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May 26,2005 (10:33 p.m.)- What the fuck?.....
Does anyone have any idea why the hell Daniel updated? Just curious....
Never underestimate the power of illusion.
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Wednesday, 11/19/03 (5:15 p.m.)- I can't go back cuz now I know how it feels to open up and breathe.
You can feel something in the air on a couple select days of the year. Like the planets are aligned or something. Some dramatic change is on the tip of destiny's toungue. Once the change happens, you dont know what exactly changed, but now you don't care. That's all you notice. Luckily, uncertainty rears it's head and leaves you thinking that there's always more going on than our senses can percieve... Feel lucky that we still have a lot to realize. The site's over with. No more updates. Thanks to those who read this site. Thank you for still caring. It's time for change, though. Good luck, everyone. Peace, Love, and Happiness -Jared
11/19/03 Meg:
And, with that, another chapter in the book ends.
11/20/03 *:
Hmm..the end of an era? It was good reading, while it lasted. Kinda
sad though, it was the only way I really got to keep up with you and Daniel
after a while. Oh well. :)
See ya around, Jared.
Love,
Amelia
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Sunday, 9/7/03 (1:32 a.m.)- They attack, I'll bring 'em down. I'll make their chances super low.
Shit, so what's happened. School started, duh, and it sucks, duh, and the people have gotten dumber, duh. Aside from that there's not much left to say. I've been working too damn much and there isn't much I can do to work less. I might have to quit if they don't work me less hours. I've started to actually save money so when this whole job thing is over with I can think to myself "yeah, I guess all that bullshit was worth it".
Lollapalooza was the most significant part of summer next to Europe. Rome was positively lovely by the way... aside from all the lying greedy shit faces that inhabit almost all the streets in that city. People there were on average terriable people that I hated to be around, but I'm not passing judgement or anything.... Definatley leave America every chance you get, though. That's all I can really say about my travels.
So the concert: it was quite and experience being there and quite a trama to my ass getting there. Jurassic 5 was the first GOOD group to play on the main stage. They got everyone groving to there shit and throwing their hands up in the air whenever they wanted. A Perfect Circle was next. This mysterious band lived up to it's reputation. They played a few new songs which were, of course, awesome. Turns out Maynard does wear a wig. During sunset was Incubus. This was my third time seeing them in concert, and I could really tell how far they've come over the years. Everyone was talking about how blown away they were by the Incubus preformance. New songs sound promising. Next was Audioslave. Three quarters of Rage is probably the most I'll ever see live, but Chris Cornell made up incredibly for Zacks absense. They sound better live than recorded... by far. Jane's Addiction was the last to take the stage, probably because of their veteran status in the rock world. They didn't have as much energy as I was hoping for, but they played almost all excellent songs. The show closed with Jose and Brandon from Incubus playing Jane Says with Jane's Addiction. It was an awesome way to end the night. Definatley one of the best days of my life.
I guess I had more to say than I thought. How incredibly fucking lucky are you?
10/20/03 man:
so what's going on in your world of two
11/8/03 woman:
any new developments in your mind
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Thursday, 8-7-03 (11:35 a.m)- With her soft lips and sharp teeth just barely touching my neck, I lied there in ecstacy... waiting...
At an internet cafe in Vienna, Austria. Waiting for the next train to some small town with a German name I can't pronounce. My dad hasn't driven me insane yet. I have music and books to keep my brain from bitching at me. Vienna's nice, but not exactly incredible. I'm not much of a city guy i guess. I look forward to the small towns. So far I've spent most of time walking around. I've been much to tired for comfort. Vienna has quite a few beautiful women. More so than California for sure. I have only really gone out my own once. Within about an hour I found myself lacking 2 euros for my bar tab.. almost got myself in trouble with Europians already.
I was suprised to find out how many people here speak english. Almost makes it too easy for me. I simply can't speak German no matter how hard I try though. Italian seems possible for me though. I look forward to my last three days in Rome more than anything.
Leaving my typical suburbian atmosphere teaches me one thing above all else every time I do it. I have way too much to learn. At times I feel like I've learned so much and can think of myself as a smart person, but I'm really not in so many ways. There's so much shit that people there fifties haven't had time to learn. I can't honestly think I know 1% of what there is to know at age 16. By leaving and trying to experience different types of culture for years and years you can begin to understand our planet, that's my weak point in knowlege. By simply thinking and observing the "simple" things around you for years and years you begin to understand part of the bigger picture (for lack of a better term). After that you still people and other life to try and understand. Not to mention what's physically beyond this planet and bladdy bladdy blah. Point is you can NEVER think you understand everything and not for many many years of life and expeiences can you even begin to think that you understand most of it. Maybe I'm wrong about this, but if I am it's because im underexagerating. I think I'll spend the rest of this trip trying to get annoyed less easily and act like more of a sponge, because I don't come to Europe often.
7/7/03 brendan:
go into a store and steal the stickers off the fruit. i collect, and
i've never been to europe.
p.s. beat the heatwave
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Monday, 7/7/03 (1:20 a.m.)- I have about two years of childhood and I'm wasting them growing up.
I feel as if a lot has changed recently. More than usual. I've become more responsible, in a non-egotistical way. I've learned to deal with shit that you don't like doing. I guess in that way I've become less lazy, but I bitch up a storm about it to make up for the bullshit I have to go through. I got a job at Safeway. The pay is okay, but not enough for most spoiled marin kids to bust their asses for. I really have sacrificed a lot for that job, commiting 45 hours a week to it (including the 4th of july [not like I'm some damn patriot anyway] which I got payed no more than regular wage for). On top of that, Ive been forced into community service much before I actually HAD to do it. It's truly sucked and I haven't been enjoying myself recently, but I'm sure this will all be good for me in the end.
With my first paycheck I bought a didgeridoo. That was 90 dollars well spent in my opinion.
In between responsibility and tranquility I've sort of decided that trying to come up with ideas for WHY and how things ultimatley work would put me in a good position to decide where I'd like to end up with this life. If I can figure it all out well enough, all that shit that I want to do that I can't do/am not doing won't matter all that much. If I'm lucky, semi-enlightenment (for lack of a better term) will just make my goals more obvious and easy to me. I've also been trying to get myself to read Dracula, because it seems like an awesome book.
Music and certain people require more of my attention. I want to give it to them but I just can't make myself do it in the way I want. Maybe that's a good thing.
At this rate of how things seem to be evolving for me I can put myself in a pretty good position by next... oh say December or so. I'm still lacking a couple of things I need to... I dunno, prepare myself for the world more. All I know is that Junior year is going to go in a VERY different direction. So much has already changed and so much more is guarinteed to. I just have to watch my step...
7/8/03 Meg:
E-mail broken. Letter to come soon. Lo siento.
7/16/03 Meg:
E-mail still down. Money spent on a didgeridoo is well-spent cash.
And do volunteer at the library!
7/20/03 amelia:
NO. Whatever you do, do NOT volunteer at the library. Daniel can
vouch for me. MIND NUMBING. DON'T DO IT.
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Sunday, 6/8/03 (9:04 p.m.)- 40 ounces to freedom... So I take that walk and I know I'm not going back.
Summertime is close.. okay, so what do I do? I could have had a hundred answers to that question a couple months ago but now I have no idea. Italy, my license and a job is all I can hope for, but I can't guarentee it. I better start thinking of ideas...
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Monday, 5/26/03 (5:12 p.m.)- Tomorrow we're gonna worry about what pants to wear.
Sometimes you get angry for a lot of dumb reasons. Sometimes you feel like telling the world to fuck itself when it's just the people who piss you off. I feel under-appretiated, but I don't think I'll bore you people with that. I think the point has finally come in my life when I realize that hardly anyone is going to help you more than they'll discourage you. If you need something done, do it yourself. No one's really worth shit anymore, and if they are they'll just turn their back on you when you need it most because EVERYONE CARES ABOUT THEMSELVES MORE THAN YOU. That's not so wrong though. It's just wrong to try and make anyone believe otherwise.
Adam quit the band. There's no more Sub-Herbs, especially after Daniel leaves. I think we might try and continue a band of some sorts, but it's just so hard to start all over again and again, especially when we actually accomplished something this time. This is not the only reason why I think you can't expect much from people, just one of them. He hasn't told us any reaon why he left and won't confront us about or come out of his house because "he's sleeping" at 3 in the afternoon. That kid is so full of shit sometimes, you have no idea. He could use some therapy in my opinion.
So I had a little party this last Saturday night. It was fun. I can't see myself ever doing that again, but I'm glad I did. Too many people didn't appretiate it or live up to their words, but I can't say no one did. All in all, it was a fun fun time.
I don't write this shit for anyone, because no one really reads it anymore, but it does help me organize my thoughts. The whole principal of having a journal online defeats the purpose I guess, but luckily for me, I don't give a shit. I also don't give too much of a shit that I don't really have much to live for anymore, so in other words I'm not depressed about life being shit. Guess I'm used to it. I have no girl, I have a shell of a band, I have no job, I have no good grades, I have no future, I can't smoke weed, I have few friends, I have no hobby's, I have no good looks and at the moment, I have no love for life or people or hardly anything around me. For the first time, though, I'm not bitching. I'm just dealing with it and hoping, waiting and looking for something good to come way. I just wish I still had at least one thing to put my efforts into aside from playing bass outside of a band, which I doubt I'll ever get very good at. At least I have Lollapalooza to look forward to.
I'm really trying not to be negative, I'm just looking at the facts and trying to figure out what I'm going to do with my life. I realized a while ago that no matter what I do, It's all about the love, and with love I can be happy. Like I said, I don't really even have that right now, but I can always look forward to the possibility of finding some, I don't care where I find it.
5/26/03 Midget:
well thats good that your finaly comming to terms with your problems.
Im still in the stage of anger and bitchyness. See you when i get there
5/26/03 Moi:
know I'll see you again
Whether far or soon
But I need you to know, that I care
And I miss you.
5/27/03 nevil:
life always turns itself around no matter how bad it gets sometimes.
for the bad, there will always be a good, and vise versa. it will even itself
out and all will be okay. its a fact of life, God did not put you here for no
reason.
5/28/03 san antonio spurs:
What about the mentally 'challenged'? Sadly, they aren't really able
to contribute much to life. And no, I don't have anything against them.
5/31/03 jared:
true, but they're usually happy all the time despite that.
6/1/03 Asya:
Who says you haven't got the looks?
=)~
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Monday, 5/12/03 (9:31 p.m.)- What's the use of autonomy when a button does it all?
The human brain functions off of chemicals sloshing around in your skull. Don't bother letting yourself get the better of you.
5/14/03 *:
Phew...Lookin good, Jared.
5/22/03 sss:
Isnt this the entry that i responded to daniel? I could have sworn
this was the one i was laughing at.
5/24/03 Daniel:
All comments go to the same page so I have to guess which update they are for. It's just simple java script, if I made a comments system that went knew which update it was for, it would take some other complicated script that won't work on geocities and I'm too lazy to learn how to do anyway.
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Sunday, 5/4/03 (7:26 p.m.) - Here's the scenario.
So I had a decent weekend for the first time in a while, that's my motivation for updating.
First off, Lollapalooza is on August 19th this year at the Shoreline Ampitheatre. This year the bands are Audioslave, Jane's Addiction, Incubus, Jurassic 5 and a Perfect Circle. If you have good taste in music, you won't want to miss it.
Friday, a party. That's pretty self explanitory I think. Met a lot of people. Had a good good time. Saturday, didn't do much early in the day. Later that night Geoff's got good news for me. I saved 10 dollars at his and did the usual. Burto is awesome.
Today we had practice as usual but Adam came 2 fucking hours late. We had enough time to practice a few songs before we played at the marinwood rec for the yearly crowd of middle aged and drug free people. It was fun anyway. We're still waiting on a call from the Oasis.
So shit, a decent weekend for me. Kelsey is MIA. Because he can't get fucked up I guess he can't hang out with us.
I hope sss enjoys fungi.
Later.
5/19/03 sss:
thats funny. ahahaha
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Sunday, 3/30/03 (8:21 p.m.)- Feelin' real great cuz the weather is mild, So you reevaluate your personal style.
The subject says it all I guess. Shit's been different as hell recently and I feel like a changed person because of it. There was a fight, as you all know, because some kid stole my money, and i swore to myself i would never that happen again without a major retaliation. I got suspended until tuesday even though it was after school and not on campus. I won't go into details, all I will say is that people who punch when the person is unaware are scum with no shread of dignity who rarely deserve any form of respect. The scary thing is, that's probably about half of our school.
The past few nights have been enjoyable. We were fairly determined to get off our asses, so we went down to fourth street on Friday night. While we were there we dropped off our one and only demo at the Oasis with a note to the guy in charge of booking. Bad news is, they're booked until June according to their site. Oh well, we need practice anyway.
So I'm going to strive to be a peaceful man now. I have to get my shit together for the first time.
3/31/03 moby:
good job man. thats the way, make peace. if you try and keep your
cool more, you will live a productive life. i promise you that. and remember, just because our government kills innocent people, doesnt mean its okay for anyone else too.
4/28/03 narf:
doest your band suck?
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Wednesday, 2/25/03 (6:05 p.m.)- I have nothing else to say.
Top 5 Favorite Songs of All Time (in no order):
Sum of Us - Jurrasic 5
Nowhere Fast - Incubus
Wynona's Big Brown Beaver - Primus
Where is my Mind? - The Pixies
What I Got - Sublime
3/7/03 ur mommy:
whats the deal with the rap music u have been plaing at school
lately??
3/9/03 Geoff:
Rap is ok, i dont know why people cant just tolerate what other
people like.
3/10/03 neil:
rap is for black people rock is for white people
3/10/03 jeff:
i love to eat pussy and smoke blunts. they both taste wonderful.
3/12/03 josh:
the reason jared plays rap is because he is half black
3/15/03 Geoff:
Whoa ok, Now please say if you are making fun of me by putting your
name as Jeff.. Just wanna know
3/16/03 jared:
some rap is good. all kinds of music has at least some good stuff... except for country.
3/19/03 jeff:
no, im not making fun of you Geoff. i just put a random name. i dont
even know you.
3/28/03 ur mom:
tell us about the fight....
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Thursday, 2/6/03 (8:22 p.m.) - You know, the freaks can't handle it.
Before I accidently left my palm pilot in my pants and washed them, I had a list in it. It was a check list of things I felt I needed to get done as soon as possible. Here was the list:
- Get a 3.0 GPA
- Make a demo
- Get laid
- Get a job
- Go to a good concert
- Get liscense
- Find mushrooms
I figured that if I got all that done, I would be a happy person with little to complain about. Since I wrote that list I haven't really completed anything on it, no matter how badly I wanted it all. This weekend we'll complete more than half of our demo, thus putting me closer to writing a check then I've ever been.
Everyone wants one thing, and no matter how hard you try, it's impossible not to want it; happiness. I've always wondered what could be done to make virtually everyone a happy person, and there isn't just one thing. So I came up with a way to make myself happy instead.
Try and figure what you need to do to be happy. If you can figure that out then that's your purpose in life. Everyone's life needs a direction to travel in.
2/10/03 T:
and something to look forward to
2/12/03 asd:
if you kill everyone, then everyone is happy if you are the only one
left alive.
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Thursday, 1/9/03 (8:08 p.m.)- If you don't thank me, fuck yourself from the inside out.
Eh, fuck homework at the moment. I FEEL A RANT COMING ON.
Well said Tamara. Parents don't control our future, fortionetly, they just think they do. All parents will die convinced that they were right in every argument they ever had with there kids and NOTHING can tell them otherwise. When will parents pull their heads out of their asses? NEVER. I'm sorry, but we have to deal with it for a couple more years.
Am I loser compared to a coke addict who has no home, friends, job and goes weeks at a time without sleeping or eating because they're too coked out and caffinated? HELL FUCK NO. But they sure seem to think so. Fuck. It really is disapointing to see a friend become that big of a bitch to all of us practically over night. Maybe I do some shit you call lame but at least i still have my fucking brain, so FUCK YOU!
BAD KARMA. Have you experienced it? I have, almost every day of my life. WHAT THE FUCK DID I DO?!?!?! I stole some shit and lied a bit. Big fucking deal. Everyone does. So when do I get my time in the sun?
Fuck this school, man. Everyones entire life resides upon GOSSIP. Whenever two people get in an argument literally hundreds of people will watch in awe. Some day the argument will turn into a gun fight and hopefully the spectators will be first to die. Sometimes its fun to push one of your friends and count the losers who immediatly crowd around, but most the time it's just the most annoying thing I think Ive ever experienced in my entire life.
WEED DOES NOT KILL YOU NOR A SUBSTANTIAL AMMOUNT OF BRAIN CELLS. Too bad people are still going off the information they learned in 1967. The teachers were and still are full of shit when it comes to drugs. If you want facts go to www.erowid.org. Weed kills less brain cells than alcohol, so just fucking LET IT GO. Facts will continue to prove you wrong if your someone like Mr. Johnson, but shit, what do kids know. I'm Mr. Johnson will argue with "facts" he learned in bullshit 101. If you're anti-legalization then fuck you and everyone you ever loved.
That was some cold shit...
1/11/03 Daniel:
It doesn't kill brain cells at all. Merely "stimulates" them.
1/11/03 Kai:
fuck parents, fuck the government, fuck the laws. Just do what you
want and enjoy what you can.
1/17/03 larf:
Fuck the government, eh? And be overun by Commies? I think not.
The second amendment won't quite save us then.
1/17/03 asdf:
Your worried about commies? you know nothing about politics, shut the fuck up.
1/19/03 ur mom:
kai, shut the fuck up. ur retarded!!
2/6/03 ur mom's mom:
"KAI" You fucking lesbo bitch! Stop sucking the ugly out of
harrison and putting it into your vagina! Your name is Kary EAT SHIT AND DIE!
You're not artistic, you just do random shit and people say wow your artistic,
but what they mean is that your trying too hard to make an impression but when
you do it's that your incredibly stupid. can't you talk normaly or are you
permanetly stuck in that monotone ass of a voice. stop breathing, so you won't
cut yourself just to get attention no one cares!
2/10/03 Geoff:
that was the lamest attempt to flame somebody ever. You cant even
leave your name? wow your real cooool. If u dont got the ball to leave your name
then you got some fortitute problems. But if u get some balls leave a name.
2/16/03 ur mom's mom:
JEFF, the way it should be spelt. shut the fuck up dwarf. ur a
dumbass. about what i said about kari "albino" she is the most annoying fuck
ever. she is a wannabe everything. plus, she makes out with harrison, LOL!!!
nasty
2/21/03 Geoff:
Its true that some people spell the name JEFF, but if you cant
realize that there is other ways to spell shit then your a fucking retard. I
wasnt fucking standing up for her i was just saying that next time you want to
make fun of someone leave ur name faggit, Obviously i know you because you know
im short, but that wouldnt stop me from kicking your ass I i knew who u were.
Grow up, get a life, Stop making anon. comments on other peoples website. Cause
obviously your just some little kid with no nuts in your sack.
2/21/03 Geoff:
And i u want we can settle this Fist to fist any time u want... ur
call
2/25/03 sss:
geoff, you would go down like kary on harrison.
2/26/03 Geoff:
Ohh good one, I would go down. Yeah but youd learn a lesson when it
was all said and done... But I wanna end this gay shit. Whoever u are have fun
namelessly makin fun of people, cause i dont give a fuck what you do in your
life. Sure its cool to make an anon. post every once and a while. All i said in
the whole time on here was that you should just leave ur name, but not showin it
shows fear. Your AFRAID. VERY AFRAID. But peace who gives fuk
3/4/03 sss:
Im different from the first guy you idiot.
3/9/03 Geoff:
Shut the fuck up bitch, if you wanna start shit agian then fucking
try it. How the fuck am i suppost to know u used the same name bitch. DROP IT
BITCH
3/10/03 sss:
hahahaha, you need some vicadon, from your size, one would think you
couldn't have THAT many hormones especially since you probably jack off all the
time, but i guess so.
Anyway i am different from the first guy.
3/13/03 Geoff:
First of learn how to spell. Vicidon... very intelegent. Second, im
not that short anymore.
3/14/03 sss:
First of all, you learn how to spell. It's vicodin. If you are going
to correct me, do it right.
3/17/03 Geoff:
I give a fuck how anything spelled. I just wanna know who the fuck
you are. Your just a pussy cause u cant just tell me in Real LIFE Who you are
NOT INTERNET LIFE. LOOSER.
3/17/03 Geoff:
And it prolly is a good thing i dont know how to spell vicodin. Cause
i aint a fucking little opiate addict
3/18/03 sss:
I think you meant, I DON'T give a fuck. You should proofread your
comebacks dumbass. And if you don't care, why did you point it out in the first
place?
Fucking idiot.
3/19/03 sss:
OMG MY NAME IS SSS, IM A FUCKING NERD!!! BLAH!!!!!!! I HOPE THAT
NOBODY THINKS IM A NERD BEcaUSe I like TO make Internet Comments with
Anononmyous names. GRRR NEED VICODIN... GEEEE GAHHHH VICODIN GHAHHH
3/22/03 sss:
Who is the bigger nerd, a guy who makes comments, or the guy who
insults the guy who makes comments?
It is a rhetorical question dumbshit so don't bother answering.
3/19/03 Geoff:
lol mike, settle down
3/30/03 jared:
ur BOTH being pretty damn stupid
3/31/03 sss:
shit happens.
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