Well I met this one girl a while back and she is just so incredibly beautiful its unbelievable, and I would love to have a relationship with her its just that I am so shy that I cant seem to bring myself to tell her how I feel. She is so beautiful that the first time that I even got a hug from her my heart skipped a beat, and the first time I got a kiss on the cheek from her I thought I was going to pass out, but she is just so breath-taking that she would have no reason to want to have a relationship with me when she could have any guy she wanted. Its just wishful thinking on my part to think that she would ever want such an unattractive guy like me but I will never know for certain until I get the balls to tell her how I feel. There is however one problem besides my lack of guts which is stopping me from telling her how I feel and the other
happens to be the person I had a crush on for the past three years (oh by the way Kat is the name of the girl I had the crush on). I dont know how but Kat walked back into my life it wasnt bad at first but now she has me so worried and yet again I am putting my own happiness on the back burner for now. Awhile after Kat came back into my life my dream that I have had since I met her, had come true I got to kiss her, only problem being for like three weeks after it happened I went into a deep depression cause my dream was dying and I couldnt handle it, well apparently I did cause I made it through it, and I dont want to be with Kat I got my reasons (I got my answer two years ago) I just want to have a relationship with the new girl I have met I have been hanging out with her even though its like once or twice a week and we have gotten to know each other well I just wish that it could evolve in to a relationship. Now the thing with me is I dont care if I have sex with a girl I rather have a relationship, I would rather go out with a girl for 2 months and not have sex then go out with a girl for two weeks and screw like bunnies but hey thats just me what do I know, I cant even tell a girl how I feel about them. Now if I were to get with this new girl and have a relationship with her I would do everything in my power to make her happy but I just dont want to end up losing her as friend cause of my stupid ass wants to try and get into a relationship with her but I have to try or else I will never know if she would go out with me. Ok well I have found out whether or not she would go out with me. This is because I finally got the guts to tell her how I feel and cause I had a little help from a friend. Well it turns out the she would go out with me if she didnt make a pact with herself not to see anyone at this time. Which is a good thing right? But anyhow she did say that over the summer we would set up a day where me and her would go and do something together, which will be very nice to hang out with her outside of the pool halls. Oh well I will update this if anything changes. |
