Love at First Type

slider2 How did I meet sherry...lets see....a year ago I had already been online for a few months but not on the internet but for about a month. I was already used to online romances as I had been in a couple, as I was in one when I meet my beloved sherry. Things weren't working so well with my online girl and sherry was just a nice pleasant person I meet one day in alamak. I don't remember my first post to her but it was most likely a hi or something simple like that.

sherry I started really getting into this chat thing and had to decide what nick to stay with. I never liked really long nicks with caps but messaged all that messaged me. I used sherry one day and had a nice time with it and just really liked the nick so it was the one I stuck with. hmmm... what about the nick slider2? Well, it was all lower case letters but that darn number!! grrr.. but I soon got use to typing it. *smiles* I am a player up top and could get slider2 to participate once in awhile.

slider2 We seemed to hit it off right away but as we talked I learned she was involved and I backed away a bit. As we talked that first day I found out that I had talked to her daughter just the day before...I liked her nick and she talked of her mom (dead give away that she was only 15) You might ask why I messaged sherry to begin with..well the reason is simple...I hate caps and her nick is sherry, all small letters, plus I love the name sherry so I had to message her. I real am not a people person, more a one on one type so when I met sherry on alamak it was nice to know we could just talk and didn't have to worry about above the line(the public board)

sherry I remember one day I came in to chat and slider2 was so excited. He told me that he had been talking to someone and they seemed to hit it off. I was happy for him because if anyone deserves happiness it was him. I would ask him of his new cyberluv always when I seen him.

slider2 As the days pasted I seemed to find myself looking for sherry every time I went on the chat. Not really knowing why just that we had so much fun together that I felt so close to her. Our conversations were short at first but day by day they would grow longer and longer till hours would pass before we were done chatting. I felt such a strong attraction to her.

sherry I was having fun talking to everyone and meeting so many but always looked for regulars and slider2 was one of them for we always had such a fun time together. We would make each other laugh so hard.

slider2 All the while I was still in this relationship with another that I knew wasn't going to work I felt torn. Should I stay with a love I knew wasn't to be or allow myself to fall for sherry, which was happening anyway, but I thought with her it would never come to be either as she was spoken for..

sherry One incident really stands out in my mind is one time the moment I signed on chat I got a message from slider2, "hang on, been looking for you all night." *smiles* That message really touched me. Couldn't believe he was looking for me. Well, he summons me to a private room. He had become a operator. I was so surprised and excited for him. I asked him all kinds of questions and we were laughing as he didn't know how to do some of them and was asking his daughter.

slider2 sherry and I were growing closer and closer. Always looking for one another as soon as we got on the computer and when we did meet up we were talking for hours it seems. honey, it was hours. Totally ignoring our surrounding, if my home fell down around me I wouldn't know as I was so taken by chatting with sherry. Then as we had found alamak so were so many others and it was becoming harder and harder to get into the chat as free users were restricted to so many. So I decided to become an operator. Just a fancy name from someone who pays to chat but it allowed me to go in anytime no matter how full it was. Well, who do you think I went looking for as soon as I got in as an op...sherry of course. I couldn't wait to tell her the news. She was so excited for me...as was I..the ability to create private rooms was nice and kicking people off(what power I had,yeah right)

sherry It was neat knowing a operator. I would try not to bother slider2 and his cyber girl when they were in private but I would ask him to make me and a new found friend a room. Not knowing it wouldn't stay up if he left. slider2 tried a few times to make a private room for me but it wouldn't work. I remember one time in particular when he made a room and the guy and I was waiting for slider2 to leave and he stayed to keep telling me stuff. It was so funny!!! He would say ohhhh, one more thing sherry then I will leave. Well, the guy I was with finally got mad and he left!!

slider2 Still I was involved with another though and used my abilties for her and I to be in private rooms together. Most times ending in fighting. Guess this other and I were not meant to be but sometimes sherry and I would go private(sneak in private)just to talk to each other. I think it was those times that we really allowed ourselves to be truely open with each other.

sherry We would talk about everything and anything. This guy was really becoming special to me and I wanted him to know it and I told him. There it was out in the open. I also knew I wanted him to know everything and proceeded to write him a longgggg message while we were in private. But it took to long and threw me and the message out on the doorstep. I was soooo embarrassed and signed off. I emailed someone else to tell him what happened. It was so sweet he emailed me. Honey, it is ok come back as someone else no one will know. I may not been under sherry at the time for I had not become a operator yet.

slider2 I had this feeling of love for her but was afaid of saying anything as I didnt want to ruin the friendship we had been sharing. Well this lasted for about a week I think the going private and one time when we were getting ready to leave, if my memory serves me right I think she said to me that she was starting to fall in love with me. I was so surprised that she had the same feelings for me that I was having for her. I am sure it was late May or really early June of 96 that this took place. I was so happy that finally my true feeling were out in the open.

sherryslider2 was becoming special to me and so I just told him. He felt the same but now we were really confused for he didn't want to hurt the one he was with and I knew my whole future would be change if we would ever be together.

slider2 Now that brings us to the other person in my online affairs. I really didn't dislike her I liked her but wasn't in love with her as I thought and I didn't know how to let her down, not good at that sort of stuff. So sherry and I keep meeting in secret and I tryed to hide it from another. That didn't work either....we were busted one night and well it wasn't pretty...online arguement big time....let me take this time to send my heart felt apology to her. I really guess I should have said something sooner to her and not let it run the course that it did. I am truly, truly sorry...if you ever visit this page please know I wish you the very best life has to offer.

sherry slider2 was confused and had to make a decission for he wasn't happy with his online relationship with his girl. He told me that he felt though that it would be the better decision since I was committed. My world crumbled. I wrote him a final email letter telling him I had to leave chat and I wouldn't contact him again. And signed it *crying in Illinios* I took long walks by myself. crying, thinking, wondering, hoping, .. dreaming. I wanted to do something for myself and show I could survive though hurting. On June 6, 1996 sherry became a operator!

I did something dumb and lost the second part of our story. I don't know now when I can get slider2 to rewrite it. *big heavy sighs* I have looked all over to see if it is saved anywhere to no avail.

Update!! October 28, 1997 - I guess I whined and pouted enough slider2 sat down and typed the second part again. He saids it isn't as good as the original but I don't care for I just want to go on with our story. But I think it is as good if not better!!!