Hello,
I am 35 years old and even at a very young age,5,I learned about the sadness of death.
My brother passed away.
There are many of us that with never forget 9/11/01 and all that we lost then.
But,2001 is going to be a year that I will never forget. Both for 9/11 but even before that I had learned that only a higher power has control over life and death.
You see on July 4th,2001 while many people were having parties and outings with friends and family,
I was learning that I had a brain tumor that was growing at a rate that if not removed would have removed my life. I was, like many people in thier 30's the type of person that felt that what could happen to me, I'm young.
Well being told you are going to die,was an awakening that I would never wish upon anyone. I had been told over and over about the 7 phases of lose, but like everything else it was something that someone else needed to deal with.
Well, my eyes had been opened.
Yes, I had the surgery, and again developed that I am all powerful attitude again, because I was healing fast had no bad effects,I had beat the angel of death. Well, when you laugh in the face of death, sometimes he will give you an other wake up call, if you are lucky.
Well, there was 9/11 and again I learned that age and situation doesn't matter, death has it's own time. I watched, as many of us did, as 1000's and 1000's of people learned that life is not forever and we never know when it will end.
But as the United States went back to thier lives and learned the facts of life. Like many I too went back to my life,learning a lesson but still with an attitude of forever.
Well in April of 2002, I recieved an other wake up call, this time with a very lasting lesson. On 4/10/02 I had a siezure, well this was not uncommon because of the tumor being removal, but this time I had the first of 3 strokes in a 8 day period. I learned on the second hospital stay that a second tumor had developed, this time surgery is not availible for it.
The strokes left me with a very bad speech problem,frustating,but livible,But my life had changed.But, the tumor must have been the last ditch warning.I had pushed the laughing in death's face to far and now I will live as long as my higher power gives me knowing that each day may be my last.
I tell you all I am still positive that a future exists but I also have changed. If I can touch and teach one person that you have to live every moment as if it is your last and you have to show everyone the love you have for them, without the fear of rejection or being laughed at,
MY LIFE WILL HAVE BEEN WORTH IT ALL.
If you need to talk about your wake up calls, if they were directed at you or the ones you love,
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