of which are going to rule out the heart for sure and others will
tell if it is a stomache thing. Anyway while I was there I also found
out that another person I know is in the hospital. Hes from church so
I know him as "brother" Rose. Anyway his doctor told him to
take to much insilin and it made him "bleed from the inside"
as I was told. So including Chris' mom's boyfriend (f she still thinks
of him as that) who is in a nursing home type place because his illness
is more long term, that makes four people I know in hospitals. Can someone
please send out a memo telling everyone I know to stay well for a while.
I don't want my friends and family sick and I'm going to end up in a hospital
if I have to go to many more hospitals to visit others. %sigh%
But today will be better. I'm making Chris a cake for his official unbirthday.
and possibly lasagna too. We were in CA with his family for his birthday.
No one made him a cake. His dad asked him if he wanted a birthday dinner.
He requested steak. (smart boy cause we cant afford good steak) anyway
his dad cooked the steak and Chris and I made everything else. Then His
dad had him do the dishes. I'm sorry but whose birthday was it? So that
was done the night before his birthday. And after dinner his dad asked
him if he would help him clean the house the next day(his actual birthday).
He was there for a week and he was asked to clean the house on his birthday.
just grrr...
anyway I have to check the cake. :)
Friday, June 13th, 2003
7:57 pm :(
Well my great aunt is in the hospital. A pretty sad situation. And I'm
not fond of the care she is recieving. Especially the fact that they are
giving her insilin and I dont think she is supposed to have it. I wish
I could be there more so I could make sure she was being taken care of.
%sigh% Maybe I'll get into more details on it later, maybe not. Kinda
sad right now.
Sunday, June 1st, 2003
1:05 pm vacation
well I got the rest of my grades. 4 Bs and an A. Best semester GPA I've
ever had. :)
And now I'm off to CA. Going to Chris' dad's house. His whole family is
over there so we will be visiting people for the next week. We'll be home
next sunday so I can go to work monday. Got me a nice summer job. Working
in a three week summer program for kids. Very fun job. So anyway have
fun while I'm gone and I will write when I get back. :)
Saturday, May 17th, 2003
1:07 pm online grade
So I got my grade for my online class. he keeps giving me Cs on the assignments.
But with discussion question stuff added in I ended up getting a B-. Which
will be a B on my official grades because the plus minus system doesnt
start until next semester. :) me so happy. :)
Sunday, May 11th, 2003
1:18 pm So I already know two grades. and A and a B. B in my playwriting
class. C on my play. little grumble grr about that but whatever. A B is
good. Anyway I have one tyhing left to do for school. And then I get to
clean house and possibly update my website, if I can remember how. Its
been so long. Anyway Chris and I went and got pictures yesterday. They
look so nice. yeah! :)
Saturday, May 3rd, 2003
9:46 am my play. I still need a title.
(Mid stage is a hospital bed. To one side is a curtain giving the other
bed in the room privacy. To the other side is a door. Against the same
wall as the bed is a table with a lamp, pitcher, and a glass. On the other
side of the bed is a chair. In the bed is a woman, Betty, in her early
30s. She is mentally retarded and speaks with a slur. Dorothy, a 45 year
old nurse, enters the room.)
Dorothy
Hey Betty Boop.
Betty
Hi.
Dorothy
How are you feeling today?
Betty
All right.
Dorothy
Well, its time for your shot.
(Dorothy takes out a needle and prepares to give Betty a shot. Betty
leans over towards Dorothy.)
Betty
You want me to bite you?
Dorothy
No. Now Bet you know you have to take this shot if you want to get better.
Do you want to get better?
(Betty lies back down defeatedly.)
Betty
Yes.
(Betty turns her arm over so Dorothy can give her the shot.)
Dorothy
I know ya hate the shots Bet. We all hate shots.
Betty
Yeah.
Dorothy
So what ya got planned for today? Going to go down to the main hall and
watch TV with the others?
Betty
No.
Dorothy
Why not?
Betty
Henry is going to come get me today. He’s coming back for me.
Dorothy
When did you find that out?
Betty
He told me when he left me here he was going to come back for me. He just
had to figure out how to get me home.
Dorothy
Where were you staying before?
Betty
Mommy took care of me. Henry said she went home though. He said he wished
she could have taken me but that she couldn’t.
Dorothy
I see.
Betty
Today is the day though. I just know it.
(Dorothy gives Betty the shot)
Ouch. Damn you.
Dorothy
Now Bet, you knew it was coming.
Betty
Yeah.
Dorothy
I have to go. I’ve got work to do. You should get down to the main
hall with the others. I hear they are having a cheesecake for Sophie’s
birthday and I know how you love cheesecake.
Betty
Ok.
(Dorothy leaves the room. Betty lays her head back on her pillow and
lets out a big sign.)
I wish I were home with you momma.
(She closes her eyes. There is a noise from the patient in the next bed.
Betty opens her eyes and looks straight forward. She sits up and looks
at something across the room with wide eyes.)
(Slow and soft with disbelief) Momma.
(She takes a deep breath. Talking proper and thoughtful with no slurring)
I can’t believe you are here. You look so pretty momma. (beat) It’s
been a while momma. (beat) How do you like your home? This place aint
so bad. (beat) I wish Henry would come back and get me though. I haven’t
seen him in years. (sigh) He left me here till he could figure out how
to keep me he said.
(She frowns and looks at the bed.)
I think it was because I was sick though. He left me here so long ago
and he never has visited me. At first I really missed him but now I’m
starting to realize he never really loved me. He was such a sweet boy.
He never wanted to bring his friends over in case they would make fun
of me. He didn’t want em to talk bad about me. I think really he
didn’t want em to talk bad about him though. Tease him. Tell him
he had a freak sister. Tell him he was weird. That’s what I think.
I think he wanted to hide me from them. Just like he wants to hide me
now. That’s why I’m here. Because no one has to know about me.
I remember on the way here that day he started telling me about this woman
he met. He told me he was going to marry her. He said he would bring her
here to see me just as soon as he married her. He said he didn’t
want to scare her off before they were married, then he laughed. He got
such a big kick out of it. I didn’t think it was funny though. It’s
not my fault I was born this way.
(Looks back to the spot across the room.)
All my life I’ve been made fun of by people. The only time I felt
normal was when I was with you, momma. You made me feel like I was just
as perfect as could be. Henry always was nice to me back then. He never
came around much though. I thought he would take care of me when you left
momma. But he never. He put me in here. My own brother. Flesh and blood
brother and he put me in this terrible place. And he just left me here.
First you left me then he left me.
(As Betty’s excitement grows she begins to slur her words again.)
I needed you momma. Why did you leave? Why didn’t you stay with
me? Or taken me with you. You could have taken me with you! What do you
have to say for yourself momma? Huh? You left me with someone who didn’t
love me momma! You were supposed to take care of me and you left me!
(Dorothy walks in the door with a concerned look. Betty’s temper
raging she grabs the pitcher from the table and throws it at the spot
she stares at.)
Dorothy
Betty I could hear you halfway down the hall. What’s wrong with you?
(This doesn’t faze Betty at all)
Betty
You left me momma! How could you leave me? I loved you! You made me feel
normal! I’m not normal now momma! How could you leave me?
(Her head drops to look at the bed. She covers her face with her hands
and cries loudly.)
(Through the sobs) Momma.
(Dorothy looks shocked at what she has just witnessed.)
Dorothy
Betty! Are you ok? What’s gotten into you?
(She slowly approaches the bed. She puts her hand on Betty’s shoulder.
Betty leans towards her a bit. Dorothy sits down beside Betty and puts
her arm around her. Betty leans against her.)
Betty
She left me.
Dorothy
I know Bet.
(She rubs Betty’s shoulder.)
Betty
Why did she leave me?
Dorothy
Sometimes people don’t mean to leave Betty.
Betty
She never even said goodbye.
Dorothy
Sometimes people have to go far away Betty. And they can’t say goodbye
before they go. They can’t take anything they own with them.
Betty
Why do they go then?
Dorothy
God calls them home Betty. He wants them to come home to him. But your
mom did take something with her. She took your love. And she left you
her love. She took care of you so well because of that Bet.
(Dorothy gets up and grabs a towel from inside the drawer of the table.
She wipes up the water and picks up the pitcher.)
You really got me worried throwing stuff across the room Bet. That ain’t
like you.
(She looks at Betty for a moment and realizes Betty is staring off into
space not even aware Dorothy is there.)
Betty
I wish God would take me home.
(Dorothy returns to Betty’s bed and sits by her.)
Dorothy
I would miss you so much if he did Bet. You’ve been such a big part
of my life for so long. You always make me laugh and smile. And when you
got sick I promised you I would take care of you no matter what remember?
Because I love you Bet. I’ve grown so attached to you. I don’t
know what I would do if I had to show up to work one day and not see you.
No one makes me smile the way you do Bet.
(Betty smiles and looks at Dorothy. Dorothy wipes Betty’s tears
off her cheeks.)
Now you stop being so mad at your mom. She didn’t want to leave
you. But God had a plan. And I think bringing you here to me was part
of that plan. Betty you have helped me get through so much in my life
without even knowing it. You’re my best friend Betty.
Betty
I am?
Dorothy
Yes you are.
Betty
How can I of all people be your best friend? I’m not smart enough
for that.
Dorothy
Smarts don’t matter Betty. What matters is your heart. Your love.
Your joy in life. You bring people happiness. You know how to love and
care about people. That is what makes a good best friend.
(Betty smiles at Dorothy. She puts her arms around Dorothy and hugs her.)
Betty
You’re my best friend too Dorothy.
(The two sit on the bed hugging. The lights dim.)
Wednesday, April 23rd, 2003
7:03 am extreamly busy...
really dont have time to post but wanted to say I was practically offered
a job yesterday. I mean a real job. Like a career type job. A teaching
possision at ASU. I'm not really qualified for it though. Me still being
an undergraduate and all. But my name came up about it, from no doing
of my own. So that felt excelent that peple think that highly of me that
I would pratically be offered a teaching possision at ASU before I have
even graduated. 2 maybe 2.5 years left before I do. Kinda the ultimate
compliment. I'm still grinning about it, even though Im sick and feel
like shit. Anyway I hope everything is going well for everyone and I will
be reading journals again soon I hope.
Thursday, April 3rd, 2003
10:07 pm mold be gone.
at last my mold is gone. Was as of Tuesday. Feels so good. Though our
furnature is not yet back in place. My apartment is going to feel large
after we put the furnature back. :) Anyway I called the health inspecter
had him come out. he talked to the manager, she promised me a call within
30 minutes to tell me what was up. She gave me a time at which the head
maintenence guy for all of the management company would be here to see
me. It was within an hour. Anyway he and the head maintenence guy for
our property came and talked to me. Saw my mold and promised to fix it
the next day. Which they did. :)
Sunday, March 30th, 2003
9:49 pm theater, a festiville ad a nice romantice dinner...
What more could a girl ask for? Chris and I had to see a play for our
playwriting class. Which was really really good. anyway then we went to
the tempe festiville of the arts. we wondered around and bought vanilla
pecans (like cinnimon almonds but so much better I think) and lemonade
and ice cream. we looked at all the cool stuff. then as the merchents
were closing up we went and sat by what we call the emerald city which
is a special place for us. and Chris sang to me. Then we went to dinner.
ordered whatever we wanted. I tried sushi for the first time and crab
for the first time too. Was pretty good. anyway we went all out and never
worried about money one little bit. It felt good. I got money out of the
bank, gave it to Chris and said spend this on us today and make me feel
like a princess. :) It worked very well. I feel great. I just went on
a wonderful date. %sigh% happy happy happy. :)
Saturday, March 15th, 2003
10:32 pm News...
To think this could have been prevented if only people had the courage
to do something about it. Oh and CPS had been to the home before. So how
did things get that bad? Not enough attention was paid to the needs of
those little children. People need to stop being so damn afraid of tearing
a family apart when it comes to the wellfare of helpless innocent children.
Drug raid finds 4 kids in filth
Dead animals also in meth lab near Wittmann
Brent Whiting
The Arizona Republic
Mar. 15, 2003 12:00 AM
WITTMANN - Four abused children, as well as dozens of dead or mistreated
animals, were discovered Friday in a drug raid on a trailer compound in
the northwest Valley.
Some of the kids had open sores, and some were living in a mobile home
that lacked power and running water and was littered with trash and animal
feces, authorities said.
"The best way to describe the living conditions is just deplorable,"
said Sgt. Paul Chagolla, a spokesman for the Maricopa County Sheriff's
Office. "It was very sickening."
Deputies also found a working methamphetamine laboratory in the raid,
which took place at a remote hardscrabble site in the 25000 block of North
197th Avenue, about five miles south of Wittmann.
Raw sewage flowed on the property and investigators described the squalor
as the worst they have ever encountered, Chagolla said.
Child Protective Services, a state agency, took custody of the children,
three boys and a girl, ages 9 months to 11. Three of the kids are siblings.
Other deputies tended to the animals, including an estimated 30 to 50
dogs, as well as a horse, goats, chickens and three pigs that were crammed
into a small pen.
Some of the animals showed obvious signs of mistreatment, Chagolla said.
In addition, there were dead dogs and rabbits found in cages.
Six people were taken into custody, including the parents of the children,
he said.
Additional arrests were expected as deputies conducted parallel investigations
for drug violations, child endangerment and animal abuse.
Wednesday, March 12th, 2003
8:44 pm ITC results
So I got a letter in the mail from the college of education. I have been
so stressed lately about money for next year and classes I was supposed
to have taken but was never told about and all kinds of other stuff. Well
my wonderful letter I got today about my aplication to the Initial Teacher
Certification (ITC) Program told me I didn't need to worry anymore. I
never got in. Ah life is great. Wonder which McDonalds location I should
apply at...
Thursday, March 6th, 2003
2:00 pm award for me...
soon after I wrote my last entry I found out I was going to be getting
an award at the reception thingy that the service learning program is
having. Going to be pretty cool. :)
So today I finally had my history test that I had blown off studying for
last week. I had figured out how to answer like 2 questions pretty well
out of the 6 we were given. Then I decided screw this I'm not going to
remember any more of this shit. So I stoped studying. Guess which questions
of the 6 were on the test. :) Life is good. I think I did very well. :)
Wednesday, March 5th, 2003
1:31 pm I'm tired...
yesterday I was so tired I stayed home for my first class so I could sleep
more. Today Im still tired but feeling better. Also although one person
doesnt think highly enough of me to wait for me even though I was running
behind her car others (such as the one giving me my grade) think very
highly of me. I am now going to be doing recruiting for the program. Although
thye are likly inlisting me so that they dont have to do as much I am
the only one they are inlisting. It makes me feel honored. :) They trust
me with doing the job tht keeps the program going. If they dont get students
in the program then there is no program. So I feel great about being able
to do it. yeah! :)
Monday, March 3rd, 2003
2:27 pm grrrr....
So last night my friend Ben came over. Chris, Ben and I all watched Goldmember
and then played some rummy. Ben had to teach us how to play first. So
we had a rather late night. We ended up going to bed at like 12 to go
with having to get up at 5:30 am. So I was very tired this morning and
didnt want to get up. But I have my class where I work with kids so I
got up. I love going to the school to see the kids. Well when I went out
to catch the bus I had just barily missed it. So I walked pretty close
to all the way. A differant free bus came and took me part way. Anyway
I got to school just in time to run behind but not catch the instructors
car. I missed my class and missed working with the kids because the stupid
bus never did come. They are supposed to come every 15 minutes but it
never. I was so upset about missing the class. Thing is the instructor
always waits for other people but since Im always early to class she left
without me. grrr...
Saturday, March 1st, 2003
10:45 am evil... grrr...
the net is evil. ok I am having the hardest time even getting my computer
to log onto the internet. Apparently IE will no longer log on with my
net service. Mozilla will though. unfortunatly it takes some getting used
to and it will not always let me play yahoo games which I like to do sometimes.
Anyway then there is my assignment do on my classes website today. But
the website is down and not expected back up till at least sunday at noon.
And no I didnt wait till the last minute its been down for a while now.
grrrr... Anyway I must go get ready for my trip to the store. Lots of
food to buy. :)
Friday, February 28th, 2003
5:40 pm muddy garden... whahhhh!!!
So I work with whats called the garden club. Its an after school program
for kids where we work in a garden. Well the garden was all muddy from
the rain so we couldnt take the kids out there. But there is a reception
for the service learning program which is in charge of the garden club.
For the reception we are supposed to make posters to show what the kids
are doing. Its also incouraged to have pictures of the kids on the poster.
So I was going to take some pictures of them today. I had already taken
a few of our garden. If I get a chance and can figure it out I will post
the garden pics here. Though I am without a scanner and rarly use the
schools computers so thats unlikly. Anyway we found out that out of all
the kids we had today we could only take two kids pictures. So we got
inventive so that the others would not have their faces in the pictures.
The kids were so off the wall today. But we survived and now Im home and
hungry. I'm going to go make spagetti now. yummy. :)
Thursday, February 27th, 2003
10:13 pm I'm so glad I went out last night...
I am soooo glad I went out last night. I got to hang out with my friends,
which I havent done for so long. And I got to complain about stuff, which
I havent gotten to do for even longer. I can complain to some people about
some stuff and other people about other stuff. But last night I got to
complain about everything I wanted to. God that felt good! Anyway I had
such a good time and although I feel a bit sick today I feel so emotionally
good. I was a little worried last night though because I blew off studying
for a test that was this morning. Then when I got to the class it was
anounced that the test was put off a week because the online site we had
used wasnt working. Aparently some people complained about the site enough
to convince the professor it was broken. So the test was delayed and now
we are going to have a change to our assignments because they were all
from the site. Anyway everyone that bought the CD to access the site will
be getting their money back for it because the professor had the bookstore
stop payment on the check to the site. Sounds like an awesome thing where
people actually get what they deserve right? Well get this, the site isnt
really broken. A bunch of lazy students were using that as an excuss to
turn in their assignments late and to try to put off the test. Well it
worked and it sucks that they never had to do the assignment, and now
they will not have to do it. grrr... plus now they think they can get
away with this kind of thing. Im so not happy about that. But I am happy
I hung out with my friends last night enstead of studying. :)
Tuesday, February 25th, 2003
3:17 pm a post two days in a row... shocking isnt it?
So I'm going to try to post more often. If I just do a little bit everyday...
yeah right this is me I'm talking about... but I'll try.
I talked to an old friend that I hadnt talked to in like a year. We're
probly going to hang out tomarrow. So thats very cool.
Been a cold rainy day today... and to think it was laundry day. Just my
luck. Actually its exactly my luck, happens that way suprisingly frequently
concidering Im in AZ.
And now my love is home so I must go and do the dishes and such.
Monday, February 24th, 2003
9:47 pm been a while... My account is still active though... been long
enough I was worried. :(
Sorry its been so long. I'm not very good at updating this thing. Duh!
I think thats only news to me. Anyway since last I wrote I went to CA.
Stayed at Chris' dads house. had a blast. also had 6 Christmases. Is that
how you make Christmas plural? Ive never done it before so I dont know.
I'm going to have to learn though. Between Chris' family and my family
including my parents divorce that was finally filed last friday I'm going
to have a whole lot of Christmases in coming years. I even still have
gifts yet to give because I havent seen my friends in so long. Anyway
after CA we got home and I had to do an application for the teaching program.
Stressed me way out. Then before that was finished I found out my parents
were divorcing. Then school started. Im taking 15 credits. One of my professors
is a pain in the butt. grrrrr..... make that a really big GRRRRRR....
I really dislike him. Anyway I've also been sick about 3 times just since
we got back. And homework all seems to come at once. I had 3 papers due
last thursday for 3 differant classes. grrrr... now I have a test this
thursday. and along with everyone else in the world I have this constant
thought in the back of my mind of "are we at war yet?" I voted
for the man, and I still stand by my reasons for voting for him, but trust
me next election day, provided there is one, my vote says hes out. No
one knew what was to come and so no one can really say I told you so because
I believed in his platform and still believe in those issues. However
his platform said nothing of war. To be perfectly honest war scares the
shit out of me. Its a stupid and petty thing to do. I'm just going to
end here with a grumble grrr.. cause its late and I'm tired. but... well..
grumble grrr...
Friday, December 20th, 2002
10:09 pm been a while.. sorry...
Been a while since I last posted in my journal. But I was busy with a
bunch of stuff. Finals and Christmas and getting ready to go to CA. Where
I'm going Sunday and will be until Monday the 6th. And going to my parents
house tomarrow morning and leaving from there for CA. I'll have no net
access so this will be my last post until at least the 6th and very likly
several days after. Anyway finals went alright. Dont have my grades back
yet, least not all of them. But I am pretty sure I will e improving my
GPA, so that will be nice. :) Lots to do though so this is it till after
vacation. Merry Christmas and Happy New Year!
Tuesday, December 3rd, 2002
11:01 am weekend without Chris
%sigh% Missed him so much. But I stayed with my family and had a good
time there. Wonderful Thanksgiving stuff. My mommy is a great cook. And
then I got to hang out with Marcus and Janelle on Friday. We went to a
very strange place, but the food was good. And I got to hang out with
Marcus again on Sunday when he and Ashley and another friend of ours all
went out to eat. It was cool. Though the resturant was way too loud and
kinda strange and very pricy. I'll never go there again. But it was still
fun cause it was with cool people. On Saturday my mom and I rearanged
my furnature, place looks good now. yeah! Anyway I got home from dinner
Sunday night about 10-20 minutes before Chris got here. So I waited for
him outside and then as we came in I put my hand over his eyes so he couldnt
see and led him in, then let him see what we had done to the place. He
was really suprised by it. He felt bad he had not been here to help though.
Said he owed me some vacuming and scrubbing of the tub. Which was funny
because he always does that anyway. Im so pampered. lol. Anyway its awsome
to have him back again because I just feel kinda lost without him around.
:)
Monday, November 25th, 2002
12:22 pm Harry Potter was good?
So I have never really wanted to see or read any of this harry Potter
stuff. Its not really my thing. And on top of that I had adults telling
me it was great and that it had stuff for adults too. told me it was a
really great book. Well chris wanted to go see the newest movie because
he had read the books and seen the first movie. So yesterday we went.
It actually wasnt bad, for a kids movie. Sure I enjoyed it but i also
enjoy clifford the big red dog when it comes on tv. it never seemed to
really even try to have anything adult in it. which was good. but I have
had people pressuring me about them saying they had stuff for adults too.
just grrr.. that people bugged me so much about it. anyway from a non
fan here the movie was pretty good. I see why people like Harry Potter
so well. But those that do please dont try to sell it to others using
lies to convince them.
Now then.. Yesterday Chris and I hung out at the mall. Was pretty fun.
And I got a little something for my mom. but nothing for anyone else.
And got no idea what to get chris still. I know what would be a greatgift
however I cant afford a playstation 2. %sigh% so I dont know what to get
him. Oh well... :/
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Saturday, November 23rd, 2002
10:04 am foot pain
So I have had some foot pain for like a month. It went away with a new
pair of shoes but then came back a week or so later. Came back so back
that the night before last I woke up to shooting pain in my foot. So when
the alarm went off yesterday morning I immediatly had Chris get me the
phone and I called my mom to have her try to get me an appointment at
the doctors. She actually got me one. I had to miss work for it but I
got it yesterday. So I went to my appointment and they looked at my foot
had no idea what was wrong with it and sent me for xrays. Those results
should be back next monday. grrr.. My foot hurts and they didnt do anything
about it. Told me to take 3 advil 3 times a day. No thank you. Im sorry
but if it hurts to walk a certain way I should be feeling that, cause
it probly means theres something wrong and I need to not walk on it. Anyway
blah, my foot hurts.
Wednesday, November 20th, 2002
9:36 am hmmm...
So last night Chris got a phone call from his mom. She had bad news for
him. His Great Aunt Odeen had died. The conversation turned to happy things
so by the time he got off the phone he wasnt really upset about it or
anything. He actually seems like hes not upset at all. Which he told me
that he dont think its really hit him yet because she has always lived
so far away from him. I know hes going to miss her though. because she
was one of the people that he always talked about wanting me to meet.
talked about her like he liked her alot. Seemed to me like she was one
of his favorit people. So I know when it hits him it will probly hurt.
I just hope I can be there for him. He was so wonderful to me when I found
out about my great aunt passing away. Now his has and there is the chance
that it will not hit him till when he goes home to see his family for
thanksgiving. In which case I will not be there for him. That saddens
me a great deal. :/
Monday, November 18th, 2002
6:47 am too early
you know I hate getting up at 530 in the morning. But it makes it so worth
it when I walk into a class of 18 kids and teach them something cool.
Todays lesson... how airplanes fly. I'm all excited about it. :) And when
I get out of that class I "get" to work on a paper for my archeology
class. What fun.... grrr.. Really sucks. My great aunt passed away and
the funeral ended up being on the day of a test. well the test already
had a makeup assignment for anyone that wanted to take it. so I went to
the funeral. Turns out the test is a project proposal which we never were
told how to do and its supposed to be like 7 pages long. This to make
up a 50 question multiple choice test. grrrr....
Friday, November 15th, 2002
5:01 pm rough day :/
So Im currently working at the salvation army. My job is a garden club
leader. We were just able to start working in the garden because it had
been vandalized and had to be fixed.So today was our first day. The kids
involved are mostly preschool age. and they are wild. Every five seconds
I was yelling to get off of this pile or that pile and telling people
not to throw dirt and many many other things. It was hectic. And I had
to help turn the dirt which ment getting down on my hands and knees to
do so, which was killer on my back. and we had to wet the dirt to be able
to get it to move at all. so the kids got dirty and as anyone who has
ever worked with kids knows you therefor get dirty by assosiation. So
as soon as I got home I ran to the shower. I'm very tired still though.
Twas way too long a day for me.
Tuesday, November 12th, 2002
8:07 am AK! scary man outside my door.
Heres the story, as told by Chris. Frightened the hell out of me.
"(A story is about to ensue. It has a happy and humorous ending,
just so you know.) This morning at 6, Dottie tapped me awake and, with
a frightened face, told me she had heard our doorknob being rattled. This
scared me. I got up and checked the apartment just to be sure there was
no one inside; then we turned on the porch light and looked outside, and
I looked out the other windows. I saw a man in a green jacket going from
door to door, stopping at each one and then moving on. We were worried
that someone was trying to find an unlocked apartment to break into, so
we called the police and gave them a description. After lying around and
talking about it for a bit, Dottie had the realization that it could have
been someone leaving an advertisement on our doorknob. I looked out the
window, and indeed there were some things hanging from the knob. So that's
undoubtedly what it was. I'm still glad we called the police on him, though,
because no soliciting is allowed in the complex, and no one should be
scaring people at 6 A.M., so maybe this will teach whoever it is a lesson.
Well, that's our adventure for today. Join us next time--same Chris and
Dottie time, same Chris and Dottie channel."
I would feel stupid for the mistake if it hadnt scared me so much as
it happened. I was laying there practically petrified when I heard it.
Anyway thats todays highlights. And I am trying to get better at updating
this thing.
Thursday, October 31st, 2002
7:22 pm The Internet is mine!!!!
I have now got the net at home again. WHAHOOO!!!! %happy dance% hmmm...
what else is new?
My great aunt Betty passed away since last I wrote. She was a sweet soul.
I miss her.
My brother has decided to organize a student organization. I'm helping.
:)
And for the first time in my college experiance pre registration time
is here and rather than change my major I atually preregistered. Im so
proud of me. Thouh it felt kinda wierd. heeheehee.
Anyway I need to get back to drying dishes so we can make dinner.
Thursday, October 17th, 2002
10:52 am imagine an update on me in my journal. %gasp%
So I am currently trying to figure out next semesters schedual. And I
have a bunch of assignments to do. And I have to get stuff together for
my application to the education program. So Im feeling a little bit stressed
right now. AK! But I'll be ok. In the fun stuff catagory I'm going to
take my mom to the ballet for her birthday. It was the 15th but the ballet
is not untill the 27th. But it will be fun I hope and it will be the first
time my mom got anything like that for her birthday I think. Most years
we maybe treat her to dinner or maybe buy her nice things but not anything
that brings entertainment really. So I really hope this will be good.
Anyway back to my scaedual making.
toodles
Sunday, September 29th, 2002
3:24 pm update on me
So here I am finally posting again. Been a while and lots has hapened.
But its hard to keep up with a online journal when yu dont have the net
at home. Lets see.. I am moved in with Chris and happy as could be. I
love him to pieces. He treats me so incredible. %sigh% That part of my
life is so great. :) About a week ago I started a pity trip about having
no friends. Which I have lots of its just my best friend is mad at me
and the friendship looks like its not going to be salvaged considering
she never did write me back again. So my month of being upset about that
ended with feeling like I had no friends. But I do. I have a whole lot
of friends. Some that would do anything for me. So life is still good.
Though I miss her terribly. As for school I feel rather behind on some
things but its going good too. Im doing a class where I go to a school
and teach kids physics concepts. and I have started my education classes.
and Im taking a history class. First one that has made me think this much.
Its all about the indigionous people of America and how the land was taken
from them and how religion was the basis of the theft. Its very interesting.
Oh and Im taking an archiology class too. my easy to forget class. And
sometimes I do... fortunatly not on test days. Oh and I have a new job.
Its going really good. I work with these two great people that give me
a ride to work every day, well every day we go (Fridays only) but still
its so great. Anyway Im working at the salvation army. Doing a afterschool
program for kids. Its a pretty cool thing. Well I need to be off now.
Going home to make me a nice happy dinner with my nice happy man.
BYE BYE now
(Comment on this)
Saturday, August 10th, 2002
10:44 am moving day
today is the big day. Chris returns later. I sign my lease. and Im moving
most of my stuff. The rest of it tomarrow. So I will only be posting from
School now. So till then bye bye.
Friday, August 2nd, 2002
2:26 pm Not long left....
so much to do.. I still have packing to do. I work tomarrow and the next
day. get to go fishing monday. :) yeah! Then hopefully get all my packing
finished or darn close to it on tuesday. because then I work wednesday
thursday and friday. and the next day Im going to sign the lease for my
new place and begin moving stuff. Chris will be back that day. We're going
to stay at my parents place till monday when the bed is being delivered.
So we should have everything all moved down there on Saturday and Sunday
and be able to unpack it all on monday. so cool! heeheehee. 8 days till
Chris gets back and they are all going to be full of doing stuff. It will
probably fly by. :) Im hoping anyway. I finally got my scedual all fixed
for school. Which is good because it makes it harder to figure out if
you dont have a computer with net connection to work with. And when I
move I will no longer have the net. %sigh% It will be missed. However
I can still connect at school and will probly update here about as often
as I do now. :) Anyway thats pretty much my update for now. I need to
get busy.
toodles, all!
Friday, July 19th, 2002
8:26 pm %gasp% thats right Im actually updating. ;)
Sorry for not updating more often. I'm just not doing all the computer
stuff I used to.
Anyway Updates on topics from the last post... My job ended. I miss it.
They were so nice. Even gave me a really nice ASU t-shirt the last day.
I bought a bed. Was queen size. Also took back the comforter. Got a differant
one. The night before I had asked Chris was colors he prefered. He said
just not pink and yellow. Well guess what they had... %sigh% I bought
it because they were on sale for really cheep and he likes that too. So
I figured I could always take it back again if he wanted me to or if I
found a better one. I was just so tired of dealling with it all though.
Anyway then my mom went shopping online and found the same pattern I had
before in the queen size, so she bought it for us. Was great. So then
I took the other one back again. blah.. but thats done now. I think all
I really have to do at this point is worry about finishing packing. I
arranged the electic and gas to be turned on. Put Chris in charge of checking
on the water and phone stuff. Its just phone calls so I figure he can
manage that from CA.
So I got to go see him again. We had a lot of fun. First night the three
of us (my brother, Chris and myself) went to Chris' grandparents house
for dinner. Next day we went to the beach. It was so nice. and then we
went to lunch at this little Italian place. And then Chris and I rode
the ferris wheel. we were at Balboa Island. Anyway it scared the crap
put of me. I was holding on for dear life. And no it wasnt a big one,
it was a very very small one. I'm just scared of heights. Anyway then
we all went to a resturant to get something to drink. Then dropped my
brother at the hotel and went to Chris' dad's house for dinner. Had a
very very good chicken salad. The next day we went to hollywood. Saw the
star walk. And then to the dodgers Diamondbacks game. The Diamondbacks
won! heeheehee. Yeah!! Then on the way home we sorta ran into a wall on
the freeway. Then we pulled off the freeway into east LA somewhere. Supposedly
it is a bad neighborhood. It reminded me of home. There didnt look to
be any damage to the car. Chris was shaking but said he wanted to drive
the rest of the way. So we went back to the hotel. Next day he and I went
for a swim and then we all went to Ralph's for subs. Then my brother and
I were on our way home. %sniff% I miss Chris. But he'll be back here soon.
On the 10th. Which is getting closer and closer and I still have so much
packing to do. Anyway thats all for now. Im off to look at pics from our
trip. just got em back.
Wednesday, June 26th, 2002
6:41 pm Why I'm tired...
So I got back from my CA trip and had a day of rest before I started my
new job. Im working with kids. Its a summer program where Im taking them
between class and lunch and back to class. I've also been able to work
in the classrooms with them some. There was a little bit of horsing around
where I had a time regaining control, but now my group are like little
angels. They're a nice group of kids just a little goofy at times. I'm
going to miss them when the program is over. It ends Friday. %sniff% I've
had to climb stairs what feels like a billion times a day. And today might
have actually been that many. I did so much running around. And its hot.
The sweat poors off of me when Im standing still even. And sometimes I
get so hot I feel cold. And on top of that I've been running around for
things for my new apartment. Found out when we were going to get it and
gave the rest of the deposit on Monday morning. I have been bed shopping
latly too. Found a nice king size bed for $515, or so they told me. Then
today I was all ready to buy it since she had told me that was the out
the door delivery tax everything price, and then she added about $200
as we went to the register because a kings size bed needs two box springs.
But she gave me the final price of it the other day as $515. So I got
rather upset. Especially considering I already bought the blankets. Im
going to have to take them back and get queen size now. I really grew
to like that pattern they had too. It was pretty. I'm going back to CA
again in just a couple weeks. I'm so excited about seeing Chris again.
I miss him so much. My brother is taking me this time. Its going to be
great, we're going site seeing and we're going to a dodgers diamondbacks
game. ANyway Im sure theres more but Im exhausted so I dont know what
it is. :)
Sunday, June 9th, 2002
3:13 pm good times...
So last Monday I woke up before the sun, and loaded my stuff in the car.
My mom took me to the greyhound stop before she went to work. Thats where
my adventures first began. I got there an hour early because the tickets
were first come first serve. Meaning that if you were at the end of the
line or if the bus was already full when it got there you were out of
luck and had to wait for the next bus. So I arived and got my the checked
luggage tags for my bags. Then I went to the bathroom (nasty %twitch%
nasty), told my mom good bye and stood in line. There was this older couple
that came up right behind me in line. Ended up befriending me. They were
going home to Anaheim which is where I was headed. So we were talking
about weather and such at first. And the differances in the areas. I had
never been to Anaheim so it was mostly them telling me how differant it
was. So the bus finally came. The first probly 6 people in line were let
out the door. If it was not for the couple behind me I probly would have
paniced at that point. After about 5 minutes or so the door opened again
and another 5 people were let on. Ending with the couple just behind me.
We got on the bus. Had to sit seperatly. Even the coupld was split up.
Then within minutes the bus was pulling out with people looking out the
window in the door in dismay because they were being left. Im so glad
I made that bus.
So we were off. On a bus that was packed full. And there were so many
little kids. And all of them were whiny. %sigh% But I was lucky enough
to sit next to a very quiet nice looking woman. So we were on our way
for a very long trip. About half way through the drinksI had had earlier
began to get to me. So I figured I would take advantage of the bathroom
on board. %twitch% Dont ever make that mistake. %twitch% We finally stopped
in Blythe (think that is the spelling) Its a town near the Arizona California
boarder. Anyway we stopped by several resturants. One of which was Mcdonalds.
So I went zooming in to order before the crowd. Got me a fish sandwitch
and fries. Then was about to go to the bathroom while waiting on my food
and I ran into the old couple. We talked for just a second before they
got in line and I went to pee. I needed to wash off that nasty nasty bus
bathroom experiance. So I came out got my food and sat at a large enough
table for the old couple too. They came over and sat with me and we talked
some more about CA and such. They we got back on the bus and there were
a few other stops. They would always get off the bus for a smoke and invite
me to come out and talk to them. As we started getting into CA more and
more the woman next to me came alive. She had been on the bus since Texas.
She was a librarian that had gone to her grandaughter's graduation. So
she told me about all kinds of differant places we were passing through.
and when we were in a town she would point out the libraries and tell
me some stuff about them all. Its was rather neat. Anyway she got off
a few cities before I did. My ride was supposed to be the same bus straight
through to Anaheim. But when we got to San Bernadino they decided to switch
us to another bus. They swore to the couple and me that our luggage was
on the other bus. I went and peaked to check for mine. It was there. So
we got on and continued our trip. Changing buses would have taken a lot
of time off the trip but instead it only took about 30 minutes off because
the driver got lost. Even I recognized the trip as having a lot of circles.
Anyway thank goodness for cell phones because Chris called just before
the driver asked if anyone knew how to get to the terminal. So I got directions
from Chris and we drove straight over there. I had already called Chris
and told him we would likly be early, when I thought the driver knew where
he was going, so he was there waiting on me.
It was so good to see him. %sigh% Anyway I introduced him to the couple
I had traveled with. And then we all got our lugage. Except there luggage
was not all there. Fortuantaly the other bus was still coming to Anaheim.
But it was running late and had been too crowded. So they had to wait
around there for the other bus. I felt bad for them. All they wanted was
to get home. Chris and I loaded my stuff in his car and then went to his
house. His dad was kind enough to let me stay there. :)
So he made me corned beef hash for dinner. I was hoping I would like it
because he spoke so well of it. but.. eeeee... It was a bit soggy for
my taste. The next day we went to the beach. Got burnt. ouch. but it was
so fun. I had never been before. I hope all my pictures come out. I even
took pictures of the sand. :) It was beautiful. that night we went to
his grandparents house for dinner. he had got his grandfather to make
chili and his grandmother to make cheese cake. Chris loves those two things.
His grandfathers chili tastes much like my grandmothers veggitable soup.
a little bit spicier and it had a few beans. but it was pretty much her
veggie soup. was very very good though. had 3 bowls. :) heeheehee. anyway
the cheesecake was delicious. and his grandmother had gotten strawberrys
and ololaberryies to make sauces out of for the cheesecake. they were
so good. Most people have neverheard of ololaberries. I hadnt. but they
are great. anyway we also went shopping for new clothes for him. and we
had a dinner at his moms house. yummy mushroom ravioli. and we went berry
hunting. looking for the ololiberry at every fruit stand and market in
town. never found any. but we ended up with strawberries blackberries
and raspberries. Also got a couple fresh tomatos and lemons. and we went
to lunch Thursday at what he reffered to as the best sandwitch shop in
the world. A little hole in the wall place called Ralphs. They were delicious
and huge. took half of them home to take on a picknic the next day. Also
took our fruit on the picknic. Went to this nice park with a lake and
a little stream. And Thursday night was his old high schools drama banquet.
so we went with his younger brother Eric to that. I got to meet a bunch
of Chris' friends. They were cool. And then Friday night he took me to
this totally romantic Italian place. It had the whole candlelite dining
experiance going on. it was great. and the food was teriffic. We had stopped
at a restuant called polly's earlier and got a ololiberry pie. since we
couldnt find just the berries. so we had that for dessert when we got
back to Chris'. We talked with his dad and step mom for a while. His dad
said I was welcome to come back any time. :) Im thinking early July. :)
Next morning we had hashbrowns and pie for breakfast. ran out of eggs.
Did I mention Chris makes excellent fried eggs? so good. mm...
So I hadto pack and leave that morning. :( Got to the terminal an hour
early. ended up taking a differant bus due to overflow than what I was
supposed to take. transfered at san bernidino like planed but ended up
on a differant bus than what I was supposed to take because of overcrowding.
Im just glad I never had to wait on the next scedualed bus. the first
one was a local greyhound that took the overflow. the second one was a
bus going to texas that stopped in phoenix because it had all the phoenix
overflow. rediculous. but it was not a bad experiance. instead of having
an hour lunch and few bathroom breaks the driver took 30 minutes for lunch
and we got quite a few bathroom breaks. anyway about 15-20 minutes late
I was home. My dog Jimi just bounced off the walls when he saw me. so
excited for me to be home. :) Feals alright to be home. But I miss Chris.
:/
Saturday, May 25th, 2002
9:24 pm %sigh%
So I just got off the phone with Chris. Seems every time I hang up I start
to cry. I hate being apart from him. I get to see him a week from monday
though. Bought my bus ticket today. feels like such a long time still.
but the good news is instead of thinking of how long its been since I
saw him I am now thinking how long it will be till I see him again. Dont
seem like I can fill my days with enough stuff to keep from thinking of
him constantly. Which I feel kinda bad about when Im talking to a lot
of people. Cause I tend to zone out in my thoughts. Cant help it really.
Speaking of zoning out the other day was really bad. I couldnt hardly
think at all. But no wonder, I found out a few bad things were going on
with my family. My aunt terri has a tumor in her womb the size of a two
month old fetus. The doctor gave her pills to bleed it out I guess. Dont
seem much like that would work to me. But hopefully it will. He told her
not to worry about it. Im extreamly worried about her though. Cant help
it. You worry about those you love. And then there is my other aunt. There
is a lot to the story and I doubt what I have been told is all true. So
all I will say on here is I feel bad for my cousins. And from what I have
been told they have changed there behavoir recently. Espeacially the younger
one. She used to be the sweetest little girl in the world. And apparently
in our other cousins words she is dressing slutty and just isnt like herself.
Again nothing I can do for the situation but worry. Which does nothing.
But like the other situation you worry about those you love. %sigh%
On a brighter note I got a job interview coming up Thursday. Really hoping
to get the position. :)
anyway Im going to wonder off and pretend to watch a movie while I think
about Chris some more.
%waves%
Friday, May 24th, 2002
10:46 pm my first journal entry.... %cheesy grin%
So I just got off the phone with Chris, who is my boyfriend, absolutly
the most wonderful guy in the world. heeheehee. Been talking to him on
the phone every night since the 9th of May, which really ain't that long
ago but it seems like forever to me. I feel like I haven't seen him in
a year, but its only been a couple weeks. Anyway... I met him on January
24th of 2002. Special day to me. :) Since then we've gotten very close
very fast. Moving in together in August when he gets back for school.
Most people we know are totally against this because we made that decision
so quickly. But hey they just have to learn to live with it. :)
So currently I'm trying to figure out a trip to CA to see Chris. Been
trying to decide whether to take a plane or a bus. Planes scare me. It
aint natural for man to fly. plus airlines loose your bags. and Im afraid
I may get sick. and its more expencive than the bus. However the bus takes
over 8 hours to get to CA. So Im thinking about the plane even with so
many disadvantages it has. I want to spend as much time as I can with
Chris. But I think the bus is going to have to do for me cause its cheeper.
Anyway on my trip Im going to meet his family and some of his friends
from high school. Have to admit Im a little nervous. I even bought a new
robe for my trip. But then I got to thinking a long black silky robe might
not be the best thing to take. So I may take my old green cotton one.
Even though I spent $70 on the new one. Thing is though is his dad is
one of the people that dont like the idea of me moving in with Chris,
and he is being nice enough to let me stay at his house while I am in
CA. So I dont want to wear something that seems sluty or something like
that. I want his dad to like me. So I figure I'll save the new robe for
August. Im sure Chris will like it. Just wish I would have realized it
was a bad idea before I bought it because I probly could have found it
for cheeper if I had waited.
I hope his family and friends like me. I have talked to his sister on
the phone a few times. Shes a very sweet little girl. She seems to like
me alright. But I just worry because I want so badly for them to all like
me.
Im tired now so you'll get further introduced to me when I get some more
time.
toodles dear readers. lol. %waves%
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